Saturday, April 7, 2012

From Never Till Forever .. Part48


He followed me ..

Yousif: SHAHAAAD 9ABER SHFEEECHH!!

Me: don’t even try to say my name yaa wa9ekh!!!

He ran and closed the door ..

Yousif: mara7 te6le3een ella lama tgoulelly shfeech shessalfaa!!!

Me while crying: yousif wakher khaaalny a6laa3!!!!!

Yousif: 7ayaaatee ana walhan 3alaaichhh! Laish betrou7een sh9ayer?

Me: yousif bs wallaahh maly khelg 7etta asma3 9otek!!

Yousif came closer to me ..

Me: laaa tjeeesnyyy!!!

Yousif: wala 7etta sa3oudy?

Me: wala sa3oudy khalny a6la3!!

Yousif froze in his thoughts for seconds ..

Yousif: mnera shgaylatlech?

I bursted into my tears ..

Me: roouuu7 ekheth mobilek egra elmessages yaa 7aqeeer yaa waaaa66yyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!

He ran immediately to bring his mobile ..

I unlocked the door and went to my car ..

I was insanely crying ..

I couldn’t believe it!!

Waaallahh mukhyyy mu gaader yestaw3ebb!!

Youuuusiiifff!!! The one who loved me more than anything!!!

The one who cared about me and spoiled me as if I was his daughter ..

Yousif ellyy kan ley elzoj ou el7abeeb ou elab ou elom ou kelshaaayy!!

MUSTA7EEELL!! Ou ma3a meen? Mneeeraaa???

Ou elmushkela enny agouuullaa deer balek minhaa egoully la men 9ijjech!!

Ahhhhhhh!!!!

NAS WA6YAAAA!!!

YARABB LA TAKHSEF FEEENNA!!

Many gaadraaa astaw3eebbb shsawwaw!!!

Laaaitny sam3a kalam jarra7!!! Gaalhaa hal zawaj ma lazem yetem!

GALBA 3ALAAYY!!

EKHAAAAF 3ALAAYY!!

Ou e7ebny!

Bs anaaa elghaaabeyyaaaaa elsakheeefa elly kel hammy elflooous!!!!

Wesh faaadny kel hatha al7eeenn!!

A7ebbaaaaa!!!!

Shlouuuun ra7 agdaaar awakher 3aannaa!!!

Kaaaif raaa7 a9ber 3alaa bu3daaa!!!

I went back home ..

Mom: shahoudaa??

I gave her Msa3ad and ran to my room ..

She followed me ..

Mom: shahouuudaa

I locked my room’s door, laid on my bed and cried my heart out ..

My tears were running heavily down my cheeks ..

Mom: shahaad efte7yy elbaaabb!!

Me: maamaa khalleeenyyyy takfaainn!

Mom: wesh 9aaaayer khaba9ty galbe 3alaaikeee

Me: mama maafeeny atkallaaam!

Mom: 3ala ra7tek ya galbee

Suddenly my mobile rang ..

It was Yousif ..

I was about to answer him until I throw my mobie away ..

Lazem ya3ref enna elly 3amalah shay kbeeer ou musta7eel asam7ah 3alaaiihh!!

Even If I love him!



Kel shay barthaah menk ELLA ELKHEYANA ba3daha ye7ram 3ala 7ubbek we9aly .. kam 
sahart ayyam fee 7ubbek muwalla3 ma darait enek eb tamtheelek khayaly ..



Ahh ya jaarraa7!! Da7eeenn ga3da a7es eb shu3ourak kaaif 9aaa3bb!!

And all of a sudden my mobile rang ..

I jumped to take it back ..

It was yousif ..

I kept on staring on the screen for a while ..

Then I picked it up ..

I don’t know why!!

Yousif: alooo!

I was quiet ..

Yousif: shahaaad aloo!

Me: asma3ak!

Yousif: sheft elmessages! Ou ma3ach 7g eb ay shay tsawena bs as you know entay mu shay 3ady eb 
suhoula afarre6 feeh! I need to explain!!

Yousif: shahad weyyaay??

Me: go ahead!

Yousif: ma yenfa3 hny abe ashoufech! Tukfain la treddeeeny!

My tears started to fall on my cheeks ..

My face was emotionless ..

Yousif: shahad!

Me: wain?

Yousif: baity!

Me: impossible!

Yousif: wain tabeeen??

Yousif: yenfa3 caribou 9al7eyya?

Me: meta?

Yousif: al7een!!

Me: bye!

Yousif: na6rech

I closed it ..

Fixed my makeup and left ..

Ma3ref aish elly khallany ared 3alaih ..

Ma3ref aish elly khallany a6aw3a ou arou7 ashoufaa ..

I wasn’t thinking I was just following my heart ..

Once I arrived I gave my car to the valet and entered caribou ..

Yousif was sitting there ..

He stood up ..

Yousif: 3umriiiii

I sat on the chair in front of him quietly ..

Then he sat down ..

Yousif: shahad

I looked at him ..

Yousif: madry shloun abdaa! Ou men wain!

Yousif: bs kel elly a3arfaa enny 3umry ma 7abbait wala ra7 a7eb ghairech

I smiled ..

Yousif: wallah shahad!!

I sighed ..

Yaaakfeeee 7eloooouf!

Yousif: shahad aqsem lech ballaahh ..

I interrupted him ..

Me: DO NOT! La taqsem bellaahh! Ent ma temett lel eslam eb 9ela!!!

He stared on me for seconds ..

Yousif: elshai6an sha6er! Maa kent naawyy!!! Ga3ed eb dary ou eb 7aaalyy!! Chan teyyeeelly men 
maadry waain ou 9aaar elly 9aar!

Me: ou ay a7ad yejeek eb testaslem lah? Gaddaishak wa6y!

Yousif: qasaman bellah it was out of my control! 7awalt aqawem bs tha3aft!

Me: ya rajjaaal el control tebarra mennaak!!

Yousif: shahaaad wallaah e7naa ghaaair mara7 tegdereen tefhemeen halshay!

Me: kel elly agdar afhema ennak ensan wa6y! kent metwaq3a eny asma3 7aja tserny bs ma3a elasaf! 
Laitny ma jeeet!

Yousif: shahaaad!! Abeech eta’akedain enny a7ebbech!

Me: at’akkad? 9a3ba!

Yousif: 9AADGEEENY MARA7 A7EB MNEERAAA!!! ALLAAH YAKHETH BLEES’HAAA!! 
SHAHAAD FAAKRAY TUKFAAIN SHABE FEEEHA!

Me: 3al aqal wa6ya nafsak! Laygeen leba3ath!

Yousif: E7TARMY NAFSECH!!

Me: mu gabel ma t9eer ent mu7taram!

Yousif: mu meshkela! Elsalfa mu haynaa ou e7eg lech t3a9been! Bs fakraayy fakray enna eb 
gheyabech 3an 7ayatee ra7 tam7eenha!

Me: mafe shay afakker feeh! 6awaftlek wayed ashya’! bs lamma to9al lai hny muusta7eel!

Yousif: shahad please think about it! fakray eb ayyamnaa el7elwa! Eb la7thatnaa elly ma tennesyy!

Me: mu chan enta fakkart eb halshay gabel ma tsawwi qathartek!

Yousif: tukfain!

I stood up ..

Me: asfa!

Yousif: shahad tukfain!

Me: ou 6allegny bel6eeb wella bakhla3 mennak!

Yousif: laa laa ya shahaad!! 3allaqal fakry eb msa3ad!

Me: na3am? Went laish ma fakkart feeh!

Yousif: getlech kel elly 9ar mu eb eedy!

Me: ma3asalama!

I turned around to leave the coffee shop ..

Suddenly I froze in my place ..

Something stopped me ..

I turned around to see yousif awaiting my reaction ..

I ran toward him and hugged him tightly ..

He hugged me even tighter ..

I was crying like a small child ..

Thammaaita eb kel gewwetyyy!!!

Kunt 3arfa ennaha betkoun akher thammaa!!

I couldn’t pull myself away from him!

I couldn’t leave his warm chest, his beautiful odor his affectionate hug!!

GONNA MISS HIM!!!!

I pulled myself forcefully and ran to my car ..



3allamteny weshloun a7eb 3allemny kaif ansaa .. ya ba7r thaye3 feek elsha6 welmarsaa .. 
3allamteny weshloun a7en 3allemny kaif agsaa .. sayyer 3alaay sayyer 3alaay bs emsaa7 dmou3y 
ou rouuu7 .. sayyer 3alay sayyer 3alay jeeb leey ma3ak galben ou rouuu7 .. sayyer 3alay sayyer 
3alay etha tethakkart eljerou7 .. yaa 6aghey elnathra kha6aa taajzyy bhal bukhl el3a6aaa .. wana elly ahdaitek amal 3ain ou jefen hathy frash ou tha gha6aaa .. ya jar7 men wain abtedyyy ou enta ma3y men mawledy .. 3ayyat yadee 3ala weda3ek tehtedyyy .. BS ENTA 3ALLEMNY ELJEFA DAMY 3AJAZT A3ALMEK KAIF ELWEFA ..



It was the worst day in my whole life!!!

I went back home ..

Mom: wesh 9aayer leeekk!!

Me: ana ou yousif bente6allag!

My face was emotionless ..

Mom shockingly: LAAIHH!!

I stared on her for seconds ..

Me: ma etefagna!

Mom: laaaihhh!! Kaif ya3nii! 9arlekum sana kamala aishh elly 7a9aal!!

Me: ma etefagna!

Mom: laaa laaa shaklek mu 6abee3y! ana 3arfaa fee 7ajaaa kaaydaaa!!

Me: bs ma etefagna bs!

Mom: shahaaad!!

I chocked in my tears ..

My mom hugged me tightly ..

Mom: aishh elly 7a9al ya galbeee gouleelly ana waledetek!

Me: mamaaa ellyy 9aarlyy ma yengaaal ya mamaaaa!!!

Mom: laaihh ya galbyy aiishh 7a9aal!

Me: laaihh maaaku rajel nafs abouya allah yer7amaa!! Laaihh kel elrejaal bel wagt hathaaa …

I couldn’t say it!

Ma han 3alay galbe aftha7aah!

He means a lot to me!

Even if he hurt me!

I love him!

Mom: eg3edi ya galbe ajeeb lek kasat moyaa

I sat down ..

And all of a sudden ..

Jarra7: e7emmm e7em

I was quiet ..

Jarra7: ya ahl elbaaaittt

Then he entered the living room ..

Jarra7 surprisingly: shahaaaad??? Shfeeechhhh?????

I raised my head to see him ..

Jarra7: shfeech chethyy!! Shhaal dmouuu3! Minuuu naazzaaalhuuumm!!!

Me: Yousiffff

I bursted into my tears ..

Jarra7 nervously: SHINUUUUW?? ESHH SAWWA EBN ELLATHEEENA!

Jarra7 the only one who can do anything for me! He can listen to me he can help me he can do the 
impossible to please me !!

3araft geemta ba3ad ma sheft 7ageegat yousif ..

Me: kha …

His eyes popped out ..

Their scenery was scaring ..

Me: bente6allagg!!

I was expecting his smile!!

Jarra7 nervously: LAAAAIISHHH?? Tawwwech 9gheeeera eb 3umer elwaardd ete6allegaaaiin?? 
Ouuu laaishhh ebn ellatheena ne6ar lain waladtaaay ou 9ar bainkum yaahel!!

Me: ana elly 6alabt el6alag!

Jarra7 calmed down ..

Jarra7: shahad hatha mu shay hayyen! Ou entay et7ebbeenaa!!! I can admit it!! fakry 3aadel!!

His action really surprised me ..

My mom came back with a glass of water ..

Mom: 7abebty 6awalt 3alaiky bs re7t albes melfa3y!

Jarra7: asef khalty thayagtech

Mom: la 7abeby mafeha shay!

Jarra7: teslemeen .. yallah ana mashy taboun shay!

Mom: e9ber shfeek ma sheft jaddek!

Me: jarra7 wain betrou7!

Jarra7: barou7 7g el dektor el athwal!!



19 comments:

  1. FIRST!!!:):)
    Laaa mu min 9igaa youseff i hate himm!! W jarra7 kobar ib 3ainy lama galaha ina ur not supposed to get divorced hathaa 9ig ebayin shkithir e7ibha w yaby wanastha!!
    AFA

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  2. First First First

    Ok a7een bagra ;)

    Yours,
    -SM;*

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  3. Shbesaaaaawe jarraaa7????
    You broke my heart katkota:( allah ysam7ech:(
    'Ay

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  4. Awaaaaiih, No offence bs hatha msh rayaal shu ya3nii he can't control it Ista'3frillah, Ma chthbaaat ym galaat a7een ma fee ryaayil hayneen *sighs*

    Loved the post, finally inshalla she will marry Jara7 <3

    Loved the post again, but I love you more :*

    Yours,
    -SM;*

    P.S I'm first and second *dancing around*

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  5. More more more!! I neeeeeed to reaaaadd mooooorree! Post soon please;*! W good luck 3laa your exam <3!

    -MH

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  6. please bacher nazlay new post ou 6awleeeeee thankyoo

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  7. waaai3 yousif khal eroo7 emoot! e7urr :(( walah may9eer chithy! yaaallla post sooon shbesawy jarra7 7abaiiita!! loved the post;*

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  8. SM: HAAALA WALLAAHHH:D looove the first;* .. eee wallah yawkhaytee qallaw elreyaayeeeel:(! THANKYOUU<3!! ou tetwaqe3ain ra7 tertha feeh?? .. 7aabeeeebtyy looove youuu tooo wallahhhh;******** .. LOOOOL dance yuba dance;p

    Ay: FAZ3AT BADUUU laay7ouushek:: ..SMELLAAA 3ALA EL HEART OU RA3EEEETAA:(!!!

    MH: sure sure SURE<3!! i will enshaaallahh;* .. THANKS DEAR<3!!

    Anonymous: wallah ma aw3edech:(!! enshaallahhh love;* .. NO NEED<3

    magnifique: 7aaail!! enshaallahhhh;*.. eb yefzaaa3 7g bent elkhhaall;p .. LOVE YOU<3

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  9. AFA: Abbaaaih your comment kanat spam eb kaaif blogger;@!! YOU ARE THE FIRSTTT<3 LOOOOVE THE FIRST;*! eeeee e7eerrr youuusifff mafee rejouuulaaa!! amma jarraa7 shaaikh elrejaal loooool;p THANKYOU;* .. ou sorry for delay;*

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  10. Ya lba glbk Jara7o :') ! I love him and yousef baba tst3b6?

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  11. bs degeega "ya lba galbek" kelma se3odeyya??;$ .. EEEE YESTA3BE6;@

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  12. YOUSIF E7EEEERRR!!!! 3abaly 3anda 3ther san3 ygoul ma kan bedy;s.. ama jarra7 hathy elrejajel wla balash<3
    THAAANKYOUUU<3! a7laa post damhom befloun:p!
    I LOVE YOU<3

    -nwaira

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  13. It gets harder and harder to comment... We're utterly speechless :( No one would ever want to be in Shahad's place at the moment :(</3 7lailha...


    Lots of love
    Xxxxx

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  14. Abaaaaaaih 3afya 3ala Shahad kil shay sawta in this post ma3aha 7ag fee ! " ya rejaaal il control tbarah menaak " hahahaha '9a7katnii but it's true iff ! la wil shagoul la 3ain egoul'laha e7tarmayy nafsech !! wallah 9damnii 3balii begoulaha la mneera ga3da etchatheb shay !! bs 9damnii gal il 3aks wallah maskeena Shahad mowqeef 9ij ethayeg 7araka 7a8eera ely sawaha Yousif !! W maskeen ya7laila jaraa7 he wants the best for her 7ta lo he can't have her :( " barou7 7ag el dektor el athwal " haha cute ekhaf 3laiha w maskeen msa3ad 6aye7 bil ni9 ! Ma bougaa shay w ekhali9 il story wallah wallah GONNA MISS YOUU SOO MUCH ta3awadt eny everyday adish w ashouf salfat jara7 , Shahad w Yousif what will I do now ! :'( 3ad la teg63een mara wa7da do another story ! LOVEYOUU SO MUCH W LOVEYOUR BLOG SOOO MUCH ba3ad ! <33

    - B.R XO ;*

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  15. pleaseee postt todayyy cantt waitt imso addicted to your posts 7araam 3alaiiich post elyouum:(

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  16. AKRAAAAH YOOOOOUSEF!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Ou kel el ryaaayel.. La7'9t lama yswoon halshay eli nafs wyoohom radhom "mo eb eeidy" la eb eeid yaady eli bgaabraa??
    WAI3 ENSHALLAH YOUSEF MA ETAN7ER OU Y6ALEG BDOUN SUWALEF!!!!!!!
    Ou shahad 7a'9rt'ha tawha t3aref jarraa7 ou tawha tadre ena mayet feeha halse7taa zain a7aadd 6aal eb wayehhaaa-.-
    Qaaaaaaath'tnyyyy shahaddd ou yousef!!!!!! Ou yaaa raaabb jarraa7 yredha ou ygoulha asef mabeech:*
    Walllaaak wallah rayyaaaal!

    -T

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  17. Post yalah! 5ara fee hal youseff gomet I hate him! -noor

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  18. nwaira: 7AAADDAA!!!! gallaaha el9eejj:(! .. ahh yaa jarraaa7 elyouuum youmek ya jarraaa77;p LOOOL NO NEED LOVE<3!!LOVE YOUU MORE;*

    Lady M &amp; Princess R: eeeehhh shaaay ezaa3el:(!! 7addaaa allah laaa yableennaaa:( LOVE YOU;*

    BR: YAAA 7AYYAALLAAAHH MEN JAANAAA!! weshh the el comment elly teftaa7 elnaafs elmasdoooda??;$ laa shahad bel tedegger ta3jebeechh:: eee enqahaaarr ou yawailna men qaaher elrejaaaalll;p .. gaa3d egoullahaa el9ej muu wagta echaatheb ou yakhserha zyaaadaa *thaky*!! 7aaaddaa she didnt expect it!! eeee jarraaa77 rayyaal khalouuuq esheel 7ub 9aaadeq!eee kellesh wala shaahaaaddd;p eee 7abeby:(! EEEEHH WALLAH ANA ELLY I WILL MISS YOUUUUU:'(!!!!! ou akeeeedd i cant get enough!!!LOOOOOVE YOUUUU TOOOOOO SWEET HEARTTTT<3!!!

    Anonymous: wallaaah 7addy busy ou elpost yakheth wagt wallah am really sssoooooorryyyy;*!

    T: WHO DONT!!!!!! eeeehh wallaah allaah la yableenna eb chethy reyaayeel ou yahdeeehumm:(! laaa sometimes eb eedhum sometimes eb eed lebgara elly ma3ahum!! enshaaallaaaahh!! .. maaa 7asat eb qeemta ella lamma en7a6at eb mawqefaaa! LOOOL maskeeena kellesh mu se7taa:: ,, LOOOOL yaaal naa7eeesaaa:: 7AAIIIL<3!

    noor: enshallah bukra;* .. eeee kalb!!

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  19. Read my first post and can you comment please ;)

    -S

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