Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Flashbacks .. Part37


I took a bottle of water and poured it on his face ..
But ..
He didn’t move ..
I stared on him for seconds ..
My throat became drier than ever ..
My heart made a small “samra” ..
I calmed down ..
Me: ya3gouub?
Me: ya3goubi enta gelt mara7 tkhalleny brou7y
Me: ya3goub gouuum 3an leste3ba6
Me: ya3goub allah ykhalleek la tkhallenyy
Me: ya3gouub? Ana ma sheba3t mennek ent sheba3t?
Me: allah ykhallek red aw ta7arrak ayshay please
I shook his body ..
Me: ya3gouuubb
Me: YA3GOUUB LAA PLEASE LAAAA
I hugged him ..
Me: ya3goubbbb .. 7abeeeeebyyy
Me: ana mayaaarrek red 3alay allah ykhalleeeekk
There was a river of tears on my cheeks ..
Me: ya3gouuuuub fechhh 3youuuunekkk
Me: don’t leave me alooone
….
I was sitting in Ya3goub’s house ..
Covering my body with 3abaya ..
My face was shocked ..
“ba3ad 3umri taramelat sghera”
“ya 7ayate hathy murt elmar7oum sghayrounaa”
“3atham allah ajrech 7abeebty”
I couldn’t even say “ajerna wajrech” ..
I was just nodding ..
My face was paled and filled with tears ..
Ya3goub’s mom was crying continuously ..
He’s her smallest son ..
Wasmiya came and hugged me tight ..
She was crying her heart out ..
Wasmiya: ma3alaaaih 7ayatee sadgeeny elmout aryaa7 laaa! Ed3eeella me7taj du3a2ech
It was more like a dream ..
I have that feeling that he’ll come back ..
I know him!! Ma yhoun 3alaih ekhalleny bhl 7alaa ..
Everyone in 3aza hugged me ma3ana I don’t know all of them ..
I was wearing the ring he gave me ..
I will never remove it even if its not comfortable ..
I was staring on the ring every now and then remembering Ya3goub’s pretty face ..
Remembering the unforgettable moment when he told me “terthain feeny?” ..
Kan chennna yadri ena berou7 ..
His last hug was the warmest ..
His words “dery balech 3ala nafsech” ..
He was AWESOME!!
3umra ma thayagny 3umra ma tharny 3umra ma nazzal dam3a men 3ainy ..
Yaaaaa rab tthaabta 3end esu’al ou taghfer laaa .. yaaaa rab etkoun eljanna mathwah ..
….
Naser: mayara
Me: hmm
Naser: elshabab barra bedeshoun e3azounech
Me: 7ayyahum allah
….: alsalamu 3alaikum
Shamlan: 3atham allah ajrech yuba
A tear drop down my cheeks ..
I nodded ..
Shamlan: 9adgeeny ra7 3end elra7man elra7eem aku ar7am? Goule el7emdella ou ed3eellah
I nodded ..
I couldn’t understand the fact that he left me till forever ..
Othman: 3atham alla ajrech mayar ou enshallah bel janna bethn allah
Me: yaraab
Othman: me7taj da3watech
I nodded ..
3aboud: elbega b7ayatech la ytheeg khelgech tukfain
I nodded ..
Omar: 3atham allah ajrech
His eyes were gleaming from tears ..
Omar: ou tethakkeray enna ma3a el3usry yusra ya3ni ge3day ou ne6ray elyuser elly bya36echeya rabbe
I nodded ..
Shamlan: yalah e7na nkhalleeech
….: ma3asalama
They left our house ..
I went to my room ..
I took my wedding album ..
Me and HANDSOM ya3goub on the kosha ..
Then a photo of both of us and he was hugging me ..
Then the best photo in the whole album, me and him inside the sea in our wedding clothes ..
We were having fun and laughing ..
My tears were falling continuously ..
I want him ..
No ..
Actually I NEED him ..
He broke through my life and made it waaaaayy happier ..
I need to be happy ..
I am so depressed ..
Why do I have to lose my babies ..
I lost Fahad at the beginning and now ya3goub ..
WHY!!!!
Life is not fair ..
….
I need to smell a fresh air ..
I changed my clothes into my jogging pants and went out ..
I was walking in our neighborhood until I reached Almamsha ..
I jogged for half an hour then I sat on the bench ..
And all of a sudden ..
Omar: alsalamu 3alaikum
I smiled: ahlan
Omar: tesme3een?
Me: yallah
He gave me a headset ..
Ya 3anoud almaha ya qemmeten fel jamal ..
Menk men ma7th 9edfa jar7 galbe yesseel ..
Fee bedayat 9eba7en ma3a nehayat zewal ..
Wagefen 3an hajeer eshams ta7t eltheleel ..
Nathreten webtesama bs wain elwe9al ..
Mawqefy ma sema7ly ya 3elajy el3aleel ..
Webta3adna ou thany 3ugb hatha MU7AL ..
Shoufetek watesa’al wain ou wain edaleel ..
Lain dar elzeman wa9ba7 gereb elkhayal ..
Jab 9EDFA tegha6y sabe3 elmustaaa7eel ..
Sa3adatny thuroufy wefta7atly majal ..
NAFS THAK ELMAKAN BROYETEK YA JAMEEL ..
….
Me: 3umar?
Omar: hmm?
Me: I miss him
Omar stared on me for seconds ..
Omar: yalaitny ana elmayyet bedala
Me: la allah y6awel b3umrek
Omar: mayar entay wayed taghayartay
Me: adry! He was my life ou I lost my life shettewaqa3 menny?
Omar: luw kan 3ayesh ma kan yabe eshoufech bhal 7ala
Me: adry bs magdar walla magdar
My eyes started to tear ..
He gave me tissues ..
I wiped my tears ..
Omar: 7e6y eb balech ena yath’haab eljameel leya’ty alajmal
Me: ajmal men ya3goub haha matwaqa3
Omar: khalle amalech balla kbeer ou hatha bala2 9ebry 3aalaih ou la yubtala ella elmu2men
I nodded ..
Omar: 7awlay tensain ou 3eeshy 7ayatech redday mayar elly kelha 7ayat ou the7ek ou she6ana lai meta bet3eeshen 3ala thekra ensan musta7eel yerja3
Me: LA TFAWEL
Omar stared on me surprisingly ..
His eyes started to gleam from tears ..
Me: astaghfer allah
I stood up and walked to our house ..
I couldn’t concentrate in my way ..
BEEEEEP BEEEP
Me: effff de3mouny be6aggag zaaain!!
Omar ran toward me ..
He was breathing hardly ..
He grabbed my hand forcefully and walked me home ..
Omar: SHOUFAY 6EREEEJECH!!
Me: ok
I entered our house ..
Went to my room ..
Laid on my bed ..
Grabbed my blackberry ..
Omar Al****:
Mayar
Mayar .. gheyyabek 3anni ba3tharny:
Na3am
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This post made me cry .
i know its too sad .
but it was really hard to write it.
it took me hours.
so please understand.
its just a story so ma nekhsarshy ba3zeena.

56 comments:

  1. LAISHHHH!!!! Lazim i cry y3nii !!?? Madri laish bs kraht 3umat el 9ara7aa!! Plz make the next post ywanisssssss!! W thanks for posting ;** post soon
    -ShahaSS

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    1. 3umar* w FIIRRSST Xp
      -ShahaSS

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    2. HALA BEL FIRST<3!!!
      maaadry:( .. ohwa shaaakuu:( .. No neeed love<3

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  2. Waaay babcheeeeeee:'( laish laish!!!!! el7een akeed 3umar byetzawjhaa! shukraaan wayed 3alpost yezach allah khair yal7ilwaa:***
    [ D ]

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    1. shensaawwi ba3aaad:( .. muu shaar6!! el3aaafuu 7ayyach allahhh<3!!

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  3. LAISH TSWEEN FENA CHEE? 7ARAM 3ALAICCH :(
    Next post please:c elyoum 3ashan nsam7chh ;)

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  4. Amazing post it made me care galbi gam e3werni 7araam :( please wanseena ib post al7een iwanis ;p

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    1. THANNNKSSSS LOOOVE<3!!! smelaaa 3aalaaich:( sorry:(

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  5. Aaaa7 must7eeeeeeel inshallah yarabii omaar ykoon a7san mena wykhaaf 3alaich o y7ebch!!

    It hnmarafie

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  6. OMGG!!!!!! Walla dmoo3i eb 6araf 3aini bs ana 6al3a fa fahla:(!!!! Hal mara 9j ra7aw el6aybeen!!!!:'( allah yer7ema chan 9j mayet;/
    Lja

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    1. EEEH:(! weeeeh x_x! .. eee wallaaahhhh:'( .. ameeennn:(

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  7. OMG! :(

    this post made me cry! .. is this a true story?

    - A

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  8. I'm really close to crying !! Y3nee laish Che ?! Did he have to die ='(
    We'll miss him =(
    I feel so bad for Mayar!
    An amazing yet heartbreaking post ='(
    Please post soon .. W Che post ywansnaa wayeeed *Trying to cheer up* oh yaa; is it a true story ?!
    - SAZ

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    1. kelena bechaina:( .. qathaa2 ou qadar! eeeeh:( .. maskenaaa:( .. THANKS LOVE<3!! Yes it is

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  9. Soa'al: ya3gob laish mat? Ya3ne fe sebab wela yomah?

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  10. Such a sad post *criesariver*
    cried my heart out :( :'( <3<3
    by6la3lha wa7ed mithl ya3goob w a7san
    allah by3aweth'ha inshalla

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  11. Is this a real story? Or is there true events?

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  12. Its the first time I post a comment, :'( YOU MADE MEE CRYYYY!!!! I know, gabel shahrain ta8reeban 9arlna ta8reban nafs ilmaw8f a friend died so, wayed iybachy this post made me cry, again. I lovee u, and thankyou for the post -NB

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    1. Welcome<3! Awwwh im sorry for you:( .. eeeeh i know him allah yaghfer lah enshallah wethabta;* .. I love you too, no need love<3

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  13. Ya3ni 9a7 elomoor 6ayba o na7na en5air bs el7ub ya3goob 7abeeeeeeby maaaaaaaaaat!!!!!!! Ya3ni laish?!?! I sswear before opening this chapteer I started to tear :'(
    I LOVE YA3GOOB!! beedi yahh.. I will really miss him I can't i$aginr the story noww with out him :'(
    Eenshallah janat elfoerdows mokana
    Plz post soon :(
    ;*******

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    1. LOOOL! eeeeehhhh:( ..before? laaih bas:( ..
      WHO DOESNT!!!
      eee wallahhh:(
      AMEEEEN;*

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  14. I teared walla !! Shlon oo laish mat ? Twa mtzawj shku ymout !! Mskina mayaar wallah alla y3inha ! Bs still post 3jeb w qe9a maku a7la mnhaa ;*!!
    Next post ASAP ♥
    #MuchLove
    Nody

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    1. haw mu bkaifa ba3ad! ketbat raba! 7adhaaa:(
      ee wallahhh !!
      Mashkouuuuraa<3

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  15. THIS POST JUST MADE ME CRY:'(
    I REALLY LOVED MAYAR AND YA3GOUB!! Such a cute couples!! Laish tiwafa?? Shlooon kan 7aaas!!!!
    Many m9adgaa ya3goub!! O eb her honeymoon;s la 7awla wala quwata ela belaah;/ is it true ina towafa bil honeymoon!!??
    allah y3eenha mayar winshalah omar bey3aweth'ha!! YA3GOUB 9IJY?

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    1. KELLENAAAA:(!!!
      ME TOO:(!!! eee wallahhh! sakta qalbeyaaa! madry
      eee wallahh:( ..
      Eeeeeh:( ENSHALLAH!
      eehh

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  16. Tadreen eny bcheeet :'( !
    Amazing post please post asap !! Love you - JA

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  17. :'(((!!
    galbi gam yitga633.....
    wayy 7araamm bs shinsawyy hatha ily rabi katbaa
    allahh ikoon ib 3onha hal msaicheena!:((
    M91

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  18. LAAAAAAAAA2 laish chethey laish laish ya rewaya laish khalaytee emout !!! Bachaiteeny !! il post really touching wallah its like i'm living with them lamma they tell her stuff like khalla9 thikray allah w chethey a7es its like me ;p ABAIII i just realized something !! The story is REAL !! ya3nii this really happend the man died ib their honeymoon A7777 7aram wallah who ever the girl is 7aram ma tistahil 7aram ! W mayar ba3ad kilish ma tistahil !! Bs you know what hathey kitbat allah w 9a7 kalam 3umar Allah takes something good from us just to give us better and maybe etha 3ashat ma3a ya3goub be9eer ashya2 ! Maybe 3umar is way better for her who knows !! Anyway il post is really touching thankyouu waid for the efforts you put on this amazing blog !! ♥

    -BR

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    1. Anaaa shakuuuu:(
      Awhhh:(
      Looool which is good;$!!
      eeeh it is!!
      eee maskeeenaaa:(!
      Hathaaa ohwaaaa!!
      ENTAY ELLY THANKYOU 3AL COMMENTS ELLY EHABLOUUUN<3!!!!

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  19. AMAZING! I loved this post! 7adi z3alt ina y3goub mat:( this is actually my favorite blog! keep it up!<3 -S

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    1. THANKYOUUUUUU<3! im glad you did<3!!
      eee wallahhh:(
      awwh wallah ma tga9ren wanasteenyy!
      enshallah;*

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  20. Amazing Post it's made me cry :'(
    Allaah yer7ima :( !
    Please post soon and don't make it a sad one :( !
    Thankyou so much ;*

    - TM

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  21. 7ram 3aleeechhhh!!!!Low 5al9t alstory b3d al3rs kan a7sn wla nbchi hal bachiii!!!alla yr7maa:')!!this post is really touching i felt like I'm living the momemnts with them:")your a reallly ammaiiizzzinngg writer!!!

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    1. Ana shaaaku!!
      eee shensawwi ba3ad:(
      ameeen!
      awhhh!!
      THAAAAANKS DEARRRRR<3!!!

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  22. haw al7een raylha mayt
    el mfroo'9 etkoon bel 3eeda
    shloon 6al3a tmasha w elshabab dasheen e3azoonha


    thanks for the post

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    1. Ya3ni marrat ayyaam shensawi ba3ad;p
      No neeed;*

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  23. When you will post the next one ?

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  24. plzz post 2day im traveling
    and i dont now when i could access the internet :(

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  25. Waaaaaaaayyyy amazing post:'(((!! Wallaaah you're best writer evveerrr! Yala next post ASAP<3

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    1. Thaaaaaankyouuu sooo muuuchhh!!!!!
      Yooou made my day thanks agaaaain<3!!

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  26. 3war gaalb !! i dunno bs i miss ya3goob :(!

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  27. Y3NII LEEEH MU FAHAAD ELI MAAT :( ????????????????

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  28. Nooo! Whyy Didd youu kill himmm! =((((
    butt, it wass soo happyy. they were soo happpyy =( </3

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  29. AKH YARAAABE THIS TOUCHED MY HEART AQ9AA 6ABAQAT IB GALBE �������������������� babchi - dalaljjjjjj

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