Restrained Love .. Part2

That was shocking ..

My heart skipped beats ..

I couldn’t believe it ..

Yara surprisingly: na3am??

Mom’s eyes started to tear ..

Yara hugged my mom ..

Yara: Yuma sh9ayer?

Mom: madry ya bnayte madry sh9ar lena

I was staring silently ..

I was really shocked that I cant say a word ..

Yara: yumma 7abebty kelshay yen7al betafahum bas mu 6alag marra wa7da

Mom: 9arlena 4 ashhur met6algeen ou bel3eda ga3da 3enda yemkin enghayyer rayna bas maku fayda

Yara: enzain sh9aar? Shesebab?

Mom: madry mu gadreen net7ammall ba3ath!!! Mu gader e6el bwayhe walany gadra ashoufaa

I left them and ran to my room ..

I couldn’t believe it ..

My parent te6alegaw? That’s unbelievable ..

Ya3ni they were beautiful together, They used to love each other ..

WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM!!!!!!!

I laid on my bed and cried my heart out ..

How can I tell my friends about it?

“wain omech?” “obouy 6allag’ha” ughh noooooo ..

And all of a sudden ..

Dad: sarah? Yuba shfeech tabchen?

I didn’t raise my head ..

Me: mafeny shay!

He came closer to me ..

Dad: met’akda mafeech shay yuba?

I ignored his sentence ..

Dad: minu mza3lech 7abeebty?

I raised my head to see him ..

Me:  laishhh sawait chethy??

Dad: ana mza3lech? shinu baba shsawait?

Me: laish 6allagt omy? 7araam ma testahel! 7aram 3ugub hal 3umer et6alleg’ha!! Entaw ma t7essouuunn!!

My dad slowly wiped my tears away and kissed my cheek ..

Me sadly: laish?

My dad sat on my bed ..

Dad: the7kay

Me: men9ejek yuba? Omy ma testahel! Wallah gayma feek ou 7ayfetek 7of 7araaam! Shbetgoul 7g ahalha? Shbetgoul 7g rabe3ha! Fashla!!!

Dad: benty! Ma7ad e7eb omech kethry!!!

Me: huh! KENT!

Dad: 3umry ma karaht’ha!!

I stared on him ..

Dad: bs madry madry many gader at7ammalha!!! Kel shay tsaweh gam e3a9ebny!!! Ta9arufat’ha many 6ayeg’ha

Me: baba ehya mu thanbha eta7ammal hashay!!! Elbala feeek!

Dad: 7etta ehyaaa!!!! E7na maktoub lena n3eesh 35 sena ou bsss!! Akthar musta7eel! Fatrat el3edda b6oulha ehya ga3da 3endi belbait bs ma7ad fena ghayar rayah! Ana ou omech mu bagheen ba3ath sarouna ma tegderen tajberen athnain yeg3edoun weya ba3ath!

Me: ma fakartaw fena?

Dad: el7emdellah watha7 ou yara metzawjeen ou kelen shayel nafsa ou entay al7een mara kbeera allah y7afthech ou tefhemeeen

Me: 3umry mafakart ena be9eer hal youm!

Dad: kelshay lah nehaya

Me: bas laish ma tkoun nehaya 7elwa?

Dad: maku a7la men nehayatna el7emdellah te6alagna metfahmeen

Me: metfahmeen? 9a7 9a7!

Dad: 3endech shak?

Me: mataboun ba3ath taboun elfakka men ba3ath! Ma te6alagtaw metfahmen! Bs etefaqtaw 3ala ray wa7ed

Dad: la ytheeg khelgech!

Me: wain ba3eesh? Ma fakartaw!

Dad: afa2 afa2! bet3eesheen 3endy akeeed!

Me: ou omy?

Dad: omech tekhtar wain betrou7 ou ma 3endy mane3 a6ale3 elmu’ajeren foug ou asken besheqa ou akhaleha teg3ad hny belbait

Me: ABAAAIH 3AYAL LAISH ET6ALEG’HAAAA!!!!!! SHLOUN YEHNALEK GALBB!!!!

Dad: 7abebty! Ana 6alagt’ha khalas ou e7na metafqeen!

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One week passed ..

My mom moved to my grandma’s house ..

My grandma kanat 7ail m3asba because of the divorce thing ..

Ou she’s like MAT3AREF TET9ARRAF!!!!!

After a month ONLY one month she brought a husband for my mom out of nowhere!!!!!!!!

Watha7 surprised: omy bettezawaj??????

Yara: eeeh!!!

Me: no comment!!! Obouy dara?

Yara: laaaa!! Madry shloun bengoullah!

Watha7: omy lazem tgoullah!

Me: shaku etgoulah kho mu 3ala themeta!

Watha7: many mestaw3eb ena mara 3umerha 53 betezawaj! Omy men 9ejha?

Yara: wathaa7 mu menha kella men mama Sara astaghferallah yekbroun wekharfoun

Me: ba3aref mama sarah 3endahaa magic tgoul abe rayel tyeeb rayel?

Watha7: eee wallah hatha ely m7ayerny!

Yara: ma3aarefha waydeeen ou solafatlehum 3an omy akeed!

Me: mama sara mu men 9ejha JAD! Ya3ni mama kbera ou 3endaha 3yal egoumon feha kelesh mala da3y etezawaj 3ala kebber

Watha7: omy shloun wafaqat???

Yara: youm sa’alt’ha chan tgouly ena ana me7taja a7ad enaseny oboukum lanha lail7en t7eba plus enna hal ensan ely byetzawaj omy safeer ou 3ayesh blandan so hashay khallaha t9er 3alaih mu 3ala ghaira

Me gasped: BET3EESH WEYAH BLANDAN??? MAMA STAKHAFFAT?? MU GAM TFAKER FEENNA? KHALAS NESATNA????

Watha7: omy estakhafat rasmy!

Yara: 7e6aw nafskum mukanha! 35 mjabla obouy ou e7eboun ba3ath emoutoun eb ba3ath 3umerhum ma faregaw ba3ath faj’a te6alegaw bsebbat .. bsebbat asbab ghaaamtha!! Ou ohma still e7eboun ba3ath fa tabe tensaaah!!!

Me: eeh! Maskena!

Watha7: tegdar tensah bel kwait ou bedoun ma etezawaj bs madry entaw banat fahmenha akthar

Yara: allah yes3edha wewanes’ha nafs ma wanesatna

Me: AMEEEN!

Watha7: amen ou yakteblaha ely feeh elkhair

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My mom’s travelled with her husband 3amy A7mad ..

It was the hardest farewell ever ..

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Dana gasped: chathaabaaaa!!!!!!!!

I was quiet ..

Dana sadly: bs laaishh!! Qasdy 7araam!! I mean hmmm kheera

I smiled: adry adry ou adry!

Dana: ashwaa

Me: Abaih dana please la tgoulen 7g elbanat

Dana: akeeed mara7 agoul a9lan shaku agouuul!

Me: mashkoura!

Dana: saroun 7ayate la tthaygeen khelgech tara wallah hathy mu nehayat eldenyaa!

Me: ana akthar wa7da mettharera a7es! Khwany ma3endehum mashakel ta3awedaw mayshoufoun omy wubouy kelyoum bs ana?

Dana: ma3alaih allah y3eeen enshallah ou ana mawjouuuda!

Me: allah la ya7remnyyy!!!!

Dana: wala ya7remny bs 9adgeeny hathy mu nehayat el3alam

I felt her sadness!!

She was so sad because of me and my stupid problems ..

I have to fake a smile, I have to get over it ..

Me faked a smile: dano 7abebty wallah im ok 3ady 9arlehum akthar men shahar ou 3ady wallah

Dana sadly: 9ej?

Ya 7ayate ya dana ..

Me: a9laaan my life now is waaaaaaay betterrr! Tadren laish? Obouy 9ayra kela akser kha6ra ou ma yredly 6alab ou wayed a9eer home alone fa 3ajeeeeb asawy elly abe akel ely abe fe a7laa??

Dana: swaira 7ayata stop faking happiness!!! Elmushkela eny a3arfech! Khlaaas ensay enas ana be6aggag khal az3aaal! 3abray 3an shu3ourech lai meta!

My eyes started to tear ..

She’s more than a sister ..

Me: I have nothing to say! Bye

Dana: sarah ayech?

Me: laa wallah mafeny shay shda3wa

Dana: ok bye 7ayate

Me: bye!

I HATE BEING WEAK!!!!!!!!!

I HATE BEING SAD!

I HATE BEING THE REASON OF SOMEONE SADNESS!!!!!

YARAB TES3ED DANA OU TFARE7HAAA YARABBBB!!

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Weeks later ..

I miss my mom, I really do.

I decided to call her ..

Mom: HALAA WALLAH HALA SAROUNA 7ABEEEBY SHLOUNECH?

Hearing her voice makes me cry!!!!

I have to fake a smile ..

Me smiled: hala feech mama shlounech?

Mom: walla el7emdellah bkhair ou ne3ma mu nagesny ghair shofatkuumm!!

I swallowed my tears ..

Me: shloun 3amy A7mad weyach?

Mom: a7mad? Mu mga9er 3alay bshay

She absolutely wants my father ..

Me: el7emdellah!

We talked about everything ..

My studying, her life and the heart breaking part was that she asked me about my dad!!!!!!!!

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One day ..

One unforgettable day ..

Watha7 was calling me ..

Me: aloo

Watha7: hala sarah wainech?

Me: belbait!

Watha7: nezlay ta7at ana ou obouy bel9ala nabe nkalmech

My heart skipped a beat ..

Me: shessalfa watha7?

Watha7 giggled: shfeeech ekhtara3tay! Nezlay yallah

His giggle comforts me ..

Me: ok ok

I went down stairs to see watha7 and dad ..

Me: shesalfa?

My dad smiled ..

Dad: allah yakheth ou ya36y

I was staring on him!!

I was like DESH BELMAWTHOU3!!!!

Dad: khatha menna omech!

IS HE PLANNING TO GET MARRIED?????

Me: eeeeh????? Ou sh3a6ana bedal omy???

Dad: ma nqarn eb omech! Omech malha shebeh wala laha bedeel! Ahh allah yes3edhaa

Me: amen!

Dad: yalech rayel!

THAT WAS NOT EXPECTED AT ALL!!!!!

Me: hah!

Watha7: ne3ma elrejal! Weld a9el ou fa9el ou flouuus!

Dad: ne3ma ena yaa bhalwagt! Entay al7een me7taja zoj

My eyes started to tear ..

Me: allah la y7ouuujny wana 19! Baba 3endy enta laish a7taj zoj!!

Watha7: sarah obouy belail dewaneya ou el9eb7 dawam ou sheghel ou entay 6oul elwagt brou7ech hny!!

Me: bs ana mabe!

Dad: ne6ray shoufy elrayyal khaleh eshoufech tarah weld 3ayla ou be3ezech werezech!

Me: yuba 7abeby ma wedy akser kelmetek wala aradedek bas ana ma7taj rayel ana sgheera im just 19 efhamny!

Dad: shyemna3? Omech awal ma khathait’ha kanat 18!

Me: yuba thak elwagt ghair 3an halwagt!

Watha7: sarah! Obouy lail nahar e7ateech! Entay mas’ouleya bergebta wehwa al7een kebar ou mu nag9a ysheel ham!

Dad: sarouna 7asha mahe ham! Bas ana abe at6aman 3aalaich!

Me: laish mareeth? Betmout? Feek shay? Mafeek ela el3afya allah y6awel b3umrek!

Watha7: entay bas shoufeeh!

Dad: 3ashan kha6ry!

In that moment I felt that river of tears were knocking my eyes door to fall down my cheeks ..

7asaitny 3alaaa 3aalaihum!!

7asait bezawjouny ou khalas!!

Obouy shayel hammy? 7aram shthanba ysheel hmoum wehu bhal3umer wely feh kafeh!

Ok khal ashoufa ya3ni ana shkhasrana? Ou ba3dain arfethaa!!

Me: ok minu hatha?

Watha7: jassem al****

Dad: mad7eena lena bnayte 9adgeeny mara7 nertha eb ay wa7ed wessalam

Me: ok ra7 afaker

I said the sentence above and ran to my room, close the door and laid on my bed ..

I was crying my heart out ..

Things wont get worse!!!

I really don’t want to get married in an early age!!

Butt I want to please my dad!!!

I want him to be proud of me!!!

Ohh! I’m scared!

I need my mom!!!

I need her hug!!

God! Help me ..

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Me: yuba ana fakkart wayed ou qarart!

Dad: shgeltay? 



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