Restrained Love .. Part1

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This story is full of action and surprises bs ne6raw 3alai::: ..

Ou Don't judge a book from its cover ..

3EEEEDKUM MBARAKKK OU TE3OUDONA ENSHALLAH<3!!

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Love you all;*

6eweeeel, jameeeel e7ebnnyyyy emouuut feeenyyy ..

esma? Khaled

Agoulla khaled?

Agoul sammaaayyy ..

Agoullaa 7abeeeeby?

Egoulle 3uuuumri

Agoulla 6alabtek?

Egoule amraaaay? Asafrech elgumar? Ana gad’haaa!

Agoullah bs bs mabe shay esta7aait ..

Eyyeelly ou elemny wegoullee yaaaajmaal men fel wejouuuuuud ..

Ou wayhe e9eer a7mar ou lsany yenrebe6 ou akhesh wayhe eb sadraa ou alemma ..

Mom giggled: shouf shouf madry shtafker feeeh halbent

Dad giggled: tlageen tfakker eb nafnouf men Elie Saab

I looked at them ..

Me: afaker wafakker bs minu elly yefham weyeeebb

Dad: bal? ashterellech nafnouf eb 6000 wenty 9a3da? La 7asha many majbour

Mom: enshallaah la tezawajtay badlat 3ersech

Me: entaaaay gad elkalam ely tgouleena?? Please al7een mu belail 3ashan yam7eeh elnahaaar!

Mom: enshallah laish laa2!

Dad: allah yakhsef feekum shfekum entaw? Sayyara mu nafnouf

Me: luw 3endi 10000 ou ma3endi sayyara? Ashtery eldress ou meste3eda arkab b taxi

Mom giggled: hawas hawas

Dad: agoul daloula?

Mom: amerr

Dad: meshtehy ma7albeyya men eedech

Mom: weyyy!!! Bass?? Ma 6alabt shay al7een agoum asawwelek

Dad: teslemeeennn

My mom went to the kitchen immediately to make some ma7albeyya for my dad ..

My dad looked at me and smiled ..

Dad: sh3endech ma tgoumeen tsa3deen omech?

Me: wana sh3arrafny balla asawi ma7albeya??

Dad: golat ma a3aref ra7aa

Me: ee wallah ra7a

Dad: entay allah y3een raylech 3alaich kellesh mee7

Me: elly yabeeny eye yakh6ebny weya 6abakhta bedal omma haha

Dad: jeeel kharban marra wa7da

After a while my mom came back ..

She smiled ..

Mom: ka 7a6ait’ha bel thallaja bss tabred ayebha lek

Dad: ya36eeech el3aafya yubaa

Mom: allah y3afeek

I used to live with those sweet parents in a small house located in Qurtoba area ..

I have elder sister and brother ..

My brother Watha7 is married to beautiful Salma, they have two pretty girls Rana and Jana ..

My sister Yara is married to Faisal, they have one beautiful boy Dhari ..

I am the smallest one ..

I have a very simple personality ..

I am down to earth to everyone ..

I smile to everyone and speak to anyone ..

I trust and love easily ..

My dad doesn’t have too much money but he has love ..

I used to live in a house filled with love and peace ..

I don’t wear Chanel bags but I wear Carolina harrera ..

I don’t have Yves Saint Laurent shoes but I have marc by marc Jacobs ..

I believe in the sentence “it is not what you have it is what you are”

I have too many true friends that love me for who I am ..

I am so obsessed with fashion ..

I can’t shop in the high brands boutiques, But I wear better than a millionaire ..

What else?

My name is Sarah, yes Sarah as simple as this ..

170 centimeter height and 68 kilogram weight ..

I am not skinny but fit ..

I have a long dark brown hair with blonde ombre’ highlights ..

I never wear makeup, my makeup is my pretty smile ..

…

Dana was calling ..

Me: hi

Dana: ahlannn

Me: ha shffeeech?

Dana: abaih swair malal 6afshaa theegat khelg shoufeelly 7aal

Me: men galech enny markaz sarah lelmut3a walhalaga? Kel ma malaitay dagaitay?

Dana giggled: ya maleeeeqaaa minu adeg 3alaiih ya3nii

Me: ok ok khansawi shay

Dana: shrayech endeg 3al hailag ou ne6la3 yemeee3?

Me: yallaa ana ma3endi shaay

Dana: yallah deggay 3aalaihum

Me: khangoul bel group

Dana: laaa no way a3arefhum ya7gerouuuun

Me: smella 3alaina wayed enshallah tabeny adeg 3ala wa7da wa7da?

Dana: eeee please

Me: ok wain enrou7?

Dana: enrou7 living room akeed fathy ou mafeh a7ad ou eljaw 7elu neg33ad barra ou neshrab coffee

Me: ok tam

Dana: yallah khal abadel

Me: bye

Dana is my closest friend, actually she’s more like a sister ..

I called our friends to tell them about “el6al3a” and yes we used to call each other “hailag” lanna etha ejtema3na ensawi ashya’ hailegeya ..

We decided to go by one car ..

It’s Lulu’s car, she drives a land cruiser so ra7 ekaffeena ..

All of my friends live in Yarmouk and Odaileya, I was the only one who lives in Qurtoba so ana akher wa7da emerouny ..

I opened my closet and chose something to wear ..

I wore a yellow half sleeve’s dress with a black big hat since the restaurant is on the beach so ..

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP

Yess the hailag always make noise ..

I opened my window ..

Me: KANYYYY NAZLA YAL HAILAAAGGG!!

Well they didn’t hear me ..

Awal ma 6ala3t wella omy ou obouy bel7adeeqa yeshreboun chay ..

I smiled ..

Me: taboun ayeeblekum shay weyay? Ana ray7a ashrab gahwa weyya elhailag

Mom: ohh hally e6egoun hernat rab3ech?

Me giggled: eeeh minu ghairhum

Mom: ana mabe shay

She looked at my dad ..

Dad: allah y7afthech chenech omech awal ma khathait’ha jameela

I smiled in a shyly way ..

Me: 3younek eljameela baba

My mom held my dad’s face from his chin and kissed his cheek ..

Mom: rabbena yugbur bekha6rak

Dad: 3ad lail7een jamalech ma nega9 neg6a

She was giggling in a shyly way ..

I smiled ..

Me: ya7elouuukum allah la ya7remny men jamalkum ma3asalama

Mom and dad: allah y7afthech

Once I entered Lulu’s Land ..

All of the hailag: ESHAWGOUUUUN

Me: minuuuu ohma?

Lulu: omech ou obouch

Samira: chenhuuum tawhum metzawjeen

Me: ba3aref shloun sema3taw?

Yasmin: shefnaaa ma sema3naa

Me: eee omy ou obouy kella chethy atmanna rayel nafs obouy jad eyanen

Raghda: 7eta omech!! Mashalla 3alaihum 9arlehum sneen weya ba3ath ou ohma chethy!!

Me: eeeh! Ou 3umry masheft’hum e9arkhoun 3ala ba3ath ou etha omy tethayegat men ay shay lezem obouy eratheeha ma ykhalleha tnam wehya methaygaa

Durar: yaaallah erzegnaaaaa

Dana: allah y7afeth’hum wetammem 3alaihum thekraw rabkuum

Me: ella wain elbajee??

Lulu: ghanwa daggat 3alay galat 3endaha mte7an

Raghda: ou fareeda ekhet’ha gam tolad

Yasmin: ou layyoul omha mu rathya lana 9arlaha sbou3 ma g3edat belbait

Me: ahh ma3ana youm kalamt’hum ma galaw sshay

Samira: eee kella 9ar faj’a

Durar: waaay swaira shaklech eyaannen

Dana: 7aadda 9a7?? Walla 7asaitech eb Marbella mu bel kwait

I smiled: mashkoureeen

Raghda: 3ad mashallah swaira thouq kella kashkha mashallah

Lulu: yalaaait agdar albes hat nafsech

Me: 3adi foug le7jab la tkhalen shay bkha6rech

Dana: 3ad layoul tsaweeha t9adgeen?

Lulu: ee bs 7g eshalai mu faj’a chethy

Yasmin: abaaaih tawni astaw3eb msawya ombre eyanen lonaaa

Me: waaay estee3abech be9eerly shahar

Raghda: eee 9ej kela bagoulech ou ansa wain sawaiteeh?

Me: eb eden sheghelhum eyanen 9ara7a

Dana: enzain baskum 7allaltaw elbent 7e6eeellena 3eraaaaqy ya lu2lu2a

Samira: laaa please 3an elhalagaaa

Lulu: yolo yolo yuba

Samira: abaih bathbe7ech shakuuu yolo belmawthou3 mabe 3raagy wai3

Dana: 3eraaaaqyyyyy 7e6 yuba 7e6

Me: 7e6aay khanestanes

Raghda: haha sameroo btalshat feekuum

Yasmin: ana gabel kent ma7eb 3ragy bs kharabtounyy

Lulu: yakheee eheeezz ou daggat’hum 3ajeeba

Dana: off a9lan etha 7afla mafeeha 3eraqy 3alaiha esaalam

Me giggled: dwain lawa3ty chabdy weya 3eraqeyech goulay 3ragyy la yenshag 7enchech

Samira: waaay hailag hailagg elly eshouf kashkhatkum ou anaqattkum ma ygoul yesme3oun 3ragy wai3!

Dana: lwailoooo 6awleeehh

Lulu: enzaaain elly wara sakro edarayesh manabe fethaye7

We enjoyed our time listening to Eraqy hailegeyya songs while Samira ga3da ou tet7al6am hahaa ..

I love my friends ..

Akthar shay a7eba feehum 6abee3eyat’hum, 6abe3eyyen ou basee6een ou ely bgalbhum 3ala lsanhum chenhum khawaty mabaina 7awajez waala 7aya wala mesta7a allah la ya7remny menhum ..

At the coffee shop ..

Raghda: waaaay mashallah your bracelet men waaain shareeeta?

Me: ay wa7ed? Hatha?

Raghda: eeeeh

Me: khathaita men dubai

Raghda: tadreeen shkether 9arly adawra? Kel ma arou7 makuu!

Me: trou7een Balenciaga elkwait? Maynouna? Mafeeh shay!

Raghda: shasawi ma safart!!! Ou mashallah mayta abee hal louuun!!

*We were in Dubai mall in bloomingdales ..

Me: MAMAAAA!!!!!!!  Elswaaar elly 9arly sena adawra ou nafs ellouun elly abeeh!!!

Mom: besmellah! Theglay bnayte shfeech!!!

Me: tadreeen shinu ya3ni 3ez el6alab??

Mom: ashouuuf 3a6eny khanshoufa!!

I gave her ..

Mom: men 9ejech? Hatha elly mzawegh galbech?

Me: eeeh yumma eeee!!!!

Mom: mafeeh zouuud!

Me: luw ashra7lech lai bacher menty fahmatnyy

Mom: ya3ni tabeena?

Me: SO BADLY!!

Mom: allah y3afeek bcham hatha?

The man: hayda 7a’o 500 derham

Mom: 500 ma yeghla 3ala swaira yalla 3a6nayyah

The man: hayda akher e63aa

Mom: mu meshkela

Me: mabeee box balbesa al7een!!

My mom smiled: allah ywansech bel3afya*

…

7assait bshu3our raghda, youm kent mayta abeeeh!! El7emdelah khathaita ou stanast ou lebastaa ma atwaqa3 ra7 akhalle bkha6erha ..

I took the bracelet off and gave it to Raghda ..

Me smiled: hachh

Raghda’s eyes popped out: MEN 9EJJECH? LA LAAAA ABAIH LA MAABEE!!!!

Me: qasaman bellah ma y6ub yeldy 3ugub hal degeegaaa!!

Raghda: waaaay laish ta7lefeeen mu ela talbesena bas mabeh!!

Dana: way sarah elwa7ed ma yemda7 3endech shay?

Me: chub entay! Raghoud wallah az3al en ma khathaiteeehhh ekhtheeeh!!!

Her eyes started to tear ..

She took the bracelet and hugged me really tight ..

Raghda: allah la ya7remnyyyy

Samira: abaaaaaiihhhh

All of us: shinuuuu??

Samira: goulaw minu enkhe6aab??

All of us: minuuu??

Samira: 3awasha Al****

Yasmin: YA7LAAILHA!

Me: abaaaih kellesh mu layegg!!

Raghda: min khathat?

Samira: weld Al*****

Lulu: yemkin her cousin lanna omha bent el*****

Dana: bs yarabbe tawhaaaa 19!!

Yasmin: abaih tekhayelaw wa7da feena tenkhe6eb

Raghda: waaay wanaaasaaaa!!

Lulu: a77es babchee waaayyy

Dana: ou narge9 laahaa egouloun hathail refeejat el3arouuus

Samira: yaaaraab allah yarzeg wa7da feeena thak elrayel elsan3

Me: waaay besmellah fal allah wala falkuum tawnaaaa 9ghar 19 7etta ma wadda3na el teens khanestanes wenhaleg weya ba3ath ou la7geen 3alzawaj la takharajna

Yasmin: a7es shfeeha ya3ni tezawejay al7en ou le3yal ba3dain 3adi

Me: wai3 shallah 7adna 3ad

Raghda: wanasa tekhayelay a7ad e7ebech wedal3ech waaaayy

Samira: ou yetghazzal feeech 7eta luw tawech gayma men elnom ou wayhech mtaffakh

Dana: ou a9baaagh sha3ryyyy

Yasmin: ou arouuu7 el Maldives

Raghda: ou albes hathak el dress elly sharaita men Alothman el aswad

Dana giggled: elly omech galatlech wayed mfa9akh ma yenlebes ela 7ag raylech?

Raghda: EEEEH!!! Betrouuu7 mothta welrayel ma yaa

Samira: 6a3 shefakrouuun feeh!!! Abe atzawaj 3ashan el7uub wel7aanan

Yasmin: 6ab3an kho 9ubegh ou 9abgha Maldives ou ray7aaa tefe9ekh ou tefa9akhtay 6ab3an ya3ni

Dana: eee wallah!!

Raghda: yallah waina elly be7asesny eny elbent elwa7eeda bel3aalam

Me: MU MEN9EJKUUUUM

Lulu: swair 7egreeehum yegroun blogs wayed

Me: 7aadhum!! Kheffaw kheffaw

Yasmin: 3ala 6ary elblogs abeee wa7ed nafs Rakan eyaneeennnn

Samira: waaay rakan gamouuusha?? Off 7adda yeebouleyyaaaa

Lulu: hahaaa 7elmaw 7elmaw

Refeejaty makhtheen ne9 7ayatee, etha ma sheft’hum bel esbou3 marra e9er feny shay ..

Kelyoum agoum el9eb7 arou7 eljam3a “GUST” ared elbait ag3ad ma3a omy ou obouy ou adres ou a6la3 ma3a rab3y ..

3endi cousins bs mu wayed weyahum lanna kelhum kbar ou metzawjeen fa ashoufhum men zwara lay zwara ..

My life is really boring ..

Maku action ella etha qarrarna ana ou rab3y nsawi shay maynouun ..

Bs don’t worry the action is coming wella chan ma ketabt qessa ..

One day ..

Me: mama?

Mom: hala mama

Me: waina obouy?

Mom: 6ale3 7abebty

Me: mu 3awayda ye6la3 etheher

Mom: yemkenna raye7 7g khalty

Me: ma galech wain raye7

Mom: la 7abebty

After a while ..

Dad: alsalamu 3alaikum

Me, mom: wa3alaikum esalam

He went to his room ..

I looked at my mom wonderingly ..

Me: mama?

Mom: na3am

Me: entay ou obouy metza3leen?

Mom: la

Me: 3ayal laish ma 7abech mu 3awaydaa

Mom: eeh tawa 6ale3 la’anna mamda yolah

Me: ahh!!

…

Yara: ella wain omy?

Me: omy bel7amam etesaba7

Yara: ou obouy?

Me: madry 9ayer ma yeg3ad belbait

Yara: la7atht! Kel ma ayeekum mu mawjouud!

Me: ana a7es ena met’hawesh weya omy bs khasheen 3alaina

Yara: obouy? Yet’hawash ma3a omy? La la no way!

Me: eee ana kent agoul chethy! Bas yarabe mu 6abe3eyyen!

Yara: akhaaf fee mushkela 3end obouy mu mkhaleta yeg3ad belbait?

Me: et’hagain? Way allah la ygouuul!

Yara: ee wallah!

Me: ellah dady wainaa?

Yara: tharouuy wadaita 3end khalty walhana 3alaih ga6aita ou yeet ashouf omy menzeman 3anha ou baredlehum

Me: waaay kalb kaaaalb!

Yara: watha7 ma yakum?

Me: embala kelyoum eyyena bs bedoun banata

Yara: eeeh ou salma?

Me: bain fatra ou fatra tyena wetyebhum weyaha

…

Elwath3 belbaait mu 6abee3y ..

9arlehuum ashhur wuhma 3ala hal 7al ..

La obouy obouy wala omy omy ..

…

I woke up at 3:00 am ..

I was breathing continuously ..

It was a nightmare ..

A3outhu bellah men bleeesss ..

I was rolling on my bed for 15 minutes I couldn’t sleep I was too afraid ..

I left my bed and went to mom’s room to tell her about the nightmare only to hear “ta3awethy men blees maku shay hathy kelha kharabee6” ..

I slowly opened their room’s door ..

My heart skipped a beat ..

Where is my mom ..

It was only my dad sleeping there ..

Ou mukan omy kan mrattab ..

I went to the living room and the kitchen but nobody was there ..

I opened Yara’s room slowly to see my mom sleeping there ..

I was shocked ..

ASHKARA MET’HAWSHEEEN!!!!!!

MEN METAA YET’HAWESHOOON!!! 35 YEARS TOGETHERRRR MA TAHAWESHAW WALA MARRA!!!

I closed the door and went back to my room ..

I couldn’t sleep, I forgot about the nightmare and started to think about my parents ..

The next day ..

Me: aloo yara wainech?

Yara: ana bel dawam laishh?

Me: abaih abaihhh crying

Yara: shfeeeeech!!!!!!

Me: esalfa 9ej omy ou obouy met’hawsheeeenn!!!!

Yara: sarouna 7ayatee hadday ana ou faisal kelyomain net’hawash ou ntarathaa shay 6abee3y!

Me: entaaw bs mu omy ou obouyy!! Yaraa omy naayma bdarechhhh!!!!

I felt her shock ..

Yara: 7elfay??

Me: walla wallaaa!!!

Yara: sem3eeny! Entay saway nafsech ma tadren 3an shay ou lama a6la3 men eldawam amerech ou entefaham ok?

Me: enzain!

Yara: 7abeebty entay maku ella el3afyaa kho azma wet3addy!

Me: yara 9arlehum ashhuuur!

Yara: eee mu meshkela tn7al enshallah

…

Yara arrived at 4:00 pm ..

I was waiting for her in the living room ..

Yara: alsalamu 3alaikum

Me: wa3alaikum esalam

Yara: wain omy wubooy

Me: foug!!

She sat on the couch ..

Yara: lazem nfakker eb 7al

Me: mukhe wagef a7es 7elm mu 9ej

Yara: agoul 7g omy ennaa ..

I interrupted her: E7EMMM

Mom: halaaa yarraaa elyoum yayyatna

Yara smiled and kissed my mom’s head ..

Yara: eeh walhana

Mom: shlounech weshloun wlaidech?

Yara: wallah el7emddelah

Mom: ou raylech shlouna?

Yara: kelna bkhair! Yumma

Mom: ha yumma?

Yara: banam bghurfety elweekend elyay faisal berou7 eshalaih fa zahbouha ley

What an idea!!

Mom: eeeh zain tsaween lanny mara7 akoun belbait

My heart skipped a beat ..

I couldn’t say anything ..

Yara: laish?

Mom: oboukum 6allagny

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