Flashbacks .. Part10

Fahad called me immediately ..

Fahad: 7ELFAAAYYY!!!!!

Haa chenny ta7assaft!!? La la besmelllahh ..

Me: wallaahhh

Fahad: 3ALA RASYYY!!

Me giggled: yaaa 3gaaalekkk???

Fahad: MEN OMMAHHH!

Mom: MAYYYAAAARRRRR

Me: KANYYY!!

Me: fahoud yalla bye barou7 elmadresa

Fahad: men metaaa?? Tawenaass

Me: eeeh omy mkhalletna namshe 3al sera6 elmustaqeeem

Fahad: haha wain ayamek ya rajo

Me: ee wallahh , yalla bye

Fahad: bye

I closed the phone and went to school ..

…

At 5:30 ..

I changed into my soccer clothes ..

I stood in front of the mirror ..

Hmmm slik wella afellaa?

Uhh!

I shouldn’t play!!

I promised him!!

LAAAA!!!

My eyes filled with tears ..

Efff shebachhyy al7eeen!!!

Dmou3y akrahkummm malgoufeeeenn!!!

Deshaw dakhel yaaallahh!!!!

Uffff!

I wanna play with them soooo badly!

I took off my clothes and laid on my bed ..

THAAAG KHELGY!!

Suddenly my mobile rang ..

Me: hmmmm

Naser: testa3be6aain?? Yaaallah eb nabdeee!

Me: ebdaw mabe al3ab!

Naser: na3am??

Me: ee maabe al3ab!

Naser: eshfeeechh? 3asa ma sharr!

Me: mafeny shay!

Naser: ma tegderen teyyen bs tshoufen?

Me: la na9er bye!

After moments ..

Fahad called me ..

Me: ha fahoud

Fahad: awal shay a7ebech!!

I smiled: I know

Fahad: ta3alay bs shoufay!

Me: fahoud maly khelg!

Fahad: please abe ashoufech

Me: fahoud please maly khelg as’elat’hum jaad!

Fahad: 3ashany?

Me: okk

Fahad sent me a flying kiss and closed it ..

Me: KHARAAA!!!!!!

My tears were falling heavily ..

Laaaishhh ga3da a6eee3aa wayedd!!!!!!

Laaishh ga3ed yaaam7y shakh9eeetyy eb ethnyyy!!!!!

Waaai3 laaaa!!

I wiped my tears and went to the yard ..

I sat with the girls ..

I wasn’t in the mood ..

Wasmiya: mayoura shfeech ma tel3eben?

Me: mabe al3ab khala9

Noura: kellesh kelleshhh?

Me: eeh!

Latifa: laaaishh??

Me: bss mabe ya3ni ana bent ou halle3ba mu 7aggy

Wasmiya was staring on me wonderingly ..

Hayouna: tawch testaw3eben?

I took a deep breath and started to stare on the guys ..

Hayouna: aku shay thany ana adry!

Latifa: omech aw obouch mu rathen?

Noura: 9ertay lady! Harmonatech FINALLY eshtaghlat

Wasmiya whispered in my ears: ra7 tgoulelly shesalfa tara

I nodded ..

Latifa: mayara shfeech?

Noura: feech shay manty 6abee3eyya!

Hayouna: mayourrr its soccer!! Ya3ni your life!!!!

My tears dropped down ..

KHARAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! I HATE SHOWING MY SAD FEELINGS!!!!!

Wasmiyya hugged me ..

She whispered: mayaariii??

I burst into my tears ..

Latifa: abaih sh9ayer!

Noura: mu 6abe3eya elyoum

Hayouna: waraha salfa!

Wasmiya: 7abeebtyy whats wrong?

I pulled myself from Wasmiya’s grab and wiped my tears ..

Me: ba3dain agoullech

Wasmiya: ok

Fahad was smiling for me every once and then ..

His smile makes me feeling well ..

After the game ..

Hayouna: ta3alaw baitnaa khanshouf movie

Noura: am in

Latifa: yalla okk

Wasmiya looked at me ..

Me: la ana bag3ad hny!

Wasmiya: bag3ad weyach

Me: la please wesami bag3ad brou7y

Wasmiya: akeed?

Me: eehh

Wasmiya: 3ala ra7tech

Hayouna: wesami teyen?

Wasmiya: yalla ok

They went to hayouna’s house ..

Naser came to me ..

Naser: shfeech?

Me: mafeny shay!

Naser: I noticed your tears

Me: did you?

Naser: eeh!

Me: laish ma mashait’hum?

Naser: MAYAR SHFECH? KLLESH MU 3ALA BA3THECH

Me: mafeny shay ba6ny shway e3awerny that’s it

Naser: ahha ma tshoufen shar, ya3ni bas elyoum menty la3ba?

Me: mara7 al3ab kellesh

Naser: CHATHABA?

Me: walla naser

Naser: FAJ’A?

Me: na9our elmafrouth tkoun metwaqe3 hal youm .. ya3ni ..

I couldn’t continue , my tears were choking me ..

Naser: MAYAR SHFECH?

Me: ba6nyy!

Naser: emshy elbait!

Me: mabe na9our bag3ad hny shwayya

Naser: kelman raa7 mara7 akhallech bel braa7a brou7ech

Me: embala na9er please!!

Naser: goumy elbait yallah!!

Me: NA9ER YER7AM OMEK KHALNY!!!!!!

Naser: be6aggag!

He went home ..

I was sitting on the ground ..

Drawing on the sand ..

Circles, letters ,etc.

…..: e7emmm

my heart skipped a beat then I turned around to see him ..

Me: entaa? Kharra3tny!

3umar: shetsawween brou7ech eb hallaail?

Me: arsem mustaqbelyy

3umar: mustaqbelech dawa’er?

Me: kind of

3umar: ou 7arf el F F F Fahad?

Me: etha getlek la2 bet9adeg?

3umar: la2!

Me: ok 3ayal la tes’al

3umar: shfeech?

Me: mafeeny shay

3umar: ma9adagt

Me: ok fahad khayyarny baina ou bain elkuraa!!

3umar: um?

Me: ou ekhtart elkura bs ma3a elwagt ekhtarta ohwaaa!!!!

3umar raised his eyebrows ..

Me: 3umar fahad khathaa menny 7ayaate!! Ana many anaaa!!!! Fahad elwa7eed elly gedaar yegdar 3alaay!! Akraaah hashay feehh!! Enna aqwa mennyy!!

3umar: shbainech ou baina?

Me: a7eba ou e7ebnyy!! No kisses no hugs bs late phone calles!!

3umar: hmmm

Me: 3umar please sa3edny ma7ad yadry belly baina ghairek ou I think youre old enough to advice me

3umar: shinu nehayat hal 7ub?

I froze in my thoughts ..

Me: ha?

3umar: et7ebon ba3ath ok lai meta?

Me: madry ohwa emfaker belzawaj bs ana a7es ena e7na sghar 3ala hasuwalef

3umar: ay zwaj he’s just 18 min 9ijech?

Me: na3am? Ya3ni echatheb mathalan? Please la etebala 3alawadem

3umar: awal marra e7eb ou mendefe3

Me: gelt en9a7ni!

3umar: heddeeh! Anhy 3elaqatkum!

Me: ana bafham sh7arrek? Laish tabeny ahedda haa??? 7ajza 7g ekhtek wella shinu nethamek?

3umar: elly bainkum ghala6 ya manar

Me: MAYAR!

3umar: allah mara7 ewafegkum

Me: fal allah wala falek 9ij mu kafu 7ashema!

I stood up and went home ..

I checked my mobile wella an SMS from Fahad ..

Fahad:

“mayari 7asafa ma sheba3t menech bs nwai9er ma 3a6any majal ayech”

Me:

“its ok 7abeby”

correction:

“its ok”

Fahad called me ..

Me: aloo

Fahad: betnamen?

Me: laa

Fahad: ma bagee shay wentakharraaaj

Me: eeeh 7addee meshta6aa 3al takharruj

Fahad: meta takharrujkum?

Me: june 29 ou ent ma3zoum

Fahad: 7ELFAAY!

Me: wallaah fahoud akeed ba3zemek

Fahad: bs ana?

Me: la kel groupna akeed!!

Fahad: shinu ra7 talbeseen?

Me: madry laima al7een bs dress

Fahad: bashoufech gabelha haa?

Me: akeeed 7abebyyy

Fahad: 7abeby elly eb balyy?

Me shyly: I guess

Fahad: naaarrr

Me shyly: hehe

Fahad: mayari metghayer esloubech

Me: a7san?

Fahad: malyoun marra

Me: kent athen enna 3ugb elsoccer khdoudy mara7 t9eer 7umer bs ma3ak they wont stop blushing

Fahad: abeee ashouuuuuf

Me: betshouuufff

Fahad: mayari?

Me: hmm

Fahad: mestansa?

Me: faj’a?

Fahad: mestansa belly enty feeh?

Me: elly ohwa?

Fahad: ma gemtay tel3eben kura, esloubech elyedeed?

Me: laaa bs lama ashouffek aw akalmek astanes ou ansaa elly 6af

I felt his smile ..

Fahad: a7ebech

Me: I know!

Fahad: mayari abe ashoufech

Me: betshoufny enshallah

Fahad: abe bs ana ou entay brou7na

Me: 9a3baa shlouuun?

Fahad: madryyy

…

…

…

After 40 days ..

Me: 7abeebyyy

Fahad: ha 7ayatee khalla9tay??

Me: eee 7abeby

Fahad: agdar ashoufech?

Me: eeeh na9our raye7 yeshtery hernat ou postarat weyya 7amoud ou omy ou reema mashghoulen yetjahezoun

Fahad: 9eeej? Kany masafat e6ereej

Me: ok awal ma teeyye deg ley missed call a6la3 lek

Fahad: ok babe

I was wearing This ..

My hair was wavy ..

I was wearing red lipsticks ..

Fahad called me ..

I went out for him ..

Once he saw me he inhaled ..

His mouth was widely opened ..

Fahad: eshh halzain?

I blushed ..

Me shyly: 7eluuu?

He opened his arms ..

Fahad: ta3aalay

My heart beats accelerated ..

I know it’s a wrong step ..

I know I shouldn’t do it ..

Hugging him is not allowed ..

I was walking toward him against my will ..

No mayar don’t do it ..

Its ok, its just a hug only hug a spontaneous hug ..

I am between his arms ..

He was hugging me tight ..

My arms couldn’t hold his warm body and hugged him even tighter ..

It was a lovely warm hug but painful ..

That pain came from remorse ..

I closed my eyes and lost myself in his hug ..

Suddenly I felt his lips slowly reaching my cheeks ..

I felt butterflies in my stomach ..

He kissed my cheeks ..

No!! he shouldn’t kiss me!!

His lips were coming closer to mine ..

I pulled myself before they could reach each other ..

He pulled me back to him and whispered in my ears ..

Fahad: sorry

Me: ok

Fahad: mayari

Me: hmmm

Fahad: change

Me: what?

Fahad: ghayray hal dress

I pulled myself away from him ..

Me: sh7aggaa??

Fahad: wayed mfa9akhh

Me: balbes fouga roub etakharruj!!

Fahad: still ghayreeeh!!

Me: fahad omy shareeta 7aggy mara7 tertha aghayra

Fahad: 3ashan kha6ry

Me: sorry!!!

Fahad: mayar yalla 3ad ghayreeh ou mes7ay el7umra

Me: huhhh??? Min 9ejjekk???

Fahad: eee 7ayatee bser3a la eta’akheraain!!!

Me: maaabe!!!

Fahad: la tkhalleny az3al 3alaich

Me: fahoud efhamny ma agdaar!!

Fahad: embala tegdereen

Me: laa magdar yalla 3ad la t9eer maleeq

Fahad: ok ya3ni mara7 tghayren?

Me: la2!!!

I turned around and got inside our house ..

Lazem ekharreb laaazemm!!!!!!!!

I wore my graduation uniform and went to Shiraton hotel where the graduation ceremony ..

I stood with my friends in the queue ..

At 5:30 ..

I was really sad about what just happened ..

He used to destroy the happy moment why should I love him!!!!!

Jana: shfeech mbawza

Me: mu mbawza

Jana: estansay abaaih TAKHARRAJNAAA!

I smiled: eee akheraann

I was checking my mobile every now and then expecting an SMS or missed call from him apologizing but there was nothing!

It became 7:00 pm ..

Its time to enter the hole ..

My heart was beating so fast ..

7adddyy khayfa men elmashya elly brou7yyy foug el runway ..

neja7na ou allah waffagna ou akher 9abrena nelna fara7na men gabel laken akeed elfar7a hathy ghair ..

Now I am on the runway ..

I need self confidence ..

Besmellah ..

Shaking legs, fake smile and rushing walk!!! FAIL!

I sat on my chair searching for my family friends and fahad ..

Mom .. check

Dad .. check

Khaled .. check

Deema .. check “khaled’s wife”

Reema .. check

Na9er .. check

7amad .. check

Wasmiya, shamlan , 3aboud .. check check check

Kanaw ga3den eharnouuunn ou msawweelly poster fee “we love you MAYARA”

Ou another one “CONGRATULATION GRADUATES” ..

I LOVE THEMMMM!!!!

3ethmano, nouro, hayouna? .. check!

La6oufa? Check ..

Fahad? I was looking in every corner ..

No fahad please!! I need youuu!!

WHERE ARE YOU BABE???

My eyes filled with tears ..

I was really disappointed ..

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