From Never Till Forever .. Part39

This post is dedicated to LOVELIES TALSHEHAB and MALEBRAHIM <3!!!

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Jarra7: shinnuuuuw???

Me: please sa3edny ana mali ghairak!!

Jarra7: YANNAITAAYYY??? MAYNOUUNAA?? NAG9A 3AGEL??? SHINU YA3NI MA 

TABEEN ELYAHEL??? ALLAHH MEN3EM 3ALAICH EB YAHEL T3OUFEENA??

Me: maa 3eftaa bss bel wagt el7aalyy mabghah!! Ent 3aref wath3 youuusiff!! Laa t9eer ent wel zeman 

theddy ya jarra7 takfaaa takfa!

Jarra7: ya shahad ana ne9a7t ou getlech hal rayyal mu zaain la twafqeen 3alaih bs 3ammek a9makhh!! 

Khallech ta7ammelay!!

The last two words were UNEXPECTED!!

Me: na3aamm??

Jarra7: edenya mu mana9eb ou flous eldenya AKHLAQ!!!

JARRAAA7777 7AQEEEEEERRR!!!!!

3UGUBB MA LEGA 7ABEBAT ELGALB GAAA6NYYY 3ALA 9AKHAARR!!!

AKHHH LUW ENNA JAMBEEE KAN 3ALLAMTA!!

Suddenly I heard the door’s opening ..

Jarra7 doesn’t deserves “ma3assalama” ..

I closed it immediately ..

Yousif: shahad!

I wiped my tears and turned around ..

Me: na3aammm

Yousif: shfeech minu tkalmeen?

Me: umm hathy wa7da t9erly min b3eed dagga tbarekly

Yousif: tawha testaw3eb

Me: eeh la7atht!!

Yousif: umm enzain emshay khantemashha!!

Me: ok yallah!

He lit a cigarette ..

We went to the beach and yousif was silent ..

Me: what’s wrong?

Yousif smiled ..

Yousif: so you can feel it?

Me: eee akeed 7abeeeby!!

Yousif: good

Me: shfeeekk!!

Yousif: mafeny shay 7ayatee!!

Me: I hope so!!

We was walking along the beach while the sun was setting ..

Suddenly yousif picked his mobile up ..

I said suddenly because I didn’t hear a mobile tone!!

Yousif: aloo!

Me: besmella ma ran!!

Yousif: silent!

Me: ahh!

Yousif: hala 7ubbii

My eyes popped out!!!

Who’s that!!!

Yousif: ee ana eb 3man!

Yousif: weyya el ahal!

I was looking right and left searching for his AHAL!!!

Yousif: wallah 7ettana walhaann!!

I became nervous!!!

Yousif noticed my nervous ..

Yousif: ok bye talk to you later!

He came closer to me ..

Yousif: shfeech 7abebty??

Me: MINU HATHYYY??

Yousif: minu ehyaa??

Me: elllyy tawwek ga3d tkallemhaa!!

Yousif: hatha wa7ed e9eerly men b3eed dag ebarek!!!

I froze in my thoughts!!!

I felt dryness in my throat ..

I couldn’t say anything ..

What was he thinking of???

Yousif: emshy khankammel mashy shfeech?

Me: yousif minu ga3d tkallem? Don’t lie!!!

He smiled ..

Yousif: does lying hurt that much??

I was quiet!!

I guess I am in biiiiig trouble ..

Yousif: YES IT ISSS!!!!!

Me: yousiiffff enta fahem ghalaa6!!

Yousif: youuu can cheat on me BUT my ears cannot shahad!!!

My eyes started to tear!!!

Yousif: kellaa tgoulelly trust me ou 7altech 7ala bss you didn’t trust ME!!! getlech I will try my best to 

quit!!! YA AKHE GIVE ME A CHAANCE ONE CHANCE MA 6ALABT SHAY!!

My tears became a river running on my cheeks ..

Yousif: etha ma tabeen el baby!! Mu thanba tmawteenaa!!! Etha ma tabena tara obouh yabeeh!!!

Yousif: ou ray7aa tashky el7al 7g minuu JARRAA7?? Tbayneeny eb 9oura say2a jeddamaa?? Khalas 

shahad its obvious enna you love him ou ohwa ba3ad!! La tgoulelly you have to trust me la’annaa it 

became impossible!!

Yousif: 9ij enny a7ebbech ou amout 3alaich bs tegderen trou7en 7g elly tebeena!! Bs gabel la trou7een 

bafham shaghlaa laish tezawajteeenyy!!! LAISHHHH!!!

Me: YOUUUUSIIIIFFFF!!! WALLAAHH QASAMAN BELLAAHHHH ANAA A7EBBEK 

ENTA OU ABEEEK ENTAA BSSS BSS WALLAHHH JARRA7 MA YA3NEELLY SHAYY 

WALLAL3ATHEEEMM!!

Yousif: shahad please ekaffy chthouubb!!!

He turned around and left ..

Me: youuuusif pleaaaseeeee!!!!

I bursted into my tears ..

I couldn’t stop tearing ..

Kul 7aja a9ba7at thedddyyy!!!!

I sat on the nearest threshold, laid my head on my knees and cried hardly ..

I don’t know how to fix the things!!

I really don’t know!!!

I need help!!

I need a miracle!!

Ufff!!

I went back to our room ..

Yousif was there sitting in the balcony and smoking ..

I went to the bathroom washed my face ou “teyaddadt” then I prayed ..

I felt him staring on me ..

Ba3ad ma 9alait yousif left the room without saying a word ..

I started to pray to god ..

“Ya raaabb terja3 a7walna nafs ma kaanat yaaraabb t7annen galba 3alay ou esame7nyyy yaaa raabbb 

tbayyen laah el7aq ya rabbe wallah enny a7ebbaa ou ma aq9ed shay bs ohwa 3a9abe ou ma khallaly 

fer9a atkallam yarab al7een ered yetsama7 menny yaraaaabb la tred da3wety ya mujeeb elda3wat 

estajeb leeeyyy”

It became 10:00 pm!!

I was STARVING!!

I didn’t eat anythingggg from the breakfast ..

Suddenly ..

Yousif entered our room ..

He was holding a bag ..

Yousif: hach hatha akel adry ma kalaitay men el9eb7

I WANNA HUG HIMM!!!

DAYMAN E7ES FEENYY!!!

I took the bag ..

Me: mashkour!

He ignored me ..

Then he took his ipad and went to the balcony ..

I started to eat that delicious cheese burger silently ..

Then I washed my hands and decided to changed into my nightie in the room instead of the bathroom 

3al ou 3asa I caught his attention ..

But ELAHAL 7ADEEEDD!!

I went to the bed waiting for him to join ..

And after a long time of waiting he took his pillow and laid on the couch ..

AAAHHH I WANNA KILL HIMMM OR WHY?? I WOULD RATHER KILL MYSELF!!!

Ufff!!

I love him!!

3allemny amsa7 dam3ety watoub , 3allemny az3al mink luw marrah .. lait el7anaya ya haway 

gloub , etshouf 7ubbee feek weshkethraa .. lee galb wa7ed wenta lah ma7bouub, ma ghairek 

a7den haz bah sha3raa .. athoub fee se7r el3eyoun athoub , elgalb 9adeg welhawa jamraa .. 

nawy el3athab nawy tebakky gloubb , wana 3ala amrek luw 3alay teshrah .. lail elma7abba lo3a 

ou thnoub , ya 7ath men yegwa 3ala 9abraaa ..

The next day ..

I opened my eyes to see Yousif wearing his shirt ..

He noticed me ..

Yousif: shahad

Please apologize please please please ..

Me: na3am!

Yousif: sakray eljna6 elyoum bellail