The rushed decision .. Part27

"Rana you are adorable!!

You are the best thing happened to me in my whole life!!

Your heart is my place, your voice is my best music, your hug is my warm blanket, your smile is my motivation, and your eyes are the reason behind my real smile.

I love you.. If the word could describe how much I love you!!

I never thought of writing a letter, a love letter to a girl, but surprisingly I am..

You changed me a lot..

I dont know if you changed me in a good or bad way but all I know that you have changed my whole system to be in your side, to Love you.. A true love!

Rana.. Thinking made me awake the whole night and I couldnt sleep, I really don't know how to tell you this but الله يسهل دربج!

I really dont want to let you go but I just have to!!

Im sorry but this is farewell!!

I can't say it to your face, I can't watch you going away from me, so i wrote this letter to say good bye or maybe bye..

Bye Rana,

الله يحفظج و يسعدج وين ما كنتي.."

I couldnt stop staring at the letter..

I actually couldnt believe what I just read!!

Did he say farewell?????

I rested my thighs on the closest chair..

I kept on re-reading his letter over and over!!!!!

Farewell was expected but not that way!!!

And not after 3 days of a deep love story!!!

I locked my bags and went to his room..

*knock knock knock knock knock knock....*

GODDD!! Where did he go!!!!

I rushed to the reception..

Me: hi

The man: bonjourno

Me: Did the person in room 412 leave?

The man: ummm yes because his key is here

I took a deep breath and replied: ok!!

Wain mumkin ekoun?? Adry enna men7ash minny because he finished his work already!!

Ymkin ra7 3nd el river??

He loves that place a lot!!

Yarab algaaah!!!

I left my key and ran to the river!!

Wallah I was running!!!

Everyone was staring at me but who cares???

We9alt elmukan ou gemt atlaffat yemeen ou yesar nafs elbent elthay3aaa adawrah!!

I was about to scream "BANDAR" but el7emdellah I found him standing right in front of me..

My heart skipped a beat..

I took few steps toward him..

Me: can I ask you why??

He jumped in his place and his eyes popped out..

Bandar: shyaybech hnyyy!!! 6ayartech 3ugub sa3tain!!

Me: i read your letter but I didnt get it!!!! Why do you have to leave me???? 

Bandar: gelt'ha wayed!!

Me: 3ashan you mama??? Kalamek e7asesny enny aham shay b7ayatek aw 3alaqal ana ou omek nafs el ahameya!! Bs af3alek tgool el3aks!!!

Bandar: RANA!!! Ana ma asawy ghair ely agoula wala agoul ghair elly asaweeh!!! Enty 3youni lemrakkeba ou ommy netharha!!!! Elsalfa mu chethy!!! Entay mendaf3a wara galbech bshakel khayaaly!! Ana magdar astaghny 3n 3agly! Wala agdar atekheth qarar nafs halqarar bedoun ma asta3mel 3agly!!! Rana lenafreth enny 6e3tech ou tezawajna? Ana lazem ared eldeera ajabel sheghly!! Ou entay etha ga3adtay hny aw eb dubai nafs matgoleen 7asbalech obouch mayegdar edel mukanech??? Ou en dal mukanech shbesawy feech?? Allah a3lam!! Ana abeeech bs bnafs elwagt abeech t3eesheen 3eesha mu7tarama abeech t3esheen mestansa ou balech merta7!! Mu ten7ashain min deera lay deera brou7ech!! Rana I care!!!

And all of a sudden all my tears went out..

I couldnt stop crying!!

He pulled me closer to his chest and hugged me tight..

Bandar: bs rana bs la tabcheen!!!

Me: bandaaar *sniff* abeeeek *sniff*

I can feel his body shaking!!

Bandar was crying and running his hand along my back..

Me: pleaaase say something *sniff*

He swallowed his tears and said: 6ayyartech .. Lat6eer

I pulled myself away from him.. 

Me: KHAL 6AYARTY 3ANNEK OU 7E6 3AINK B3AINY!!!

His scenery was heart breaking!!

His eyes were red and teary..

Bandar: rana magdar wallahh!!

He turned around and his body started to shake..

I froze in my place for seconds and Left..

I couldnt watch him breaking in front if my eyes!!!

And that was the end!!!

كـل أمـر سهـل مـن دون الـوداع كيـف أنــا بــا ودعــك بعد ما قـد شـاع لـك حبـي وذاع بالحشـى مستودعـك

فـــــي إلـــــك أحــلـــى مــكــانــه هالله هالله بــالأمــانــة يــــــــوم أمــنـــتـــك بــقــلــبــي هالله هالله بـــالأمـــانـــة

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Hamad: bthemetech ely sawaiteeh mu 3aib?

Me: laish!!

Hamad: safray kaifech bs 3a6eeny khabar! Enga9 wayhe raye7 baitkum egouloully msafra ou ana akher man ya3lam!!

Me: kelshay 9ar bser3a!

Hamad: 7a9al khair bs lat3eedeenha

Me: enshallah

Hamad: 3asa ma shar?

Me: ma shar!

Hamad: mu 3ajbatny!

Me: mu lazem

He giggled: enzain meste3eda 7g bacher!!

Me: bacher?

Hamad: elmelcha yuba!

Me: la!! Lansaweha bacher!

Hamad: wayed met'akher kalamech!

Me: shyabellah kho!

Hamad: etefaqna ma3a kelshay ou 3azamna el awadem 3iab!

Me: ah kaifkum! Ana men elbedaya raye ma7gour

Hamad: afa!

Me: its ok a9lan magam ehemny shay!

Hamad: shfeech chethy 6aqa salbeyya tetkallam!!

Me: ma3alaih 6aqty ma3a 6aqtek el eejabeya tetwazan!

He smiled: allah yfarej hamech

I smiled and whispered: ameen!

...

Mom: warreeny el bedal ely sharaiteehum!

Me: sharait dress wa7ed ou makeup 7g mimi ou 7agech ou 7g dania!

Mom: bs?

Me: eeh!

Mom: ya7asrety 3ayal shinu btalbeseeen bacher!!! 

Me: madry ayshay!!

Mom: estakhafaitay?? Goumy badlay khaneshtereelech shay!!

Me: enty shtereelly!

Mom: may9eeer ya mamaa!!! Ana metafqa 3al akel ou el dj ou elkosha ou elward ou el7elu ou 3azma refeejatech bs bagy atzawaj bedalech!!

Me: getlekum khaaan'ajelha mu ratheeeen ta7amelaw effff!!!!

I left her and went to my room..

Dania men el9eb7 wehya tdagdeg!!

Me: haaa dania!!!

Dania: shesalfaaa!!

Me: you know everything!!

Dania: adry enech re7teellabou adry enna radech bs shlounnn!!

Me: mumkin ma netkallam 3n halmawthou3!!!

Dania: ok! Enzain bacher astanes lech wella az3al lech wella shasawy!!

Me: DANIAAA!!! Yal faathya okkkk!!!

I closed the line!!!

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A7es enny fegadt kelshay!!

Fegadt lathat hal denya!!

Elyoum melchety wana mafeeny shu3our!!

Marrat afakker at9anna3 elfara7 bs elfara7 9ar mu layeg 3alay!!

Ensadat kel elbeeban bwayhe!!

Ou eldenya eswaddat!!

A7es enny 9ert nafs el barbie!!

Shakel bedoun rou7!! 

E7arkouny ou elabsouny 3ala kaifhum ou ana maly ella enny a6ee3hum!!

Ma7ad yabe ejarreb ely 3eshta!!

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I wore those..

Tied my hair in a low messy bun and applied some makeup..

Mimi: wooow you look simply BEAUTIFUL!!

Me: thankyou!!

Mimi: el7ub we9aal

7ubb?? El7ub maretha ya7thrr melchety wana mu lah!!

El7ub eb Italy..

Me: ok!!

I went down stairs to see Hamad's waiting for me in our living room..

Hamad: esh halzaaain

I smiled: teslam

I sat down..

Hamad: shlounech elyoum?

Me: nafs ams ou bacher ou elsena elyaya ou kelyoum

Hamad: walla la anasseech elza3al

I froze in my thoughts..

Kel hally sawaita feeh ou ygoully chethy??

Ma3qoula aku nas ghair bandar galbha abyath chethy??

Hamad: weddech nakshet feehum?

Me: minu ohma?

Hamad: ely ta7aat elma3azeem!!

Me: ee ok haha

Hamad: kelesh mu bal3atny!!

I giggled: la 7aram

And all of a sudden my mobile rang..

OMG ITS BANDAR!!!!!

Me: degegaa!!

I took my mobile and ran to the bathroom..

I picked it up: aloo!!