The rushed decision .. Part16

I need someone to explain for me what is going on!!!!!!

Me: shinuuu elly beyoun elreyayeel youm el athnain yubaa ana 6oufa hnyyy???

Dad: na3am? Min meta ana akheth raykum bhal suwalef? Elmara 3agelha ga9er yuba ma t3arfoun entaw

My eyes started to tear..

Me: yubaaa!!! Allah ykhalleeeek maabe mabe

Dad: rana shfeech? Ana mu mzawjech ay wa7ed men elshare3! Tara 7amad weld nas ou akhlaqa zaina ou 3enda khair shtabeen ba3ad! 9ej mu kafuuu

OU FOUUUG ENNY MABE ATZAWAJ GHAIR BANDAR, ELLY KHA6EBNY 7AMAAD!!!

EEEE 7AMAADD!!

7amad ellyy refeeejty ou ekhty ou a3aaz shakh9 bdenyetyy maaytaaa 3alaaihhh!!!

Shhhal 7aaaaaaathhh!!!

Me: yubaa allah ykhaleeeek mabeeeeee

Dad: ana met’aked enech awal ma teg3edeen ma3ah bet7ebbeeena

Me: yubaaa please mabe ma9ery e9eer nafs ma9erek ent ou omy

Dad: tara ana mu fatheeelech rou7y ebchy 3end omech ou khaleeny arou7 7g sheghly yalla!!!

Ma kent gadra a9addeg elly 9aar!!

7asait eldenya wgefat bla7thaa!!

7asait kel elbeeban tesakkerat eb wayhe!!

7asait enny gemt min noma 3ameeqa ou kel elly 9arly belshahrain elly 6afaw kan mujarrad 7elm!!

Ta7assaaft!!!

Ta7assaft enny sema7t 7g Bandar edesh galbee!!

Ta7assaft enny 9addagt el7elm ou nesait elwaaqe3!!

Ta7assaft enny masema3t na9ee7at Fara7 ekhty!!

Kent me7taajaa enny a9aarrekh!!

Kent me7taja enny abchy braa7ty bedoun la a7ad eshouf edmou3y ou yes’alny “laish”..

I ran to my room and threw myself on my bed and started to cry my heart out!!!

I loooove daaania and I adoooreee Bandaaarr!!!

I’m not ready to lose them!!!!!

*Knock knock knock*

Mimi: RANAA

*Knock knock knock*

Mimi: RANAA

*Knock knock knock*

Mimi: RANAA

*Knock knock knock*

Mimi: RANAA

Me screamed: MIMI STOP KNOCKING MY DOOOOR FOR GOD’S SAKE!!!!

Mimi surprisingly: shfeeech?!!

Me: MIMI LAA T7ENNEEEN OU ROU7AAAY!!!

Mimi: yaaaaaallah khalaa9naaaa byabdy el event!!!!

Me: enshallah ykhaale9!!! Bsss hatha elly ehemkummm events ou kharabeee6!!!!!!!

I couldn’t stop tearing!!!

I lost hope the moment my father told me about “7amad”!!

La’anny I know how strict is my father!!!

I don’t cry easily!! Bs elshu3our bel thulm ebachy elly galba 7ajar!!

*knock knock knock*

I ignored..

Mom: ranay 7abeeebe shfeeech!!

Me: rou7aw mabe ayyee!!

Mom: enzain goulellena shfeech 3allaqal!!

I opened the door!!

Me: ESHFEENYY??? Feeeny enna obouuuuy metsalle6 ou thaaalem ou yekraaahnaaa ou kelshay khaaayess!!!! Yumma entaaay laaishh rethaitay takhtheeena laishhh t7e6eena bhal mawaqef laaaishhh!!

My mom froze in her place..

Me: yumma 3ayaaazt aqne3 naafsy enna he loves us!!! 3ayaaazt atttgaarrab mennaah!! 7awalt waayed bs maku faaaydaa its official.. He hates us!

My mom took a few steps toward me and pulled me to her chest..

Mom: bs mama bs 7abeebty bs omy ou obouuy entaayy!!

Me: yumma thulm wallaah thuuullmm!!!

Mom: enty 3arfa obouch men 3umr eldenya wehu chethy mafeh tharrat 7anan bs mu ma3nata enna may7ebkum entaw 3yalaa men la7ma ou damma!! Ana ma y7ebny eeh bs entaw musta7eel!

Me: ou e7na 3yaalech ge63a mennech fa elkerh 7ayeshnaa!!

Mom: la ya mama ytarawalech 9adgeeny! Shemsawweelech ohwa?

Me: en3ad scenario zawaj fara7!

Mimi gasped..

My mom was staring wonderingly: shinu?

Me: yummaa obouuuy 3a6aany khabaaar enna 7amaaad elflany kha6ebny ou gally abalghech enna elreyayeel beyoun hal thalathaaaa!! E7ER E7ER E7ER I HAAATE HIIIIMMM

Mom’s eyes popped out: obouch men 9ejjaa?? Lai metaa hal 3aqleyya elmetkhalfaa!!!

Mimi: at leeeast its 7amaaad muuu wahhaaabbb!!!

Me: SHUT UP MIMI!!!

Mimi: wallah khoshh wa7eddd!

Me: MIMI BARRAAA!!

Mom: ranouuuya 3umry entay la tthaygeen khelgech ana bakallem obouch akhalleh yarfeth’hum!

Me: laish? Entay ma kallamteeh ayyam fara7? Sema3 kalamech? 7a6lech e3tebar ennech omhaa!!! Yuma ethaa zawajny 7amad bastekheeefffff!!!!!!!!

My mom while wiping my tears: ma3alaih yumma matadreen yemkin halmarra t9eeb! I’ll do my best la t7ateeen

Mimi: mobilech ga3ed eren taraaa!!! Bandar is calling.. who’s bandar a9lan!!

I believe he feels..

I believe he loves..

Deeply..

But, silently..

Mom: minu Bandar?

He’s my dream..

My tears started to fall heavily again..

Mom: bs mama bs ga6a3ty galbeee

Mim: mama ana bahajer men al7een 3ashan la eyeeny eldour jad shhal 3eeesha!!!

…

Talal: I was expecting to see you bel event!

Me: makan 3endy wagt

Talal: rana?

Me: hmm

Talal: 3asa mashar?

Me: ma shar!!

Talal: ya7lailha Alen meta saferat

Me: Alen msafra?

Talal: ma tadreen?

Me: minzeman ma re7t yoga fa madry 3anhum

Talal: 7a6a eb instargam enha ga3da tsawy Yoga eb Holland

I froze in my thoughts..

…

I do miss him!!

Bs I can’t talk to him!!

I can’t hold his warm voice!!

I can’t hold his sweetness!!

I can’t I just can’t!!!!

He called again..

And my thumb answered his call.. against my well!

Bandar: Rana? Enty bkhair?

Me: eeh!

Bandar: 3ayal shfeech matredeen?

Me: Bandar meta betred?

Bandar: m3a el asaf a7taj ag3ad chum youm zyadaa!

Me: chum youm? Shkether!

My feelings aren’t cold!!

But I was trying to hold my tears, I was trying to keep the pain inside my heart and not letting it out!!

I don’t wanna hurt him!!

I don’t wanna surprise him!!

He’s working mu fatheelly!!!

Bs he has to do something!!!

Maybe when he come back or maybe it’s too late!!

Bandar: madry! Rana feech shay?

Me: no!

Bandar: eshtagt lech!

My tears started to fall gradually..

Me: TTL!

I closed the line and burst into my tears!!

I miiiiss youuuu waaaaay moooooreeee!!!

I neeeeeed youuuu!!!

*knock .. knock .. knock*

My mom got inside my room..

Mom: shlounech yumma?

Me: many bkhaair

Mom: ma3alaaih shoufy eljaneb elmushreq 7amad ensan zain ou n3arefhum omah nas 6aybeeen

I smiled: kalamtay obouy? Ou ma nefa3? Ou yayya taqne3eeny bmu9eebty?

Mom: laish mu9eeba ya mama bel3aaks!! 7amad a7san men ghaira! Shoufy akhaytech maskeenaa shyablaha obouchh

Me: yumma ana musta7eeel akheth 7amad t3arfeen shinu musta7eell!!!!!

…

Me: morning

Talal: good morning, eqbalaw ejaztech

Me happily: E7LEFFFF!!!! OMG I CANT BELIEVE IT EL7EMDELLAAHH!!!!

Talal: rana shesalfa?

I ignored him and opened my laptop to book a flight for tomorrow to Dubai where Bandar is!!!

I closed the system and grabbed my bag to leave..

Me: see youuu later

Talal: waaain ray7aaa ma khallas eldawam

Me: basta’then 3endy sheghel tharouryyy

I left the company and called Dania..

Dania: 9aba7 elkhaaaaair

Me: maaa9adddeeg! Kelesh matewaqa3tch etreddeeen

Dania: mwa9laaa ma nemt

Me: eeee okk! Enzain lebsay ana bel6ereej

Dania: netrayyag?

Me: belmukan ely tabeeeen

Dania: five minutes

One hour later dania came out of her house..

Me: geltay 5 minutes?

Dania: hahha ma 6awalt wayed bs!!

Me: laa 3ady kel marra tna6reeny ne9 sa3a halmarra sa3a ella rube3 ETBE6EEEN ELCHAAABDDDDD

Dania: ba3ad entay gelteelly 7azat el7azza

Me: musta7eeel te3tarfain

Dania: tara ye3t

Me: ay ma63am tabeeen?

Dania: cocoa room

We went to cocoa room..

Me: bacher enshallah ana msafra Dubai tabeen shay?

Dania: ayaa khaaynaaa! Laish ma geltay nrou7 kelnaaa!!

Me: uhh ee la’anna barou7 sheghel mu seya7aa

Dania: 3eshtaww

Me: dazeeny dawra

Dania: yalla erzegnaa

Me: tabeen shaay min hnaak?

Dania: salamtech ou a cup of Angelina hot chocolate

Me: hahha shawagteeeny

Dania: 3ala 6aaaaary el ashya’ elly tshaweggg sawait follow 7g 7amad malait men elstalking haha

My heart’s beats accelerated..

And it became hot..

Me: ba3ad shinu tabeen

Dania: abe 7amad e9eer?

She’s making it harder!!!

I really don’t know how to tell her!!

Lets hope enna elsalfa tetfarkash ou ma7taj agoulaha!!

Being with Dania became an uncomfortable thing..

…

I wore those..

I pulled my hair in a bun..

I grabbed my trolley bag, my passport and my hand bag and went down stairs to see..

Oh my god!!!!!!!!

Why this should be happen!!!

A9lan men meta he wakes up hal7azzaa!!!

Its 6 am!!!!

Dad: wain 3ala allah?