Flashbacks .. Part28

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This post is also dedicated to Fatma Aljeri for some reasons<3

Fahad: mayar shfeech?

Me: oshhh!!! 7asbalek ana ghabeyyaaa? Ma aftehem???

Fahad: mayaaar!!

Me: 7asbalek madry? Adry 3an kelshay! Adry yal mashfou7 eny saffaart menny ou ga9ait 3ala hayouna menny! Ou adry enek ma t7ebha bas ga9 3alaiha nafs ma ga9ait 3alay!

Fahad: mayar ga9ry 7essech!!!

Me: MABE AGA9ER 7ESSYY! Tukfa jawebny shma3na hayouna haaa??? Shmaa3naaa?? Lanna ma 3endaha okho e’adbek!! Bs hayyen minu elly bekhaalleek!! Ana waraaak wezeman 6eweel HAYOUNA MA TESTAHLEK!

Fahad: mayar ana 9a7 yemkin ma akoun 7abait’ha bs tara a7ebbech!

Me: hahahhahahah 7ABBETEK ELGARADA 7ETTA 7ABETEK ELGARADA YAL TAAAIISS!!!

Fahad: haaadde a39abechhh mu zain lech!

Me smiled: laa tkhaf 3alay! I feel good! 7aaaail mestansa enny finally KARAHTEK!!

Fahad: la tgouleenha

Me grinned: I did

Fahad: mayar please

Me: BYE!!!

I closed the line ..

I laid on the couch ..

My tears were falling continuously ..

I had mixed feelings ..

Sa3a a7esny mestansa eny gadra 3ala fraga ou sa3aa a7es abeeeehh!!

Ayyame ma3ah etyannen bs ma 7alat’ha ten3ad ..

7alat’ha thekra temer 3al bal tes3edah la7that ou terou7 ..

My eyes were tearing continuously until I fell asleep ..

….

I was expecting missed calls or SMS from him but I didn’t receive anything ..

3 months passed slower than ever ..

I missed him so much ..

He left a big gap in my heart ..

eshtegt layyam elhawa fee janabek .. youm eshemou3 blail ela7bab thawwan .. eshtagt agoul lhatefek mar7aba bek .. weshtagt leghyoum el9a7ary tekawwan

But I didn’t call him nor SMSing him ..

After these three months he became nothing ..

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Ya3goub: yo3an wadeny ma63am san3

Me: wana hathy 7alty ma3ak yal b6ainy

Ya3goub: shasawii! Esheghel eta3eb!

Me: sheghel? Ahaha!

Ya3goub: chena mu 3ajbech?

Me: la la 3ajebny!

Ya3goub: hathy esena el oula el7emddela betkhalle9!

Me: ahhh walaht 3al kwaait!

Ya3goub: hanat hanat!

Me: ee wallah hanat

We went to one of the closest restaurant ..

Me: 3ad etha radaina lazem asawi jadwal

Ya3goub while eating: shjadwela?

Me: ya3ni youm betwaddeny 7adag youm betwakkelny hamoura ou youm betsawwegny elsha9y ou youm bet3alemny scuba diving ou a9eed semach eb musaddas ou youm betwadeny slider station bathouga

Ya3goub giggled: laykoun 7asbalech lekwait nafs landan? Chenech nesaitay 3adatna ou taqaleedna?

 Me: shda3waa!!

Ya3goub: weyya swair ekhty ou na9our ya3ni yam3a

Me: eeeh ha 3ayal? Tabe ajablek brou7ek? Aked yam3a

….

Awal ma 6ala3t men elgate wella ashoufhum ..

Sa6ra kamla shketherhum 3asahum ma yange9oun ..

Na9our wasmiya Othman shamlan nouro 3aboud reema and 7amoud ..

They were holding posters with “WELCOME HOME” written on them ..

I hugged them all except shamlano ou othmano ou 3abod I shook their hands ..

7addyy I miss theem so muuuuchh!!!

Me whispering: obouy nasy ena 3enda bntt thanya?

Reema: la omy ou obouy ou khaled yan6erounech belbait

Me: zain ashwa mu msafer

They took me home eb na9or’s car ..

7addi I was shocked ..

Me: AYSHAY ENTA ELY BETSOUUUUG???

Naser showed me his license ..

Me: 7AYWAN!! SAWAIT’HAA?? WANA AKBAR MENNEK? AHHH YALQAHAR!!

Naser: hahahhah

Sayyarta kanat black range sport ..

Me: ba3aaad?? Wallaa khoshhh!!

Naser: testahlain teg3eden jedam

Me: qasben 3alaik mu men 6eebek a9lan!

We went back home ..

My mom hugged me really tight ..

Mom: haaalaa yaaa reee7at omy entaaayy!! Shlounech shakhbarech! Yaa ba3ad galbe kelleshh mkhaal9aa! Ta3alay eklaay

Dad: hala eb bent halaaa

Me: hala feek!

He hugged me ..

Dad: shlounech yuba?

Me: el7emdelah!

Dad: omech msawetlech thak elmachbous emshay yalla ghada

We all went to the dining room to eat lunch 7adda latheeeeth walaht 3al desaamm ahhhhh ..

Then my dad took me to our house garage ..

My heart skipped a beat ..

My eyes popped out ..

Me: HATHY SHETSAWWY HNYYYY??????

Dad: hathy 7aggech ou hatha laisenech adry feech t3arfen tsougen eb shahadat nwai9er hach elmefta7 ferry feeny

Me: waaaay yubaa a7ebbeeeek!!!!!!!

I hugged him and took my TURBO’S KEY!!!

And drove with him ..

Me: WAAY WALLAH MASHKOUUUR 7ADDEK 3JEEEB WALLAAAHH!!!!

Dad: testaahlaain

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Me: YA3GOUUUB TA7ARRAAKK!!

Ya3goub: leffeee yallaahhh

Me: YABESSS!!

Ya3goub ga3d edawwer eshay mal elsennara lain yab lesmecha ..

Ya3goub: haah kafwech

Me: shinu hathyy?

Ya3goub: faskar

Me: e7med rabbekk

Naser: e7em 9edt balool ana wentay faskar

Me: e9ber kho ma khalla9naa! 3alaqal a7san men elly ma 9adaw shay!

Sarah: e7tarmy nafsech la al7een a9eed hamouraa

Me: hahaha entay etha 9edtay maida zain 3ala zain

Sarah: ya3goub shoufhaaa

Ya3goub: yalla 3ad mayour la tethghe6een ekhty

Me: heheheh ok

We enjoyed our time fishing, eating watermelon and drinking barbican ..

The sun was awesome ..

After that we grilled the fishes and ate them ..

Mmmm they were delicious ..

…

Naser: mayara

Me: hmmm

Naser: 6alabtecch

Me: goul khalle9

Naser: tel3eben weyana qadam elyoum? wallah fagdenech

I froze in my thoughts for seconds ..

Me grinned: I’m in

Naser: HEYYAAA

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Othman: AKHEERAN FAREEQNA BERED 7G 3A9RA ELTHAHABEY

Me: waaain fahad 3ayal

Kent asta3be6 ..

Othman: wallah ..

I noticed naser pointing for Othman “oshhh” ..

Othman: madry rasa y3awra yemkin

3aboud: 3umar beyye bedala

3umar? Shakhbaaariii ..

Ga3adna nsakhen 3ala ma ya 3umar ..

Once he saw me he froze in his place ..

3umar: alsalamu 3alaikum

All of us wa3alaikum esalam ..

Naser: bu 3amra kella met’akher

Omar: shasawi ba3add

Shamlan: yalla ballashna

Omar whispered: fareeqy?

Me: qasdek ent eb fareeqy

He smiled ..

We started playing ..

Kent 7aaail meshta6a ou ga3da al3ab men galb ..

I MISS PLAYING SOCCER ..

Omar kella ethayye3 wayed etanne7 enarfez kan bekhaserna ..

Bas ana ou Othman kenna ga3den na36y men galb lain FEZNA ..

Othman: HEYYYAAAA!

Me: wallah muuu hayneen

Othman: wallaahht 3al fooouzz

Me: afa 3alaik 6oul ma ana hny bteshba3 fouz

3aboud: tara 3ala fekra e7na fawaznakum 3ashanech menzeman mu la3ba

Shamlan: ee ma 7abaina nakser feech

Me: AGOUUUL! 6eeraw bas

Othman: ee wallah elwa7ed yet3ab ou yethba7 3umra ou akhrrat’ha yanseboun elfathel lehum

And all of a sudden ..

Omar: 3ayal mayar meta radaitay?

Naser giggled: 3amour kella 3alam thany

Me: men zemaaan awal 7

Omar: aha ma darait

Me: eeeh

…

I received an SMS from an unknown number ..

Unknown:

“laish tel3eben weyyahum? E7na shhgayleen?”

Faj’a 6ara 3ala baly Fahad ..

Oh my god laykoun 7asbala lail7en ana bthemeta ??

Me:

“3afwan who’s this?”

Unknown:

“ba3ad? 3afwan? Walla ou taghayyartay! Mas7a raqmy? Ana fahad”

Me:

“eee akeed mesa7ta! Ba3dain shay raje3ly al3ab ma3ahum wela ma al3ab ok?”

He ignored my message ..

Ufff! Ya3ni red ba3aad!

Be6aggag! A9lan my life is waaaay better now ..

…

Shhour marrat chenha youmain ..

9ej 9ej I enjoyed every second in that summer bs good things always have an end ..

Its time for leaving ..

I HATE GOOD BYES ..

Off to UK ..

Efff gabel kent amout 3ala shay esma Heathrow bs al7een men ayyella teyyeny qamta ..

Back to London ..

Back to loneliness ..

Back to boredom ..

Back to studying ..

Ufff ..

4 months passed bedoun laa ashouf a7ad men my family aw friends ya3goub ma zarny 7adda mu 3awayda ..

4 months passed without hearing Omar’s voice nor receiving his SMSs ..

4 months passed without having fun ..

Kan elwath3 derasa jam3a malaqaa ..

A7esny mu ana taghayyart 7ail ..

7asait 9ert shway responsible ..

Ya3ni gemt a7ther my classes asawi my homeworks ou atghadda home made food ..

I was waiting for my birthday 3ala nar ..

Because I was expecting my friends to come ..

Yarab eyyouuuun ..

Its January 6 ..

I went for the supermarket nafs last year ou I bought a cupcake and a candle to celebrate me 19^th birthday ..

Kent na6ra elsa3a 12 3ashan ahef sham3ety ou akel el cupcake ou kent na6ra a7ad e6eg elbab ba3ad ..

Awal ma 9arat 12 I looked at the door wella ma7ad 6ag elbab ..

Re7t ou 6alait men elfat7a yemkin a7ad ga3d barra bs there was nobody ..

7asafaaa ..

Nefkht elsham3a ou I ate my cupcake and slept ..

I woke up in the early morning to read the birthday wishes from my friends and family ..

I went to the kitchen to prepare something to eat ..

Suddenly my mobile rang ..

It was ya3goub ..

HEYYAA YARAB OHWA HNYYY!!

Me: aloo

Ya3goub: alo hala walla shlounech

Me: el7emdella! Ya3goub e9demny ou goully enta hny eb landan

Ya3goub: enta hny eb landan

Me giggled: yalla 3aaad

Ya3goub: wallah ana eb landan

Me: HEYYAAAA! Please murny khanrou7 ay mukan 7etta luw ma63am 3ashan takel yal b6ainy

Ya3goub: yallah badlay khal amerech

Me: waaaayy etyannen wallaa mashkouuuuur

I closed the line and chose something to wear ..

Ya3goub is MORE than sweet ..

After half an hour he picked me up and we went to a lake nesait shesemha bs it wasn’t in London ..

Ou we took a small boat ..

Me: 3eshtaw walla hagaitek betwaddeny ma63am bs zain ghayyarna

He smiled ..

Elwath3 kan hedou’ ou shwayya awkward ..

Ya3goub 7adda 9ayer thegeeel madry shfeeh ..

And all of a sudden he brought a ring box out and opened it ..

My face was emotionless ..

Me: shinu hatha?

He gave me the ring ..

Ya3goub: terthain feeny?

Me: shinu ya3ni?

Ya3goub: 3adi atzawejech?