GAMOUSHA'S DIARIES Part17

THURAYYA??? I was really surprised!

Me wonderingly: thurayya??

Thurayya: ee ana thurayya, sam3a feeny?

I was shocked!!!! mu mestaw3eba enna thurayya dagga 3alai shakuuuu madry!!

Me: wayed

Thurayya: men rakan 6ab3an?

Me: eeh!

Thurayya: shaklech lail7en men9adma?

Me: ee akeed ban9edem

Thurayya: ok en9edamtay aw ma en9edamtay hatha mu mawthou3na

Me: Haw!!

Thurayya: sem3eeny ya .. gmasha!! .. ana dagga 3alaich as’elech laish refathtay okhouy???

Refathta??

Me: ana refathta??

Thurayya: la omy rfethtaa!

Me: luw sama7tay thurayya e7tarmy nafsech!! Ou goulay 7g elly galech enny refathta simply khal egoul 

ma abeeha ok?

Thurayya: ana me7tarma nafsy men gabel la akalmech!! Ou ee ma yabeeech zaain fekkeenaa!!

………..: thurayyaaa!

Ohh is that rakan???? Ooops it was speaker .. WAAAY FASHLA!!!

Thurayya: ok basket!! Tefaham ma3aha entt

Me: rakan?

Rakan: lail7een feech shaadda t’alfeen?? Ma ta3abtay men elchethbb??

I choked in my tears I couldn’t say a word! Ma3ah bethaat ana ma achatheeb!!

Rakan: e7na sa’alnach su’al jawbay 3alaih!!!!! Laish refathteny sh7aggaaa?

Ana arfethek? NEVER EVER!! I don’t know why he said that! Why he acted like an innocent jedam 

ekhta!! Why he was blaming me ou ohwa elly Refathny!

Rakan: fashalteeny jedam ahaly! 3anadt’hum ou getlehum bakh6ebha gabel la atkharraj ou gabel ma tro7 

eb ne9ebha ou ehya tabeny bs 6al!!!

I was really confused MINU RFETHEK!!!

Thurayya: ana amout ou ashoufech!! Okhouy ma yenrefeth eb hasuhoula

Rakan: e7eglaha tarfethny bs ana 3ashan mayser shay chethy kalamtech ou sa’altech ya gmasha 9a7 

wella la’?!!

I started to cry hardly!! I felt the oppression .. I swear to god I didn’t refuse him!!

Ba3dain ohwa ou ekhta were SO RUDE with me e7eroun!!

Me nervously: RAKAN!!! ANA MA REFATHTEK!! ENTA ELLY FAJ’A YEET OU 

SAMMA3TNY KALAAM EQETHNY OU NAQAST 3ALAAY FAR7ETY!! KHALLAITNY 3 

ASABEE3 THAY3AA MADRI SHESALFA!! SHAKKAKTNY EB 3UMRY!!!

Awkward silence ..

Me: bye!!!

I was crying like a new born!! I just .. I hate him .. I hate them ..

Egoully 9edamta? HE DID! Ohwa elly 9edamny to be honest! Ohwa elly FAJ’A hadny ou eb kel 

waqa7a ekhally his sister edeg 3alai ou e6ale3ny bel shaina jedamha! Kelesh ma tewaqa3ta yahel .. 

kheera enna hadni!

Ou thurayya waaaayed en9edamt feeha!! Suwalfa 3anha ma tgoul enha chethyy!!

Ma3qoula edenya ma buga feehaa a7ad zain ma3qoula kel enas 3endehum 2 faces yalait two faces ou bs 

they are wearing masks kel 5 minutes eghayrouna!

I went to manoura’s room ..

Me: manoura

Mnera: my pretty eyes

Me: I’m really disappointed

Mnera: 3ashan Rakan?

Me: Rakan Raghad Fay kel elly 7oly

Mnera: fay ma3roufa mbayyen enha fake friend bs raghad ma tenlam ya3ni te7taj wagt

Me: weddi asawwi shay ghair shay yedeed akhaf e9eer feni ekte’ab

Mnera laughed hardly ..

Me: tara men 9ijjyyy ou ma ytha7ek!!

Mnera: haha smella 3alaich, enzain shrayech nsafer?

Me: mashallah bs ngoul bensafer bensafer mashallah

Mnera: khangoul 7g obouy nsafer eb 3e6lat el3eed

Me: mabe sufar abe shay asawi 3ala 6oul mabe bas derasa ou ghada barra la3at chabdyyy

Mnera: gamousha bs abech t7e6een eb balech shaghla taara entay alf wa7ed yetmanach ok? Ou entay 

ma sawaitay shay ghala6 enzain? Ou kheera enna 6ala3 3ala 7aqqeeqta gabel la y9eer sshay!

Me: many gadra atkhayyal 7ayatee ma3a ghaira manoura

Mnera: la please tekhayelay!

Me: ya3ni weddi ansaah weddi athaye3 wagty ma3a ghaira bs minu ghaira! Etha refeejaty el close 

6le3aw kelhum FAKE!!

Mnera: bs ur pretty twin sis MUSTA7EEL tkoun fake 9a7?

I smiled ..

Me: 9aa7

She hugged me a lovely warm hug ..

Manoura is my first and last love I cant imagine my life without her I adore her!

Me: tekhayelay mesa3 ekhta daggat 3alay!!

Mnera: chathaabaaa!! Laish shaaku shtabeee????

Me: ou 7a6eta speaker ou ohwa ga3ed ma3aaha!!

Mnera: minu rakan??

Me: eeeh!

Mnera: waai3 shhhal eslouuub!!!

Me: tekhayelay etgoully laish rufaathtay okhouy!!

Mnera: haw entay refathteee??

Me: haw manouraa!! Agoulech hadny tgoulelly refathtaa

Mnera: 3ayal laish tgoulech chethy??

Me: rakan gayellaha enny refathta tekhayelaay!!!

Mnera: ou ohwa laish egoullaha chethy??

Me: shdarrany 3annaa!!! Yahel ba3aad!! Gazzar feeny mudda ou al7een youm 9arat el9ejjeyya ga6ha eb 

rasi ou gal enny ana elly refathta mu ohwa!!

Mnera: haw!!!

Me: kheera wallah

Mnera: 7addaa!! Entay al7een enseeh ou namaay ou 3eeshay 7ayatechhh!!

Me: hatha elly be9eer bs allah ygaddernyy

Mnera: enshaallahh

I left her and went to my room, sit on my bed and talked to my self ..

The conversation was:

Me: no more rakan

My self: DUH!

Me: kent a7ebba amout 3alaih

My self: you still do

Me: bs I will try to stop loving him! Ma yestahel

My self: 7adda ma yestahel wai3 walla enarfez

Me: el7emdella 3ala kel 7al

My self: 7adda el7emdellah

Me: kheeeraa

My self: dekht

Me: banam

That was my day ..

Its Tuesday ..

I woke up early ..

I wore an XXL grey Planet Hollywood pullover with a black lagging and a yellow Hunter boot .. My 

hair was tied into “kubba” ..

I went to the college ..

I attended my first lecture ..

It was boring ,too boring ..

At 12:00 pm it was my break ..

I went to the square ..

I saw Raghad was sitting there ..

I went to her ..

Me: raghad

Raghad kanat 7adha mtaaan7aaa ..

Me: shfeech mtan7a shetkhezzennn?

I turned my eyes to the same direction where raghad was staring ..

My heart skipped a beat ..

She was staring on RAKAN!!!

E7eglaha ettaane7 feeh chethyy!!

Akhhh my heart was crying deeply!!!

I sit next to her ..

Raghad: ohh gamoushh

Me: laa tawenass 9arly sena raghad raghaad bs el ahl 7adeed

Raghad: entay 9otech wa6yy ma asma3

Me: ee ee kamlaay khozezay eb fares el a7lam

Raghad: gamoushh?

Me: haa

Raghad: shfeech?

7araaam ksarat khaaa6ryyy shes still okk 7araamm!!!

I smiled ..

Me: mafeeni shay

Raghad: waaay waaayyy nathrata tethba7niii

Ughhhh!!

Me: bss wallah shagaitay elrayyal wentay tkhezzen!!

Raghad gave me that ugly gaze: shfeech entay elyoum??

Me: mafeeny wala shay yalla goumay khanakel

Raghad: rou7ay 6elbeelly lemon freeze ou ta3alay nakel hny

Me: yasalaam!! Fechaay khalaaass lawa3ty chabda bel khaaz!!

Raghad: waaay shfech shfeech entay elyoum!!

Elgheeera elgheeera fattekhatny!!! Yarab ansaah!!!

Me: mafeeeny shaayy mafeeny shay gathba 3alay men e9eb7 shfeech entay elly shfeechhh mjabla 

erayyal chenna maku ghaira!!

Raghad: ashouf ba3th enas egharouuun

La lazem ma aghaar lazem a9eer qaweyya ou ansah ya7alat elnesyaan elly mu eb emte7an bs ..

Me: la shaku khala9 ana barou7 akel ou lama akhales ayeblech freezech

Raghad: 7abebty thankyou

Me: by the way the starbucks kelyoum eyeboun lemon freeze wa7ed 7agech la’anna atwaqa3 entay 

elwa7eeda bel kuleyya teshrebena!

Raghad: hahaaha 3alai bel 3afya sh7arrech entay?

Me: mu 7arni shay bs eshtery men eljam3eyya ya3ni

Raghad: cham tabeen? 750? Hach

Me: chab bs chab

I left her and went to starbucks ..

I ordered my usual order .. I ate it then I went back to her ..

El circle kan ZA7MAA!!! Kan elwath3 shwayya .. lawsama7tay bamer .. shwayya please .. ,etc.

Me: shwayya luw sama7t

Suddenly I felt that the world stopped ..

He was standing in front of me and staring on me without saying a word!

I felt a dryness in my throat ..

Seconds of a silent staring then I walked away ..

My body walked away but me my soul and heart were staring on rakan there ..

Its hard!! Its really hard! Even if it is not your lover even if its a friend or a pet or anything you used to 

see and talked to everyday and suddenly they are nothing between you both!! Exchanging gazes and 

that’s it! Ahh God please help me!

I went to raghad ..

Raghad sadly: ra7

El7emdellah ..

At 3:30 pm I went back home ..

I arrived around 4:00 pm ..

Fouza: kashkaaashh

Me: ahlaan

I gave her a kiss and went to my room , changed my clothes and went down stairs ..

I sit in the living room ..

Mom: ha ma tabeen ghada?

Me: laa metrayga met’akher

Mom: 3ayal khal arou7 a36ee elkhadam 7araam

7essa: gamoushh

Me: na3am

7essa: ma tgouleelly sh7agga refathtay elrayyal? Ma7aala t7ebeena wel 7ala 7ala

KHARAA ZAIN!!! MINU RFETHAA MINUU!!

Wait al7een ohwa ou ga9 3aala ekhta bala3naha! Bs 7essa shdarraha!!

Me wonderingly: minu gallech refathta?

7essa: gamoush 3an leste3baa6 tara omy galatly enech ma tabeena

My mom came back to the living room ..

Mom: minu 3an weld el*******?

7essa: eeh

Mom EB KEL BUROUD: haw ee ma tabee gamousha

Me nervously: SHINUUUUU??????????????

Mom: shfeech mu entay gayla hathak elyoum enna mabe ou mabe atzawejah ou getlech khal eyon bs 

3an elfashla? 3ad ana men bacher dagait ou getlehum ma 7a9al ne9eeb bena’an 3ala raghbetech

K I L L  M E  N O W !!!!