GAMOUSHA'S DIARIES Part12

Raghad: ana sarly sentain araqba

I SHOCKED!! Two years is too much!

Raghad: kelshay 3ajabni feeh! Kent atmanna ya3jeba feny walaw shay wa7ed bss ..

My eyes filled with tears ..

Raghad: youm re7na nino kent adri enna ohwa hnak

I couldn’t say a word ..

Raghad: a3aref kel awqat classata a3aref rab3a adri meta yro7 elmaktaba yadres a3aref kel shay kel shay 

gmasha

Me: sentain?

Raghad: Ma3a elasaf!! Sentain wana a7ebba ou a7awel ajtheb entebaha

Ksarat kha6ry 7aail ..

Raghad: ou 3ugub hasentain men elna6ra akteshef enna wa7da men a3az refejaty esta7wethat 3alaih 

3ugub ma getlaha 3anna 3aala 6ouul!!

Ouch!! I felt her sorrow ..

Raghad: 3ugub ma wethaqt feech getlech ou le3elmech entay elwa7eeda elly getlech la’any wethaqt 

fech theqa 3amyaa’ ou akhrat’ha tkhonen hal thiqa!

That too much I couldn’t hold it!

Me: raghad! If you can dream it you can achieve it good luck

Raghad smiled ..

I left her while my eyes couldn’t stop tearing ..

I really don’t want to lose her for the sake of guy!! But he is different he is not an ordinary guy I swear to 

god he’s different he’s amazing he’s the one who’s my heart really wants ..

I was waiting for her to call me to tell me that he’s for me and she don’t want him any more but 

unfortunately she did not!

She broke my heart after I had broken hers!!

That was so hard!! The idea of losing Rakan was KILLING ME!!!

I arrived home ..

Me: esalamu 3alaikum

Mom and shosho: wa3alaikum esalam

I went to my room immediately..

I laid on my bed and started to cry hardly!!

Until I felt her soft hand on my neck ..

Mnera sadly: shfeech?

Me: manoura rathait raghad “while crying”

Mnera wonderingly: el7emdellah laish tabchen

Me: la’anna rethaha kan 3alaa 7sab eny ared rakan

Mnera shocked: shinnuuu???

I cried hardly ..

Mnera angry: men 9ijech?? Gouly walla enna men 9ijjech!! Musta7eeel!!

Me: walla manoura wallah!

Mnera: enshallah sit raghad teste7y 3ala wayehhaa ya3ni!!!

I ignored her sentence ..

Mnera: shoufay gamoush etha ma theba7teha ana elly bathba7ha tra tfashel wallahh

Me: mneeraa!!! Sentainn traqba tadren ya3ni shenu sentain!!!

Mnera shocked: a777!! Sentain?

Me: sentain!

Mnera: 7araaam!

I hugged manoura and cried so hard!

Mnera: 7ayaatee la tabechen wallah kheera sadgeny kheeraa

kaif aseebek wenta nether 3ainy wana 7abeebek

Manoura left me alone until I slept ..

I woke up at 7:00 pm ..

I received 1 missed call from Fay and 3 from Reema , an amazing SMS from Rakan ..

Rakan:

“can’t wait for next Sunday”

I smiled ..

Me:

“who knows yemkin tejma3na el9udaf bel weekend” >I had deleted it before I sent it

because I remembered that its over!

I went to the bathroom ..

Awal ma 6ala3t wella shosho ..

Me: besmellah enshalla e6egen elbab mathalan 6ala3t metfaskha

Shahad: sadgeny ma tsawenha madam manora m6ay7a 3endech

Me: enzain shtabeen

Shahad: haaa egouloun 9arat el9ejjeyya

Me: ay 9ijjeya?

Shahad: bennaseb janoun chenna

Me sadly: la men gal

She felt my sadness ..

Shahad: laishhh!

Me: bs aslan ma sar shay!! Shosho please 6el3ay barra!!!

Shahad surprised: el7emdella wesheker shyaach??

Me angry: SHOSHO BARRAAA!!!!

She left my room while she was complaining ..

I started to cry hardly .. why me? why me the only one who has a trouble in my love! All of them 

enjoying their love stories except me!! That was the first time for me to love a true love from my heart 

and its failed!!!

I stood in front of the mirror .. I noticed my ugly sad face then I smiled and wiped my tears ..

That’s life once with you and times against you!

I have to be strong and hold it! I have to be patient I must stand it!

I took a shower and went to Manoura’s room ..

Mnera: shlounech al7een

Me: esh6a ou ful

Mnera laughed: ashwaaa el7emdellaah

Me: ha shloun ederasa

Mnera: tmashy el7al

Me smiled: el7emdellah

I left her and went to the living room where shosho and mom were sitting ..

I was stupidly smiling ..

Shahad: allahumma thabetna

Mom: eee gamousha tara 7addadna el a7ad enshallah 3ugub le3sha beyyoun

My heart skipped a beat! I remembered Rakan’s SMS about Sunday!!!

Oh no I misunderstood him!! I really don’t know how to deal with him!!

Me: bs ana hawwant!

Mom surprised: chan geltay!!

Me: kany getlech! Ana hawwant mabe atzawaj rakan!!

Mom surprised: sh3arefech besma??

Oooopss!!! Did I mention his name???

Me: haa mu okho Jana?

Shahad: sh3arefech besma??

Shosho enshalah ma tzeden el6en balla!!

Me: weyyay bel jam3a shfekum!

Mom: enzain yumma fashla 3ugub ma 7addadna elyoum ngoulehum la teyoun fa khal eyoun ba3dain 

ngoulehum ma 7a9al ne9eeb

Me: ok

How could I say it to him! Ok I won’t say anything my mom will do the mission ..

And all of a sudden Hessa came ..

Sar loya 6ab3an “ahlan ahlaan” “7ayyaa allah men yannaa” “FOUZAAA”

“yakhteee 3ayara” “ta3aly salmay” “give me hug” .. etc.

7essa happily: haa shda3wa ma tgoulelly shda3wa asma3 men omy!

Laaishh kel enas ethakerny bel ashya’ elly mabe athkerhaa!!!

Me while smiling a fake smile: ma sar shay

7essa: 7etta law!

Me: wala ra7 eseer!

7essa surprised: laishh?

Me nervously: bss!

Wella faj’a shosho t’asher 7ag 7essa no comment

I raised 1 brow and gave shosho a vile gaze ..

Shahad: ana asfa!

7essa came closer to me ..

7essa whispered: refathtee la’annech t7ebben 9a7?

My heart throb so fast! I do love but that wasn’t the reason!

Me: la shaku!

7essa: gamousha bakalmech privately

BSS BSSS!! PLEASE SAKRY ELMAWTHOU3!!!

Me: mali khelg agoum!

7essa: please gomay!

Me: khalas 7essa maabe!!

My eyes filled with tears! Kellesh mu wagt’hum el tears! .. I turned my face and wiped them ..

7essa shook my shoulders ..

7essa: gamousha shesalfa!

I ignored her question and went quickly to my room ..

I sit on my bed , raised my hands and prayed to god ..

“Yaaa raabb ya rabb t3eeny wetsahhel 3alay ya rab enta a3lam eb 7aly ya rab 3eeny 3ala mu9eebty ou 

9abberny ya rab ou ekteb ley elly feeh elkhaairrr”

I calmed down after I had prayed ..

I looked at my mobile ..

2 missed calls from Fay, 7 from Reema , 1 from Rakan

3 BBM Messages from Fay , Reema and Raghad:

Phay<3!! .. My Y;*-A7ebbek ya ajmal el e7saas :

7aram 3alaich 3abreena:o

…

Reema .. Missing my GEE</3:

Laishh ma treddeen walhana 3alaich! Ga3da akhaf!!

…

R<3:

I love you gamousha;* I know that you’d never let me down!

…

1 SMS from Rakan ..

Rakan:

“gmasha wainech? Lama tshoufen elmessage call me kharra3teny 3alaich!”

…

Suddenly! Someone was knocking the door ..

Me: minu?

7essa: ana

Me: deshay!

7essa: gamousha kharra3teny 3alaich shfeech shsayer?!

I took a deep breath ..

Me: 7essa lamma yetqaddamly wa7ed ou arfetha kefart??? 7araam?? 3aaib??

I was so rude with her but I really don’t want to tell her the truth ..

Mnera came to my room ..

Mnera: ohh 3endena

7essa: eehh ma sema3tay srakh fouza?

Mnera: la wllah sema3t 9rakhech sh3endech mjabla ekhty

7essa: haw ekhtech ekhtyy!

Mnera: bag3ad ma3akum

7essa: manora bakallem gamousha privately la khallast ta3alay

Manoura laughed hardly ..

Mnera: gamousha sema3tehaaa?

Me giggled: eehh

7essa: haw shetha7ekk!

Mnera: ya3ni ana a3aref kelshay 3an manora ma y9arfony lama bekalmonha privately 3ala goltech

7essa: 3ayal ge3day chood tenfe3enna

Me: way 7essa mu men 9ijjech ta7qeeq ohu??

Mnera: shesalfa!

Me: 3ashan gelt mabe rakan kufaart!

Mnera: wetha etha rfethat? Tawha sghera ou 3endaha a pretty twin sis ma tenlam!

TSHAWWEEGGG MANOURA!!

7essa: la’anny adri laish!!

Mnera looked at me confusedly then she pointed shdarraha

I pointed back la tkhafen ma tadri

Manora smiled ..

Mnera: shinu tadreen?

7essa: mu entay ma yakhfa 3alaich shay? Ya3ni akeed tadren ma ye7tay agoul

Mnera: ana kel elly a3arfa enha hawwenat 3ashan ..

I know manora said that to felt 7essa her hesitating 3ala el6al ..

7essa: 3ashan shinu?

Mnera: gamousha agoul

Keent qammta tha7ketyyy!!

Me: goulay

Mnera: khayfaa tetzawaj ya3ni ana ma alomha ezawaj mas’oleyya ou yahhal shoufay entay bs fouza ou 

myannentech chethy hatha wentay metkharja shloun ehya elly tadres ou 3ndaha pretty twin sis 9a3ba 

tara

I laughed hardly manoura nektaa!!

7essa: aha! Atmanna bs chethy

Me and manoura: haw enchatheb ya3nii??

Both of us laughed ..

7essa: enzain sem3aw

We looked at her ..

7essa shyly: ana 7amel

Me: wanaaassaa 3al barakaa

Mnera: la7tha la7tha shaku mesta7ya kho mu awal marra

7essa laughed: qaleelat adabb

7essa touched her belly softly ..

Then me and manoura putted our ears on her belly ..

7essa giggled: tawwa sgheer taraa

Me: waay tshawgeen

Mnera: yaaiww lamma tekbar karshetech fouzo betraffes’ha yaaiww

7essa: ya 7mara ba6en mu karsha ana ma 3endi karshaa

Me: ma 6aa7 ella ensedaa7

Mnera: ou tekokas ba3ad

7essa: ya meleqkum la ejtema3taw

Suddenly my mobile rang ..

It was next to 7essa, she looked at the screen ..

7essa surprised: Rakani? Minu rakan?

Manoura looked at me while opening her mouth ..

I started to bite my lips ..