GAMOUSHA'S DIARIES Part8

Rakan: bs tew3edeny ma tsakrena ella lama akhales elly 3endi?

SAAADDEGNY MARA7 ASAKRAAA!! Kafee wayed sert thegela mat7ammal;$ ..

Me: ok

Rakan: legroup el6ulaby chethba!

I know babe! Ou ana elmaga9a nafs elhabla 9addagt bs esara7a ashwany saddagt;$!

Me: na3am?

Ya3ni 3a9abt;$

Rakan: ana asef!

Don’t apologize you made my day eb hal call!!!

Rakan: gmashaaa!

SAAAAMMM!!

Rakan: ana 3umri ma fakkart enny at3arraf 3ala bent eb ha6areeqa! Aw 7etta akalemhaa! Ana mu men 

hano3 elly adeg 3al bent qasben 3alaiha ou at3arraf 3alaiha men wara ahalha kelleshhh!!

Adryyy adryyy SAAAAN333!!!!

Rakan: gmasha ana en3ajabt feech ou tafkeery feech mustaqbaly bss 7abait a3aref shu3ourech gabel ma 

a6eg bab baitkum

I AM OFFICIALLY MELTING!!!

Rakan: fa shgeltay?

I have nothing to say abaih jaad shagoul shagooull!!! Abeeek anaa bs magdar agoulha lek ashkaraaa!!

Me: rakan faja’tny

Rakan: ana nafsech tefaja’t men el7achy elly 6ala3 menny walla eenna 6ala3 men galbi ma fakkart feeh!!

Awwwhh! I adore your heart!!!

Rakan: gmasha tukfa ne7taj neg3ad ma3a ba3ath!!

Me: 9a3baa!!

Rakan: bel jam3a ou jedam enas maku shay ekhalena ntekhashash a9lan! Mu msawen shay ghala6

Me: enshallah eseer khair

Rakan: enshallah, taben shay gabel la asakra?

I LOVE HIS WAY OF TALKING! THEGEEEL SAAN3!!!

Me: la shukran

Rakan: faman allah

Me: ma3a esalama

I closed the line ..

My mind couldn’t stop thinking of HIM!!

Until I arrived home ..

7essa: ahlaan halaa

Me: ohhh elyoum yayyenna!!

7essa: ma tabeena ya 7afeth?

Me: laa 7ashaaaa

7essa: hehe yalla badlay ou ge3dy ma3ay

Me: betaghadon 3endena?

7essa: eehh ou ba3d shway beyye khaled ba3ad

Me: ou omy shfeeha ma tgoul

7essa: mu ghurb e7naaa! Wain manora ou shosho meta beyoun?

Me: manora ashkara nayma sayarat’ha barra la’ana ou shosho ba3d shway, omy wainha?

7essa: 6al3a ma3a obouy tekhayelay!

Me: hehe 7ayatee ga3da brou7ech ka abadel ou ayyee, foza ma yat?

7essa: eb teyye ma3a obouha

Me: ok 10 min. ou anzel

I left her and went to my room, I took a quick shower and wore XXXL “I<3NY” t-shirt with tight black 

lagging ..

I went back to my sister ..

7essa: walla saree3a

Me: afa 3alaaich

7essa: shlounech ou shloun eljam3a?

Me: wallaa tamam entay shlounech?

7essa: ana ttamam eb khair

I felt that I WANT to talk to her I felt that I really NEED her! 7asait’ha yat bwagt’ha .. bs madry shloun 

ashra7 laha ou madry men wain abda! Its really hard to me ya3ni awal marra I fall on a guy!! Awal 

marra a guy fall on me! 7etta eb 3aylatna wala marra sema3t enna a7ad tezawaj 3an 7ub aw 7etta a7ad 

7ab!! Akhh yaa rabbb!!

Me: 7essa?

7essa: na3am

Me: ay sena tezawajtay?

7asaait shhasu’al bs kent a7taj MUQADEMAT!!

7essa giggled: 2006

Me: mashallah lesnen tarketh

7essa: ee wallaahhh

Me: enzain wain shafech?

7essa shyly: bel 9al7eyya hehe

WHAT??

Me: chathaaaba!!

7essa: wallaal3atheem

Me giggled: abaaih ya7lailkum enzain shloun?

7essa: wa7da gaylatla 3anny ehya men 6araf his cousin ou thabe6at’ha ma3a wa7da men refejaty ena 

arou7 el9al7eyya ou ohwa kan hnak galoulla shkent labsa shafny 3ajabta sa’al 3any ou ya kha6abny

Me: ollaahh! Ya3ni mu 3an 7ub?

Ta7assaaft 3al su’al elghabyyyy!!

7essa surprised: haw sh7ubbaa laaa2

laishh shfeeha ya3nii!!!

Me: ahaa!

7essa: gamoush tra maku shay esma 7ub ou kharabee6 hatha 3ugub elkhe6ba e9eer

Me: shda3wa maku akuu!! Wayed nas tezawejaw 3an 7ub maafeha shay

7essa: ana ou khaled 3ugub ma kha6aby 7abaina ba3ath!

Me: bss hal7ub kan his choice brou7a entay ma khtartay ohwa bs khtar!!

7essa: 9ij ohwa khtarny bs kan be’emkany arfetha!!

Me: wafaqtay mu 3ashan t7ebena 3ashana san3 ou khosh rayal ou 3ugub 7abaity ghasben 3alaich!!

7essa surprised: haw gmasha!! Lazem chethy e7na chethy e7na eb deera ta7kem 3alaina hal 3adat ma 

negdar ne6la3 3anha ou fog taqaledna eslamna! Laish entay ma3a el7ub?

That was a difficult question !!

Me: etha tawajad el7ub fa ana ma3ah!

7essa: yanaitay?

Me: ethaa galbech 7ab maa tegderen!!

7essa: gmasha?

Me: na3am?

7essa: entay t7ebeen?

And my mom survived me ..

Mom: nawwarr elbaait ya 7asounaaa

7essa: 7ayateee yumma

7essa kissed my mom’s and dad’s cheeks ..

They all sit in the living room with us and after a while shosho, khaled and foza came ou manoura came 

from her room ..

They were sharing a random conversations while I was in another world I was thinking of HIM!! And 

what shall I do tomorrow? Will I sit with him or not? And if loving him is correct or not!! Aaakh I was 

really confused ..

I left them and went to my bed!!

I was rolling in my bed and thinking of RAKAN!! I like him .. or maybe I love him .. I don’t know but 

all what I knew that I WANT HIM!!!

After a minutes ..

Mnera: kashkash?

Me: na3am?

Mnera: shfeech? Laish nayma al7een? Nezlay ghada!

Me: mabee

Mnera sit behind me: shfeeech?

Me: mafeny shay

Mnera: 7ayaateee!! Adry enna feech shay! Omy entay goulely shfeech gouleelly ana akthar wa7da hny 

ra7 afhemech sadgeny mara7 eta7asefain!

I love her affectionate voice it makes me feel tranquility ..

Me: manoura a7es enny confused madry el9a7 men elghala6 halkubry ou ma3aref afareg metkhayla!!

She hugged me TIGHT!! I felt comfortable to let my feelings out ..

I started to cry on her shoulder ..

Mnera: 7ayaateee 7abeebty entaay!

She wiped my tears ..

Mnera: goumay 7abeebty qasly wayhech ou ta3awethy men blees ou emshay netghadda ba3dain 

6al3eelly kel elly eb galbech

I cried again ..

Me: manoura abeee anamm

Mnera: 7ayatee muu zain tnameeen wentay tabcheen! 

I don’t know how to explain madri shagoullaha manora mu no3ha chethy ou ana adri etha geltlaha ra7 

arta7 bs mara7 tfeedny eb shay I know she will blame me she would never understand!!

Me: 3ayal shasaaawwy!!!!

Mnera: I can guess shfeech!

I got worried! Manoura kella echeknyy bs ana musta7eel achek’ha!! yarab ye6la3 tawaqu3ha ghalaa6!!

Me: shfeeny?

Mnera: are you falling in love my pretty twin??

OH MY GODD!!!! GET OUT FROM ME MNEERA!!! SHDARRRAHA!! SHLOUN SHE CAN 

GUESS WHILE I CANNOT!!!

My eyes shwayya ou ye6le3oun men mukanhum ..

my heart started to beat so fast ..

My throat felt so dry ..

My hands started to sweat ..

Me: sh shinu?

Mnera: bel 3araby et7ebbeeen?

Me in a shaking voice: ha haw .. men 9i 9ijjech?

Mnera: so .. ma tadren el7ub 9a7 wella ghala6?

Mneraa 9adgeeeny please 7etta luw tadreen ene chathaba 9adgeeeny!!

Mnera: ekhtyy!! Elly ana sam3eta ena el7ub mu eb eedna!

I give up ..

Me: 9aa7! Ana ma kha6a6t!!

Mnera: bs elly eb eedna enna ma nbayen masha3erna 3ashan ma ndesh bel ghala6 ya3ni 7ebbay bainech 

ou bain nafsech!

Me: hatha elly sawaita bs ham ohwa e7ebny!!

Mnera: shdarrach?

I told her everything ..

Mnera: cute!! Bs badda3 tra

Me: bs ma t7esseen enna its precious enna alla jema3 thnain e7ebon ba3ath eb mukan wa7ed? Ohwa 

7abny ou ana 7abaita gabel la n3aref ba3ath tra ne3ma!!

Mnera: hmm 9a7 it could be bs ham madrii!

Me: shasawwy???

Mnera: goulella etha 9ij tabeny ta3al baitna ekh6ebny men ahaly

Me: 7adech yanaitay!!

Mnera: hatha e9aa7!

Me: manoura akhaf akhsera!! Akhaf ehawen!

Mnera: 3ad etha hawan ma3nata yel3ab!!

Me: bs ana abee!! Ou ohwa mu chethy 9adgeeny!

Mnera: ta3alay al7en netghada ye3tttt ou ra7 nelga 6areqa

I took I deep breath, washed my face and followed her to the dinning room ..

I felt comfortable after talking with her..

In the dinning room everyone 6ab3an “zain nezaltay!” “shfeech menkhasha foug” “mesta7ya men 

khaled” “foza tdawrech tabe 7alawa”.. etc.

I didn’t eat anything I was absent minded thinking of rakan nafseety masdouda 3an el akel kent mtan7a 

ou al3ab bel shoka!!

From the minute rakan talked to me until I slept ou I was feeling worried! Khayfa men elly ga3da 

asawwy! Making a relation ship with a guy? 9A3BA!!!

I switched my phone off my mood was bad! I didn’t talk with anyone after talking with manoura!! Ou I 

didn’t do anything unless thinking!!

Until it became 9:00 I went to sleep ..

That was my day ..

Its Wednesday ..

I woke up early .. I wore my yesterday’s ripped jeans with my juicy white t-shirt with pink writing , my 

hair was tied into “kubba” ..

Moody kan LO3A!

I went to the college ..

After my first lecture ..

Rakan was sitting in front of my class and waiting for me ..

Me: esalamu 3alaikum

Rakan: wa3alaikum esalam , ta3alay