Getting married is not everything in this life!!!
I prefer to love Bandar till forever than living with someone else!!!
I shouldnt give up this easy!!
I loved him and I still do and will love him forever!!!!
إمّا نكون اللي نبيه ولا عسانا ما نكون..
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Me: la! Ka im eating berries
Hamad: rano shrayech nrou7 kannes? Eldarb yemkin 5 sa3at mu wayed
Me: kaifek
Hamad: elyoum a7jez online aw 3n 6areeq el fendeq ennam layltain ou nred
Me: kaifek do whatever you want
Hamad: rana? 3asa ma shar?
Me: 7amad! You asked me ams etha abe Bandar aw la!!
Hamad froze in his place..
Hamad: eeh?
Me: and I didnt answer your question!!
Hamad: lanna elsekoot 3alamat elretha?
Me: no! To give myself time to think!
Hamad: ou fakkartay?
I nodded: 6oul el lail!
Hamad: ou elnateeja?
Me: i chose him! I prefer to be with Bandar!!
He gave me a death stare and SLAPPED me on my face..
Me shocked: AWWW!!!!!!!
Hamad: qellat 7ayaaa!!!!! Ana gaaayel!! Min galatly fara7 enech msafra ma3a baandar wenty 6ay7a min 3ainy!!! QELLAT 7AYAAA!!!!!
Me: YOU DONT HAVE THE RIGHT TO SLAP MY FACE OK?????
Hamad: roooo7y zain!!!!
And He left the place..
My thighs started to shake and my eyes started to tear..
"QELLAT 7AYAAA"
"6e7ty min 3ainy!!"
His words kept on repeating in my mond over and over..
This was a bit harsh!!
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Me: a7es enny 3ala 3al mujtama3!! Ma7ad e7ebny ma7ad yabeeeny ma menny faaayda!!! A7es enny maqmooota!
Dania: enty ely ekhterty hal shay!!
Me: shinu ely ana ekhtarta!!!
Dania: ekhtartay enech matkouneen sa3eeda! Reba6ty sa3adtech eb ensaaan!! Ou hatha akbar ghalaaa6 lanna ma7ad dayem la7ad!!
Me: lanny ma sheft elsa3ada ella 3enda! Ma7ad 3a6any elsa3ada ghairaaah!!! 7etta ma tegasamha ma3ay 3a6anyaha kelha dania!
Dania: elsa3ada mawjooda 3endy ou 3nd 7amad ou 3ndech bs entay ely ma tabeenha ela men bandar!!! Enseeeh khalaa9!! Enty akbar min 6aqtaah! 7eta luw obouch retha bandar mara7 yegdar yakheth wa7da kanat mert refeeja!!!
Me: mu lazem yakhethny!! Bs 3allaqal ma akheth ghaira!
Dania: rana elfera9 teyye marra bel3umer!! 3ugub la 6e7ty bchabd ahalech beta7asefaain!! 7emde rabech enna 7amad rathy feeech lanna malaffech aswaad ou m9ayyen
Me: elzawaj mu kel shay!!!
Dania: 9aaa7!! Bs halkalam egolouna elnas ely 3ndehum hadaf bel7ayaat mu hadafhum bandar!! Khaalaaaa9 ensay e97aay!!!
Me: daniaa!! 3ady a6lebech 6alab?
Dania: anything!
I told her my order and closed the line..
I chose those to wear them and went out..
I went to the champs elysees park, sat in one of the corners and started to do yoga..
"Enhale, exhale.."
I need to calm down..
Nothing worths my tears!!
Nothing worths my sadness!!
I have to be happy!!
I have to smile and just forget everything!!
Yarab..
Yarab as3edny..
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Me: hi!
Hamad: wain kentay?
Me: bel 7adeeqa!
Hamad: emm, ana 6ale3 6elby 3asha min elma63am 3ala e7saby aw kaifech ro7y ay mukan!
Me: arou7 brou7y?
Hamad: aw madry etha bandar aw a7ad men ma3arfech hny ro7y ma3ah ma yemna3
Me: seriously!
Hamad: kho 3ady 3ndech el7ayat 7elwa
Me: please e7terem nafsek!! Ou ba3dain mala da3y t3aseb!!! You're the one who asked me to choose between you and Bandar!! Fa lamma I decided to choose bandar mala da3y t3a9eb!!
Hamad: ma hagait ennech eb hal mustawa! Mahagait enna 3ainech geweya ou nakra lel jemeeel!!
Me: ay mustawaa! PLEASE WATCH YOUR LANGUAGE!!
Hamad: watch your manners first! Faman allah!
Awch!
Kel mala ou ya9demny akthar..
Ok a3teref enny sawait aghla6!!
A3teref enny la7agt galbe bedoun tafkeer!!
Bs may7eglaaa may7egla yhaze'ny chethy!!
I wore those and went out..
I placed my headset and started to walk along the champs elysees..
Kelsh mu meshtahya akel shay!!
*استكثرك وقتي عليّ و غدا بك.. عادة زماني كل ما طاب هوّن. ليت الذي ودّاك يا زين جابك تشوف عقبك ايش الايام سوّن*
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Estemarrat 7alatna ana ou 7amad chethy 3 ayyam!!
3 ayyam ma n7achy ba3ath..
Wala nakel ma3a ba3ath..
Elwath3 7ail ethayeg!!!
I have to do something!!
He was applying some cologne..
And I was laying on the bed..
Me: 7amad?
Hamad: hmm!
Me: ok i have to admit that I did many wrong things ou badda3t b7ayatee bs may9eer t7asbny 3ala shay ra7!! Elly fat mat sheela men balek!
Hamad: lamma entay tsheeleena men balech ana basheela!
I froze in my thoughts..
Hamad: shfeech sekattay!!
Me: ana ma kallamtek 3ashan ared at'hawash!! 7amad im sorry! Im sorry for everything i did since the day you engaged me!!
He gave me a cold stare..
Me: 7amad wallah karaht nafsy bhal 3 ayyam!! Please same7ny ma7eb chethy
Hamad: 3ayartech walahty 3alay!!
7asait mara7 tabred chabda ella lamma agoolla ee walaht!!
I nodded: akeed!
He went closer to me and sat down the bed..
Hamad: 6ab edeeny bosa?
I smiled in a shyly way and kissed his cheak..
He hugged me tight: 3umry wallah!!
