The rushed decision .. Part19

Sheftek ou thaa3 elkalam..

Elfatra elly 3esht’ha ma3a Bandar kelha en3adat jeddamy bhal la7tha..

Bs kanat mujarrad thekraa..

Thekra waneesa fee waaqe3 ka’eeb..

Me: agdar adesh?

Bandar smiled: elmukan mukanech tfathelay

Akraah lamma y3amelny elshakh9 elly a7ebba brasmeyyah..

I sat down..

He was staring at the ground y7errrrr!!!

Me: el7emdellah 3ala salamtek

Bandar: allah ysalmech

Me: 3asa khalla9t sheghlek?

He nodded: el7emdellah

Me: bandaarr

Bandar: hala

Me: shfeek et6ale3 el arth?? Didn’t you miss my face?

Bandar: shteshrebeeen? 

Me: mabe ashrab shay! Bs zahheb may 3ashan etha ertefa3 thagh6y

He raised his eyebrows: it was your choice Rana!

My eyes popped out: MY CHOICE?????? Laaaishhh? Matadry ennaa obouuy yekhtarlena bkaifah?? I told youuu once halkalaam!!!

Bandar: 9a7! You did!! Bs if you really do love me kenty ra7 tsaween elmusta7eel 3ashan twakhreen el akh 7amad 3annech!! Mu tdeggeen tgouleen bacher beyoun elreyayeel! Shhal 7achy!

Me: ou lail7een tshek?

Bandar: rana ana ma kallamtech ella 3ugub ma ta’akkadt enny abeech!!! Ou 3umry matharaitech bshay aw aw7aitlech enny al3ab!! Rana ana eedech ma lemast’haa!! 3a6aitech e7teram kafy enech eta’akedain men 7ubby

Me: kel elnas te7teremny! 6alal elly 6aye7 men 3ainek me7teremny ou shayelny foug rasah! El e7teraam mu kaafy!! You never told me a7ebbech!!! Wala marra feta7t ma3ay mawthou3 elzawaaj!!! Ou ma3a hatha ana 9abra ou m9adgetek ma3anny mu majboura bs la’anna bgalbe fee shay 7aggek!

Bandar: la’anny maagdar atzawejech al7eeenn!!! Its too earlyyy!

Wayhe en9efaag!!

Hatha mu kalam egoula wa7ed nafs Bandar!!

Bandar continues (el7emdellah ena he did): la’annech matabeen tetzawejain wa7ed ma yeg3aad bel deeraa!! Ana b3umr eltharwa elsheghel kella foug rasy enshallah 3ala akher halsena aw elsena elyayya akoun estaqarrait .. anyway hatha ma yfeed

He turned his chair around..

Me: ah ok ta36eeny thahrek? A6la3 ya3ni?

He was silent..

Me: this is so childish!!!

And all of a sudden he left the place..

Wayha kan makh6ouuff!!

Kan mu 6abee3y!!

I followed him..

Me: bandaar shfeeek!!!!

He was ignoring me until he ended up at the men’s restroom..

Ufffff!!!

I waited him outside..

What’s wrong with him!!!

Yarab mafeeh ella el3afya!!

And all of a sudden I received a whatsapp message from him..

“Bandar: 

rana redday baitkum

Me:

Bs ma khala9na!

Bandar:

Maku shay yengal ghair mabrouk ou allah ywafgech!”

Shinu??

I was reading the above sentence over and over LAISHHH YET3AMMAD Y7ERNYY!!!

I threw my mobile inside my bag and rushed to my car!!!

He’s unbelievable!!!!

Y7errr!!

Ebe6 elchaaaabdd!!!

Kent 6oul el6ereeej m3a9ba 3alaih!!

Ana yayyatla ou galbe ma7rouuug 3ala ayyamna elly ga3da trou7 menna wehwa eb kel burouuuud yetkallam like he doesn’t care!!!

I got inside baitna to see Meme and Mom sitting in the living room..

Me: elsalamu 3alaikum

I said the previous sentence while walking to the stairs..

Mom: ta3aaaly wain ray7aaa

Meme: ge3daay gouleellena sh9aar ams ma3a el7uub elyedeeed

Me: 7addy ta3bana ou banam

Mom: shta3baaanaa!! Mamdach 6ala3tay ella raddaitay shta3aba hathaa!! Ge3day khantefaahaam

I sighed and went to sit with them..

Me: shinu?

Meme: eyannen?

Me: etha betelaigefain chethy tara bagoum

Mom: ehy qa9d’ha shlouna? Zain muzain? Sh7asaitay?

Me: zain mafeeh shay e7laaiw

Meme: enzain shsolaftaw?

Me: yumma laish ma tzawjeenhayyah? Ashoufha meshta6a akthar menny!

Meme: 3ady artha

Mom: we wakhezyaaahh!! Wain ga3deeenn!! Enzain ma yebtaw 6ary elmelcha?

Me: na3aaam?? Laa ma yebna! Besmellaahh elra7man elra7eem! Khanta3arraf awwal!!!

Mom: ee mu la’anna obouch gally enha betkoun lesbou3 elyay!!

Me: NA3AM??????

Dad: allah belkhair

I jumped in my place and whispered: besmellah

Meme whispered: allah yaster shakla elwaled 3umra 6eweel

My mom pinched meme on her thigh..

Mom: hala!!

Dad stared at me: zain bayantay! El3ada maku ela maryam ou 3azeza metjableen

I faked a smile..

Dad rolled his eyes to see my mom: 3azeeza! Tra elmelcha ta'ajjalat

My faked smile turned to a REAL smile!!!!!

Mom: lai meta?

Dad: 3ad hatha mu sheghlech! 7azat'ha bagolech latkhafeen

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Talal: my bride shfeeha sa7ba 3al dawam?

Me: I don’t know! 

Talal: enzain latdawmeen bs 3allaqal khanshoufech! I miss you!

Me: Ajelha shway, please!

Talal: rana whats wrong with you!!

Me: i feel lost

Talal: laish!!

Me: madry shasawy brou7y!! A7es 9ert cheny yahel ma3aref el9a7 men elghala6!! 

Talal: what are you talking about?

Me: Im talking about my life.. Im talking about my decisions!!

Talal: do what ever make you happy!

Me: a9lan madry wain ra7 alga sa3adty! Ahh khalha 3ala allah!

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Hamad: please la tefhemeeny ghala6 haa!! 

Me: i will not! Goul shesalfa!!

Hamad: gelt 7g obouch enny 7ab a'ajjel elmelchaa

A WIDE smile has been drawn on my face!!!

Hamad: mu 3ashan ay shay bs 3ashan ykoun 3ndech wagt ou tfakreeen 3adel

Kelesh ma hagait elsalfa chethy!! He's so sweeeet!!!

Hamad: abe ekoun elretha min el6arafain mu be men 6arafy ana!! Fa gelt a36eech wagt tfakreen etha 9ej tabeeny, ou awal ma tqarereen goulely ou n7added 3ala hal asas!

Me: mashkouuur!!!! Thank you for understanding! Mara7 ansalek halshay 6oul 7ayateee!!

Hamad: testahlain el6eebb!!

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A7rejouny feee su'aly 3annak ou magwa abouuu7y!

I miss her!!

As much as i miss Bandar!!

Huge part of my life has been missed..

Eldenya malha 6a3am bedounha..

Galb'ha abyath halbent mu 7aqoudaa!!

Adry laish z3alat and I really understand!!

Z3alat because she knows nothing!

Dania elly ehy ekhty elrab3a, mat3aref 3n fa3ayel obouy!!

Matadry enna yqa9ebnaa netzawaj ely yabeehum!!

3umry matejarra't agoullaha!

Lanna elmawthou3 mu bs met3allaq feeny brou7y!

Elsalfa tet3allaq eb omy ou khawaty!!

Ohma akeed mayaboun dania t3aref enna obouy e3amelna chethy!!

I always want to tell her bs elkalam maye6la3!!

La'anny metrabya 3ala eny age9 3alla 3umry wagoul obouy e7ebny!!

Omy rabbatna enna n9addeg halshay elwahmy!!

I opened my closet and choose something to wear..

And went to dania's house..

Jeena: ohhh ranouy long time no come!! Wainek

Me: walahty 3alaay?

Jeena: waaaazedd

I kissed her right cheek as I asked her: minu aku?

Jeena: mafe ahad kullu dawam bs fee Dania

I raised my thumb up: perfect!

I can smell her white musk odor through her room's door..

Ree7at elmaaathy!!

I slowly opened the door..

Her room... Ammmmn ou amaaaaan!

Me: dania??

The bathroom's door was closed.. 

She's obviously inside..

I sat down and started to punch on my mobile..

*bandar sent you an image*

Dania: Haw!! Rana?

I raised my head and smiled: good morning!

*Atmaaaanna enna ya3jebkum elpost 7ail weddy ya3jebkum*

The rushed decision .. Part18

Thiiis post is dedicated to the sweeeetest Aseeel Alnaqi<3333!!! and sorry for the late birthday gift:$

enjoooooooooy!!!

He was sitting right in front of me..

We were sitting in our guest’s room..

Me and him.. only us!

 I was not in the mood to talk to him..

Because I was still broken..

Ma nesait elly 9aar!!

Ma nesait kalam Bandar ou daniaa elly kan methel elsem!!

Kelshay 9aar theddyy!!

Lait elly 9ar ma kan!!

Hamad: shlounech?

Me: el7emdellah, ent shlounek?

Hamad: wallah eb khair, enty 3umrech 24?

Me: eeh

Hamad: bainy ou bainech 4 sneen atwaqa3 perfect 3ashann nefham ba3ath

Bainy ou bain Bandar 7 sneen ou ohwa akthar ensaan fahemnyy!!!

Me: age doesn’t matter

Hamad: 6ab3an! Wain teshtaghlain ou shinu 6abee3at sheghlech?

Me: eb sharekat al***** , auditing

Hamad: ou lai meta dawamech?

Me: 3

Hamad: met’akher! Ana akhale9 dawam elsa3a 1 ashaghlech 3endena?

Me: etha abe sheghel chethy kent agdar ashteghel 3end obouy bs ana ma7eb ashteghel eb mukaany a7eb ashteghel 3end naaas

Hamad: shaklech t7ebeen elsheghel

Me: kellesh! Bas a7eb a9eer nafs elnaas! Ma7eb akoun metmayza bel was6aa!

Hamad: uhm, shinu weddech etshoufeen eb zoj elmustaqbal?

Me smiled: elthegel ou elhedouu’ ou elhaibaaa! Ma7eba yetkallam wayed bs etha tekallam elkel yasket ou yesma3aa!! Mu lazem y3abberly 3an masha3raa bs kafy etha sheft 3youna afham shu3ouraa!! Ou ent?

Hamad: a7eb merty tkouun basee6a ehtemamat’ha ghair 3an elbanat elly b3umerhaa!! A7ebha tkoun sahla ou ma 3endaha takalluf

 Me: uh ok

Hamad: shloun wafaqty 3alay bedoun ma tqableeny?

I froze in my thoughts..

Agoulla enny maq9ouba? Agoulla enny mabeek? Agoullaa 3a6ny 7g Bandar?

A3tereflaa??

Bs Bandar khalaa9!! Bandar ba3ny bdegeega!

A9lan his reaction was shocking!!! Ya9dem ma tewaqa3taa!!

Lazem akhally halmawthou3 etem 3ala khair 3ashan awarry Bandar ou akhalleeh yet7assaf 3ala kel sacheena da3as’ha bgalbee!!

I took a deep breath: your good reputation kafya!

Hamad smiled: enty ghareeba! 3aks ma tewaqa3tech

Me: ou shloun tewaqa3tny?

Hamad: ana msaweellech follow eb instagram fa I know something about you

Me: instagram is the biggest lie

He raised his eyebrows: shloun?

Me: it’s a pictures application ou kel elnaas t6alle3 a7la wayh 3endaha ou t7e6a bel9oura

Hamad: bs ashouf enech bel9ej wayed a7la men le9warr

Me: im not talking about Jamal!! Bs 9adegny ma7ad ra7 e7e6lek 9efata elshaina through pictures

Hamad: shinu betwa9leen ley?

Me: don’t judge me before you know me!

Hamad: laish a7esech dasha ta7addy!

Me: ta7addy? Laish!

Hamad: madry kalamech maygoul kalam wa7da tawha makh6ouba ou mjabla kha6eebha! Mafeech 7ayaa el banat elly tawhum makh6oubeen! Tra ma aq9ed shay mu zain bs mestaghreb

Me: I’m sorry bs hathy awal marra ajarreb feeha a9eer makh6ouba fa madry shloun lazem at9arraf!

Hamad: Ranaa come on I am your future husband!

I don’t know why or how but my eyes started to tear!!!!

Hamad: rana! 3asa mashaar!

Me: I don’t know 7amad maadryyyyyy *sniff*

He gave me a tissue..

Hamad: hach hach meshy dmou3ech!!

I started to wipe my tears..

Hamad: ehday ehdayy!! Enzain etha bechaitay shesawoullech? Tara madry, enzain shfeechhh!

Me: ethaher 3youni t7erny

He started to stare at me wonderingly..

Me: ee shkent tgouul?

Hamad: akeed mafeech shay?

Me: ee wallah don’t worry

Hamad: ok ana asef etha thayagtech eb kelma

Me: la wallah shaku ent magelt shay ethayeg

Hamad: el7emdellah

Me: ok enzain?

Hamad: Rana ana weddy en7e6 elneqa6 3al7erouf men elbedayaa

Me: what do you mean?

Hamad: abe akoun wathe7 ma3ach ou tkouneen wath7a ma3ay! Abe n7e6 shrou6na men elbedayaa! La’anny youm fakkart atzawwaj fakkart eb osra naj7aa

Me: go ahead

Hamad: entay ebdaay

Me: ma3endy ella shar6 wa7ed! Khaf allah feeny, 7amad allah ykhaleek la tathlemny

He froze in his place..

Me: please!

Hamad: rana entay khayfa menny?

Me: laa! A9lan shaklek muree7

Hamad: 3ayal shhal shar6 elghareeb? Tewaqa3tech tgouleen mabe asken eb bait ahalek aw abeek tmasheelly ma3ash aw mabe ayeeb 3yal ella 3ugub fatra aw abe asafer kel sennaa!! Ya3ni shay chethy 7alech 7al elbanat

Me: ya lait hal madeyyat ehya elly tyeeb elsa3adaa bs 9adegny laa

Hamad: 3umouman ana anam mathloum wala anam thalem te6amenay

Me: 3ayal tfathel goul shrou6ek

Hamad: fet7eelly galbech

I started to stare at him..

Hamad: 3ugub ma sema3t shar6ech ghayyart kel elshrou6 elly kanat eb baly ou khalait’hum shar6 wa7ed ohwa enech tefte7eelly galbech

Me: you should open your heart first 3ashan elly ye6la3 men galbe edesh galbek! Tra 7ettana mashoufek rayyal met7ammes 7g elzawaj wala ashouf enek mayyet 3alay

Hamad: sh3arefech shloun e7eboun elshabab?

Me: mayabeella ma3refa

Hamad: SPLIT IT!

Me: la etebballaaa 3alay!

Hamad: rana ana 7abbait! Ee na3am 7abbaaitt!! Ou 7abait bent esemha mu ranaa!! Bs youm qarrart atzawaj wa3adt nafsy enny makallemhaa! Ou gelt lazem ansahaa ou ansaa elmaathyy ou abda 9af7a yedeeda ma3a RANA!

Me: you got time! But I did not!!!

Hamad: shlloun?

Me: ma kan 3endy waagt eny ansa! Wala 7etta atnasa! Kelshay 9ar bser3aa!! Luw tdesh galbe btelga feeh Bandar! Yes Bandar!!

He froze in his thoughts for seconds and then he whispered: tewaqa3t!

Me: don’t blame me 7amad!

Hamad: luw baloumech aloum nafsy gablech!

Me: why didn’t you marry her!!!

Hamad: atzawaj minu? 9eba? A7laaamy

Me: whyyy!!

Hamad: agdar asolef 3an elsalfa? Atwaqa3 mayhemech ya3ni menty methayga!

Me: la kheth ra7tek

Hamad: I know it؛s too early to tell you this bs a7san gabel la yfout elfout

Me: 7ada 9a7

Hamad: sem3y ya 6eweelt el3umer, ana waa7ed 7ayatee kelha bar ou ba7ar ou mu fathy 7g shay thaany kella mjabel elrabe3 ou tlageena ya ray7een gana9 ya tashkhee6

That was my dream guy!!!

Hamad: bs ham kent mu sa7eb 3aldawam, ya3ni embala as7ab bs mu 6oul elcourse!

Me: and that’s where you met her?

Hamad: eyyeech el7achy! Ana kent eb edareya ou elbanat hnak taghreeban nafs elshay nafs el ashkaal kelesh makanaw yalfetoun nathary lanna fee menhum wayed, kent a7ther classaty ou amshy kelesh mu mazajy akhezhum

Me: ok?

Hamad: 3ad marra kent makheth madda eb adaab ou kent maly khelg nafsy lanna elwath3 eb kaifan khayess! Maku parking ou za7maa ya3ni ham mu fathy akhez!!

Me: enzain?

Hamad: 3ad marra eldektor wa9ana 3ala note nakheth’ha men elta9weer ou ana mu daal elta9weer fa 7est yemkin ne9 sa3a yalla 6e7t 3alaih ou 9affait dour! Kent mestaghreb enna elta9weer kella banat! Gelt ymkin hatha mukan kuleyat elbanat 3ad 3ugub galoully ena kuleyat elbanat bel 3daileyya

I giggled: mu men 9ejek!! Shyab kuleyat elbanat kaifan!!!

Hamad: shdarrany! Kho malyon kulleya eb kaifan!! Elmuhem chan wa7da tgoully “okhouy hatha ta9weer elbanat” ou hathy el wa7da esemha 9eba

Me: and you fell

Hamad: not really bs elfetat nathary!! Tannaaa7t! ou kanat hathy awal marra atane7 feeha eb bent

Me: shinu elly emayezha?

Hamad: elly emayezha enha mu m6al3a ella 3younhaa!! Ou lamma sheft 3younha 3ala 6oul yat eb baly ghneyat khaled elmullaa “fee 3younah se7r yaftek bel rejaal” jad hal maq6a3 3anha!!

Me: oh my god! Hahha Ou wayehha shlouna?

Hamad: madry! Talbes neqab elbent

My eyes popped out: kent a7aseb enna lemnaqebat maya3jeboun a7ad!

Hamad: rana elbent mu bs 3jebatny!! Elbent es7aratny bjamalha!!!ou tadreen shinu akthar shay 3ajabny feeha?

Me: shinu?

Hamad: enha ghaair! Shay mu met3awed ashoufa eb baitna aw bel zwaraa! Aw 7etta bel jam3aaa!! Kelshay feeha ghaaair!!!

Me: interesting!

Hamad: tadreen wain akthar mukan trou7 la?

Me: wain?

Hamad: elbairag!!

Me: what the hell is “elbairag”?

Hamad: getlech ehya ghaair!! Hatha mujama3 eb f7ai7eel

Me: uh!

Hamad: kent lamma awary ekhty qalb men swaroviski tgoully “wai3 halaga” ou lamma ayeeba 7g 9eba t6eeer men elwanasaa! Kanaat ghair bkel tefaa9eelha

Me: a7es 7ubek wayed sa67yy! Ya3ni lanha ghair 7abait’ha? Ghair eb ashya’ sa67eyyaa!! Luw tgoully laish 7abaity Bandar agoulek madry lanny 7abaita 3ashan 7abaita mu 3ashan ay shay thany! A9lan 9efata kent akraha gabel la a3arfa bs lamma 3arafta 9ert a7eb kelshay feeh!!

Hamad: el7ub yekhtelef men shakh9 lai shakh9 ymkin? Bs I truly loved her!!

Me: the question is why you did not marry her?

Hamad took a deep breath: okhouyy lekbeer tezawaj amreekeyya yengallaha Jennifer yabha weyya shahadta bedoun la shor wala mesteshar

Me: way laa mat7ammaal chethy!

Hamad: its his choice after all ou khathaha 3ala senat allah ou rasoula mashoufa sawwa shay ghala6!

Me: kho entaw kelshy 3endekum 3aaaady

Hamad: la jadd ana ma afham laish omy glebat eldenya ou ga3edat’ha! Ou kel kelmetain t3ayra feeha! Omy 7alat’ha 7alaa ou z3alaat 3alaih faaatraaa!!

Me: ok?

Hamad: fa men yomha wehy tgoully shouuuf ya 7amad tara ana 7a6a amaly feeek la tkharebha ou takheth men barra nafs okhouk

Me: enzain?

Hamad: 3ad awwal ma takharrajt gelt 7g omy yalla yumma khe6beelly ou la tshoufeeen far7at’haa bs awal ma getlaha minu e3tefas wayyehha ou shway shway bedat t3a9eb

Me: haw laish?

Hamad: etgoul enha mu nafsna ou mu nafs salkna ou khalait kel banat eldeera ou makhtart ella hathy ent mrn 9ejjek ent ou okhouk btajle6ouny 3ala hal7areem elly tekhtaronhum ou men hal 7achy

Me: way shaal 7aaala!

Hamad: enqamaat galbe! Mabe aza3el omy wala abe wa7da ghair 9eba! Ou 9ebart 5 sneen lain tezawejat elbent ou 3araft enna el amal raa7

Me: laaishhh raa7!!! Etha ent met’akked men 7ubha lek kalemhaa khalha ete6alag men ely khathaha ou 9adegny btesma3 kalamek!! Ou ekheth’ha!! Benehaya ent ely betezawaj mu omek!!!

Hamad smiled: la7ad yesme3ech!! Chethy kalam tgouleeny 7g kha6eebech?

Me: kha6eeby? T9adeg nesait?

Hamad: 7ettana! 7asaitech wa7ed men elrabe3!!

Me: 7amad laish ekhtartny ana bethat? Ya3ni ent t7eb 9eba ou mu omek ely mekhtaratny

Hamad: erte7t lech! ou ymkin enty awal bent 6ala3ty ebb wayhe 3ugub ma qarrart ansa 9eba ou aham men kel hatha enech men nou3 elbanat elly enasboun esmy ou yarthoun omy

Me: tagzouraaa

Hamad: la wallahh! Enty arqa men halkelmaa! Ou ba3dain ana getlech youm enny qarrart atzawaj wa3adt nafsy eny ansa kel ely fat ou akawen osra naj7aa ou musta7eeel athlemech

Me: elly 7abait’ha tezawejat and you have no choice!! Bs ana? Bandar ma tezawaj!!

Wala ra7 esawweeha! I know him 3adel ou adry ennah ya yetzawajny ya balaha

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Elyoum raj3at Bandar men Dubai..

And I really want to meet him!!

Kalamy ma3a hamad 3a6any amal madry shluon!!

I wore those:

Tied my hair in a bun..

And went to his office..

…

I knocked his office’s door..

Bandar: tfathaal

THAAAAAAAAAT VOICEEEEEE!!!!!

I MIIIIIIISSS HIMMM!!!

*ou en 7akaa? Gha9ben 3alaaaihum yasketouuuunnn*

I slowly opened the door and got inside..

Me: elsalamu 3alaikum

Bandar slowly stood up and replied in a shocked voice: wa3alaikum elsalam

The rushed decision .. Part17

This post is dedicated to eljameeelaaa Deema Alshaya<3333

Me: ana .. ana msafra dubai!

Dad: wagta al7een dbai?

My legs were shaking and I was nervous..

Me: um 3endy dawra

Dad: rou7y darech yuba teyaseray

Me: 6ayarty 3ugub sa3a ou ne9

Dad: makuu sefarrr!!! Ma tadreen enna khe6betech 3ugub bacher? Ma teste7eeen 3ala wayhech entay!!!

Me: yuba allah ykhalleeek ared bacher

Dad: rouu7ay darech agoulech

Me: enzain yubaa khal ashoufa yshoufny mu seeda eyoun elreyayeel laish le3yela ya3ni

Dad: ohwa shayfech ou khale9 ou entay ba3ad shayfeta  ou 3ugb elmelcha ge3daw weya ba3ath

Me: enzain yuba khalny asafer!

Dad: RANA BETROU7EEN DARECH WELLA SHLOUUNN!!!

Lai meta bagoul enshallah?

Lai meta basket ou byenhethem 7aggy?

Shinu ya3ni shbesawwy feeeny? Yethba7ny?

Elmout arya7 men enny a3eesh ma3a wa7ed mabeehh!!

Me: MANY RAY7A DARYYY!!! LAI META WENT BTAFRETH RAYK 3ALAINNA!!! ENT ELLY BETEZAWWAJ WELLA ANAA??? EB AY DEEEN HATHA ELLY TZAWEJNY BEDOUN RETHAAY!! AY MATH’HAB HATHA ELLY SEEDA KHE6BAT REYAAYEEEL!!! LAAI META HAL THULMMM!!

Dad: ba3ad ba3ad 3ally 9otech akthaar!!! Kalam elmusalsalat hatha makhouth khairaah!! Ou ana obouuuch mas’oul 3annechhh!! Ou betezawejain 7amad ou reelech foug rasech!! 3a6aitech wayh wayed!!!

Kalaaama yaaaqher!!!

Kalaama semmmmm!!!

Maa a7essa obo!!!

Marrat weddy obo dania e9eer obouuyy!!

Weddy a7es b7ananah!!

Weddy obo yemsa7 dam3ety la bechait!!

Yemsa7 3ala rasy la tha7aakt!!!

Enzain 7etta luw bs yes’al 3an a7waly etha bkhair!!!

I hate my dad!!!

Me: saw elly tsaweehh!! Ana ray7a dbai!!

I said the previous sentence and went out!!

Awal marra akser kelmat obouuy!!

Awal marra teyeeny eljur’a asawy shay gha9ben 3alaihh!!

I drove my car to the airport..

I went to Caribou café to drink my morning late’..

B A N

Bandar

Call

Bandar: hala wallah

Me: hii, shlounek?

Bandar: enty ely eshlounech?

Me: Bandar im traveling to Dubai

Bandar excitingly: 9ej wallahhh?

Me: wallah!

Bandar: metaa??

Me: now!

Bandar: enzain laish mu mestansaa??

Me: la bel3aks!

Bandar: rana elmushkela enny a3arfech!

Me: la bs my stomach is aching me fachethy t7esny mu mestansa

Bandar: ok men al7een ra7 adawerlech 7g a7san dewa 7g elme3da 3ala ma to9leen!!

I smiled..

I swear he’s the best!!

Bandar: ay 6ayaara?

Me: lekwaiteyya

Bandar: naaaaaaa6er!

Me: ma3endek sheghel?

Bandar: I do bs mu al7een elmeeting 3al 4! Rayeth

Me: ok

Bandar: tarach kelesh mu 3ajbatny

Me: I’ll tell you everything lama ashoufech

Bandar: rana ta7achy

Me: Bandar khala9 3aad getlek 3ugub agoulek!

Bandar: deery balech 3ala 3umrech

I nodded: will do

…

I was crying so hard..

Kent abchy men elqahaaarrr!!!!

Mom: bs ya mama ga6a3ty galbeee!!!

Me: MAN3 SAFAAAR???? ANA BENTA YSAWEELLY MAN3 SAFARR? LA 7ASHA MU OBO!!!

I couldn’t stop tearing!!!

Too much drama!!

Qamtaaa qamtaaa!!!

Mom: enty tadreen eb obouch yegdar esawwy ay shay 3ashan emashy elly brasaa! Ou mehy yedeeda 3alaih msaweeha feeny men gabel was6eta tachbed!!

Me: MAYNOUUUUUUNN

Mom: bs ya 7abeebty mu zain lech t9arkheen chethyy!! Ou mahma ykoun hatha obouch!

Me: MU OBOOOO MU OBO ELY ESAWY CHETHYY WALLA MU OBO AKRAHAA AKRAHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mom: goumy yumma qasly wyaihech ou emshay ne6la3 nrou7 café neshrab lena shay

Me: MABEE AROU7 MUKAANNNNN!!! YA DUBAI YA BA7KER NAFSY HNY LAIN AMOUUUUTT!!

Mom: ya 7abeebty mu bhal 6areeqa tenwekheth el omour! Ta3awethy men bleees ou 7awly tet3ayeshain ma3a wath3ech! Mehy nehayat eldenya etha tezawajtay 7amad!! Bel3aks allah y7ebech a9lan!! Gouly el7emdellah ou 9adgeny kelshay bhal denya kheeraa!!

Me: yumma ana ta3abt men obouy

Mom: ed3eella ena allah yahdeeh

Me: bafham shloun met7amletaa entayyy!!

Mom: tloumouny laish ana ou obouch kel wa7ed eb ghurfa?

Me: even though!!!! Nafs elbaittt!! Ou murtaaa!! Shem9abrech 3alaih bafham!

Mom: obouch bel esem rayly! Ga3da 3enda seter ou bs!

Me: akraha!!!

Mom: shoufy mobilech eren men mesa3!!

Shagoulla? Agoulla tefaja’t enna obouy msaweelly man3 sefar? Shagouuulll!!!!!

6arat 3anny el6ayyara wana yayya elma6ar gabelha eb sa3a?

Hawwant?

Ma tetragga3!!!!!

Me: ok!

Mom: akhalleech ana!

I answered Bandar’s call..

Bandar: rana ana 9arly 3 sa3at belma6ar an6erech!! Wainech?

Me: Bandar ta3al el kwait!

Bandar: tadreeen enna 3endy sheghel ma khalla9!

Me: Bandar allah ykhalleek erja3!

Bandar: ya3ni enty m3aneeetny elma6ar mu 3ashan betyeen? 3ashan betyeebeeny ana lekwait?

Me: Bandar tukfa erja3!

Bandar: MANY RAJE3!!

Me: BANDAR ANA BACHER BEYOUUN ELREYAYEEL BAITNA 3ASHAN EZAWJOUNY MEN WA7ED MA YENGALLA BANDDAR WENT MU RATHY TERJA3????

He froze in his thoughts..

Me: LAY META ELSHEHGEL AHAM MENNYYY!! LAIMETAAA!!!

Bandar: laish tawni adryyyy????? Laish ana akher man ya3lam!!

His voice’s tone was scary!!!

He was angry!!!

Me: anaaa 9arly dahar adeg 3alaik agoulek erjaa3 went eta7ajjaj belsheghel!!!!

Bandar: wana many meste3ed ahed sheghly 3ashan wa7da nafsech!!! Ma qaddaratny ou 7a6atny b6araf galbhaaa!!! Hatha shay kbeeeer ya rana KBEEER!!! Ared shasawwyy? Ashhad 3ala zawajkum wella shinuu?? Elshay eb EEDECHH! Kan elmafrouth matwa9leenha hal mar7ala!! I trusted you!! bs 6ala3tay ay kalam!! Bye

I-froze-in-my-place..

With my eyes popped, mouth’s opened and mind shocked!!

Sh9aaar?

Was it Bandar?

Laish kel hatha ga3ed e9eerly!!!

Even my tears were shocked!!

They didn’t fall down!!

Everything in my system was frozen!

…

Farah: ma3qoula? Enty akher wa7da feena a7esech t7ebbeen!! Ana ee mimi ham ee!! Bs entay? You were against it!!!!

Ya3ni khala9? No more Bandar?

Farah: ou elmushkela enny 3ayazt an9a7kum enty ou mimiyo!! Sheftaw? Hathy nehayaat’ha!!

Bsebbety?

Farah: bs ekhtheeha menny hatha Bandar etha men awalha chethy 3erfy lay tezawajtaw menty shayfa wayha khair shar! Men deera lay deeraa!!

Netzawaj? Yalait!!!!!!!

Farah: ou se’leeeny 3an elrayel la safar!! Way waay m7ataaat malha waly!! Teg3edeen tfakreen khanech wella ma khanech! Kho lekwaiteyen ma3roufeen 3ainhum zayghaa!!!

Bandar 3aina zaygha? Funny!

Bandar ne3ma etha 7a6 3aina b3ainy!

Farah: a7san shay takhtheen dayyen!! La ba3ad hatha yetzawaj 3alaich ma3enda mane3!

Me: emly 3youna ma tzough!!

…

I was laying my back on one of the living room’s sofas and staring at our beautiful garden through the window..

I was thinking of my love!!

He was too harsh!!

He knows nothing a9laan!!!

He doesn’t know my dad!!

Luw yadry shloun obouy thalem chan ma gal elly galah!!

Our last phone call was a big shock!!

To both of us!

En9edam min elkhabar ely geltah 7aggah!

Ou en9edamt men eslouba ou raddat fe3laa!!

Dad shouted: 3azeeeezaaaa

Mom: na3aaam!!!

Dad: 3ugb elmagharb beyoun elreyayeel san3oulehum el diwaneyya ou thab6o kelshay ha!

Mom: enshallah!

I sighed and went to my room!

…

Mimi: a7es be9eer feech depression

I gave her a cold stare..

Mimi: matrou7een dawam mate6le3een you don’t even cry!!

Me: dmou3y khale9aw men kether ma bechait

Mimi: rana you’re a life lover sh9arlech!!!

Me: gelteehaaa “you were” lamma kanat 7ayatee teste7eq el7ubbb! Bs al7een? Sha7eb feeha!!

Mim: ranaaaa! La7ad yesme3ech!!! Most of the Kuwaiti girl yetmannon 7amad aw rayyal nafs 7amad ou entay tgouleen sha7eb eb 7ayaatee? He preferred youuu 3ala kel banat lekwaiittt!

Me: 7amad? He didn’t even call me!

Mimi: duh! He doesn’t have your number!! 3ugb elmelcha ra7 tektashfain shkether eyannen!

Me: and how do you know ha??? Layghereeech instagram!!! Ka anaaa kel hal followers 3abalhum ana 3aysha eb na3eeeem 3abalhum obouuy emdalelnyy! Yetmannon obouuuy! Bs they didn’t ask me for him wella chan ma bakhalt 3alaihum wallah!

Mimi: I’m talking about manners!!

Me: mimi ana 3umry ma takhayalt nafsy atzawaj eb hal6areeqa!!!!

Mimi: la’annech 6oul 3umrech metfa’la zyada 3an ellezoum!

Me: eltafaa’ul zainnn!

Mimi: bs be7douuudd!

…

Reem was calling..

I picked it up..

Me: ohh reem hi

Reem: alf alllf maabrouuuuukkk! Walla enna a7la khabaaaarrr! Laish ma geltay yashagooool

My hearts beats accelerated..

How did she know?

Is that mean that Dania know?

Me: allah ybarek feech! Madry enna yayya bagoulech bs sebagteny

Reem: wallah ou sawaaiteeha ou khathaitay 7amad!! Ya7laaila shalaihna eyame3 rasain bel7alalll

Me: elbanat daraw?

Reem: madryyy ana sheft elkhabar eb account mal khe6ab elkwaiteyen ou dagait 3ala 6ouul

Ohhh shit!!!

Reem: Maw9eloch mentions? Elkel meshta6 your followers ou his ga3deen ebarkouuun

Me: reem!!!

Reem: hala!

Me: I told you once about my story, my love story 9a7?

Reem: yeaaaahhh! And I loved the ending!

Me: reem!! Ely a7ebba esma mu 7amad yareeem!!!

Reem: 9ej?

Me: reem ana mu 7abba halzawaj wala abeeh etem!! Enty tadreen shkether dania zayqa 3ala 7amad and I might lose her bhalsebba!!!

Reem: eshda3waa!! Dania mestansa 3aalaih mu lai darajat enha betezawejaa!!

Me: I know dania more than anything! She wants him!

Reem: bs 9adgeeny en darat enech tezawajteeh ra7 tefra7 lech!

Me: uffff! I hate this subject!

Reem: ok ok khansolef 3an shay thany

Me: shloun ely t7ebeena

Reem: fallaina

Me gasped: laaaaish!!!!!!

Reem: ohwa elkhasraaan!! Guess what?

Me: hmm?

Reem: I am living a new perfect love story with someone else!!

Me: REEEM!!! THIS IS TOO CHEEAPP!! Lai metaaa ya3ni??

Reem: im living my life!

Me: life isn’t about guys!!!!

Reem: GELTEEEHAAA!!!

Me: ana 7abbait marra! Ou bhalmarra 7abait bkel mafeeny! And im not ready to love again! Lanna 7ub Bandar lail7een 3ayesh feeny

Reem: type down

Me: shinuuu

Reem: H A M A D _ 83

Me: sh7agga!

Reem: deshy accounta ou shoufaayy! He’s an amazing person!!

Me: I don’t need his amazing-ness

…

I stalk his account mu 3ashan aqne3 nafsy bs 3ashan bashouf ou ba3aref akthar 3an mustaqbely..

There was no hint about our engagement..

And I didn’t find a tiny hint about me as well..

Lots of fishes..

His boston whaler was everywhere..

Ummm..

This is a bit weird!!

6oul 3umry kent a7lem eb shakh9 nafsaa!!

6eweeel 3enda 3athalat khafeefa ou a tanned skin..

Rou7a shababeyyaa ou kel 6al3ata bar ou ba7aar..

Safrata el9emman ou 3maan..

Elbanat akher hammaa!!

Ou taqaddamlyy!!

Bs ma abeeeh!!

Abee elly 3umry ma 7alamt feehh!!!

Ensan 6weeel bs ma 3enda 3athalaat ou his skin is more like white..

Rou7a Abadan mu shababeya ou 6al3aata kelha sheghel!!

Safrataa kelha 7g sheghel!!

Bs abeeeh!!!

Both of them zaineen adry!!!

But my hearts beats to Bandar and that’s it!!

…

Dania: I don’t care!!! Betezawejainah tezawejeeh 3alaich bel3aafyaaa!! Bs la tsaween rou7ech baree’a!! la t3aybeeen 3alay kel ma atkallam 3annaaah!! Rana shhal 7arakaat? I thought we were sisters!!! Ou yakh6ebech ou ettem elkhe6ba wala tgouleelly? Laish ana ghareeba? Wella khayfa akhtha mennech? Tara many mayta 3alaihh ok? Ou alla la eyeeb elyoum elly astathbe7 feeh 3ala rayyal!! Bs hal 7araka la yat men ekhet et3awwer!! 9edamteeny!

Me: daniaa please let me explain!! Wayed thalamteeenyy bkalamech hatha!!

Dania: ya please!! I need to hear a lie!! Bs 3ashan ma t6ee7een men 3ainy! Because I truly loved you!

Me: ou tetwaqe3ain ana bachatheb  3alaich?

Dania: you did already!! Elly sawaiteeh tamtheeel masra7eyya kamlaa yalait bs chethba!! Shay e7err!

Me: mumkin ashra7lech?

Dania: of course! Bs mu al7een lanny jad maly khelg asma3 9otech! Sorry rana bs walla ana ensan!

She closed the line..

And I burst into tears!!

Kel ma agouuul ba3eesh 7ayate ou bansa elza3al ye6la3ly shay yedeeedd!!!

Shloun ansaa ou elly za3laneen menny eb galbee!!!

That was expected!!!!

Ou ma aloumhaaa!!!

I lost kel elnaaas elly a7ebhummm!!

My besties!!!!

The whole thing was more like a nightmare!!

…

Hamad smiled: masa’ elkhair

Me: masa’ elnour