The rushed decision .. Part16

I need someone to explain for me what is going on!!!!!!

Me: shinuuu elly beyoun elreyayeel youm el athnain yubaa ana 6oufa hnyyy???

Dad: na3am? Min meta ana akheth raykum bhal suwalef? Elmara 3agelha ga9er yuba ma t3arfoun entaw

My eyes started to tear..

Me: yubaaa!!! Allah ykhalleeeek maabe mabe

Dad: rana shfeech? Ana mu mzawjech ay wa7ed men elshare3! Tara 7amad weld nas ou akhlaqa zaina ou 3enda khair shtabeen ba3ad! 9ej mu kafuuu

OU FOUUUG ENNY MABE ATZAWAJ GHAIR BANDAR, ELLY KHA6EBNY 7AMAAD!!!

EEEE 7AMAADD!!

7amad ellyy refeeejty ou ekhty ou a3aaz shakh9 bdenyetyy maaytaaa 3alaaihhh!!!

Shhhal 7aaaaaaathhh!!!

Me: yubaa allah ykhaleeeek mabeeeeee

Dad: ana met’aked enech awal ma teg3edeen ma3ah bet7ebbeeena

Me: yubaaa please mabe ma9ery e9eer nafs ma9erek ent ou omy

Dad: tara ana mu fatheeelech rou7y ebchy 3end omech ou khaleeny arou7 7g sheghly yalla!!!

Ma kent gadra a9addeg elly 9aar!!

7asait eldenya wgefat bla7thaa!!

7asait kel elbeeban tesakkerat eb wayhe!!

7asait enny gemt min noma 3ameeqa ou kel elly 9arly belshahrain elly 6afaw kan mujarrad 7elm!!

Ta7assaaft!!!

Ta7assaft enny sema7t 7g Bandar edesh galbee!!

Ta7assaft enny 9addagt el7elm ou nesait elwaaqe3!!

Ta7assaft enny masema3t na9ee7at Fara7 ekhty!!

Kent me7taajaa enny a9aarrekh!!

Kent me7taja enny abchy braa7ty bedoun la a7ad eshouf edmou3y ou yes’alny “laish”..

I ran to my room and threw myself on my bed and started to cry my heart out!!!

I loooove daaania and I adoooreee Bandaaarr!!!

I’m not ready to lose them!!!!!

*Knock knock knock*

Mimi: RANAA

*Knock knock knock*

Mimi: RANAA

*Knock knock knock*

Mimi: RANAA

*Knock knock knock*

Mimi: RANAA

Me screamed: MIMI STOP KNOCKING MY DOOOOR FOR GOD’S SAKE!!!!

Mimi surprisingly: shfeeech?!!

Me: MIMI LAA T7ENNEEEN OU ROU7AAAY!!!

Mimi: yaaaaaallah khalaa9naaaa byabdy el event!!!!

Me: enshallah ykhaale9!!! Bsss hatha elly ehemkummm events ou kharabeee6!!!!!!!

I couldn’t stop tearing!!!

I lost hope the moment my father told me about “7amad”!!

La’anny I know how strict is my father!!!

I don’t cry easily!! Bs elshu3our bel thulm ebachy elly galba 7ajar!!

*knock knock knock*

I ignored..

Mom: ranay 7abeeebe shfeeech!!

Me: rou7aw mabe ayyee!!

Mom: enzain goulellena shfeech 3allaqal!!

I opened the door!!

Me: ESHFEENYY??? Feeeny enna obouuuuy metsalle6 ou thaaalem ou yekraaahnaaa ou kelshay khaaayess!!!! Yumma entaaay laaishh rethaitay takhtheeena laishhh t7e6eena bhal mawaqef laaaishhh!!

My mom froze in her place..

Me: yumma 3ayaaazt aqne3 naafsy enna he loves us!!! 3ayaaazt atttgaarrab mennaah!! 7awalt waayed bs maku faaaydaa its official.. He hates us!

My mom took a few steps toward me and pulled me to her chest..

Mom: bs mama bs 7abeebty bs omy ou obouuy entaayy!!

Me: yumma thulm wallaah thuuullmm!!!

Mom: enty 3arfa obouch men 3umr eldenya wehu chethy mafeh tharrat 7anan bs mu ma3nata enna may7ebkum entaw 3yalaa men la7ma ou damma!! Ana ma y7ebny eeh bs entaw musta7eel!

Me: ou e7na 3yaalech ge63a mennech fa elkerh 7ayeshnaa!!

Mom: la ya mama ytarawalech 9adgeeny! Shemsawweelech ohwa?

Me: en3ad scenario zawaj fara7!

Mimi gasped..

My mom was staring wonderingly: shinu?

Me: yummaa obouuuy 3a6aany khabaaar enna 7amaaad elflany kha6ebny ou gally abalghech enna elreyayeel beyoun hal thalathaaaa!! E7ER E7ER E7ER I HAAATE HIIIIMMM

Mom’s eyes popped out: obouch men 9ejjaa?? Lai metaa hal 3aqleyya elmetkhalfaa!!!

Mimi: at leeeast its 7amaaad muuu wahhaaabbb!!!

Me: SHUT UP MIMI!!!

Mimi: wallah khoshh wa7eddd!

Me: MIMI BARRAAA!!

Mom: ranouuuya 3umry entay la tthaygeen khelgech ana bakallem obouch akhalleh yarfeth’hum!

Me: laish? Entay ma kallamteeh ayyam fara7? Sema3 kalamech? 7a6lech e3tebar ennech omhaa!!! Yuma ethaa zawajny 7amad bastekheeefffff!!!!!!!!

My mom while wiping my tears: ma3alaih yumma matadreen yemkin halmarra t9eeb! I’ll do my best la t7ateeen

Mimi: mobilech ga3ed eren taraaa!!! Bandar is calling.. who’s bandar a9lan!!

I believe he feels..

I believe he loves..

Deeply..

But, silently..

Mom: minu Bandar?

He’s my dream..

My tears started to fall heavily again..

Mom: bs mama bs ga6a3ty galbeee

Mim: mama ana bahajer men al7een 3ashan la eyeeny eldour jad shhal 3eeesha!!!

…

Talal: I was expecting to see you bel event!

Me: makan 3endy wagt

Talal: rana?

Me: hmm

Talal: 3asa mashar?

Me: ma shar!!

Talal: ya7lailha Alen meta saferat

Me: Alen msafra?

Talal: ma tadreen?

Me: minzeman ma re7t yoga fa madry 3anhum

Talal: 7a6a eb instargam enha ga3da tsawy Yoga eb Holland

I froze in my thoughts..

…

I do miss him!!

Bs I can’t talk to him!!

I can’t hold his warm voice!!

I can’t hold his sweetness!!

I can’t I just can’t!!!!

He called again..

And my thumb answered his call.. against my well!

Bandar: Rana? Enty bkhair?

Me: eeh!

Bandar: 3ayal shfeech matredeen?

Me: Bandar meta betred?

Bandar: m3a el asaf a7taj ag3ad chum youm zyadaa!

Me: chum youm? Shkether!

My feelings aren’t cold!!

But I was trying to hold my tears, I was trying to keep the pain inside my heart and not letting it out!!

I don’t wanna hurt him!!

I don’t wanna surprise him!!

He’s working mu fatheelly!!!

Bs he has to do something!!!

Maybe when he come back or maybe it’s too late!!

Bandar: madry! Rana feech shay?

Me: no!

Bandar: eshtagt lech!

My tears started to fall gradually..

Me: TTL!

I closed the line and burst into my tears!!

I miiiiss youuuu waaaaay moooooreeee!!!

I neeeeeed youuuu!!!

*knock .. knock .. knock*

My mom got inside my room..

Mom: shlounech yumma?

Me: many bkhaair

Mom: ma3alaaih shoufy eljaneb elmushreq 7amad ensan zain ou n3arefhum omah nas 6aybeeen

I smiled: kalamtay obouy? Ou ma nefa3? Ou yayya taqne3eeny bmu9eebty?

Mom: laish mu9eeba ya mama bel3aaks!! 7amad a7san men ghaira! Shoufy akhaytech maskeenaa shyablaha obouchh

Me: yumma ana musta7eeel akheth 7amad t3arfeen shinu musta7eell!!!!!

…

Me: morning

Talal: good morning, eqbalaw ejaztech

Me happily: E7LEFFFF!!!! OMG I CANT BELIEVE IT EL7EMDELLAAHH!!!!

Talal: rana shesalfa?

I ignored him and opened my laptop to book a flight for tomorrow to Dubai where Bandar is!!!

I closed the system and grabbed my bag to leave..

Me: see youuu later

Talal: waaain ray7aaa ma khallas eldawam

Me: basta’then 3endy sheghel tharouryyy

I left the company and called Dania..

Dania: 9aba7 elkhaaaaair

Me: maaa9adddeeg! Kelesh matewaqa3tch etreddeeen

Dania: mwa9laaa ma nemt

Me: eeee okk! Enzain lebsay ana bel6ereej

Dania: netrayyag?

Me: belmukan ely tabeeeen

Dania: five minutes

One hour later dania came out of her house..

Me: geltay 5 minutes?

Dania: hahha ma 6awalt wayed bs!!

Me: laa 3ady kel marra tna6reeny ne9 sa3a halmarra sa3a ella rube3 ETBE6EEEN ELCHAAABDDDDD

Dania: ba3ad entay gelteelly 7azat el7azza

Me: musta7eeel te3tarfain

Dania: tara ye3t

Me: ay ma63am tabeeen?

Dania: cocoa room

We went to cocoa room..

Me: bacher enshallah ana msafra Dubai tabeen shay?

Dania: ayaa khaaynaaa! Laish ma geltay nrou7 kelnaaa!!

Me: uhh ee la’anna barou7 sheghel mu seya7aa

Dania: 3eshtaww

Me: dazeeny dawra

Dania: yalla erzegnaa

Me: tabeen shaay min hnaak?

Dania: salamtech ou a cup of Angelina hot chocolate

Me: hahha shawagteeeny

Dania: 3ala 6aaaaary el ashya’ elly tshaweggg sawait follow 7g 7amad malait men elstalking haha

My heart’s beats accelerated..

And it became hot..

Me: ba3ad shinu tabeen

Dania: abe 7amad e9eer?

She’s making it harder!!!

I really don’t know how to tell her!!

Lets hope enna elsalfa tetfarkash ou ma7taj agoulaha!!

Being with Dania became an uncomfortable thing..

…

I wore those..

I pulled my hair in a bun..

I grabbed my trolley bag, my passport and my hand bag and went down stairs to see..

Oh my god!!!!!!!!

Why this should be happen!!!

A9lan men meta he wakes up hal7azzaa!!!

Its 6 am!!!!

Dad: wain 3ala allah?

The rushed decision .. Part15

Me: gouuul!!

Bandar: raana ana ..

Me: split it Bandar shda3waaa

Bandar: ana abeech tkouneen dayman ma3ay t3eeneeny ou a3eenech ogaf ma3ach bel 7elwa welmurra ou ma tfaregna thurouuf

I faked smiled: suree

I wasn’t expecting this!!!

Tewaqa3ta egoul batzawejech!!

Aw 3allaqal a7ebechh!!

Bs ekteshaft enna masha3ra bardaa!!

Ou yemkin matkoun neyyeta zawaj!!

Mu shay yedeed!!

Bs elyedeed enny ana bedait a7ebbaa..

Bedait atmanna gurbaa, ou beda galbe edeg lshouftaa..

Bandar: 7awlay ma tefhemeeny ghala6 la’anny aghale6 3ala 3umry wala aghle6 3alaich

Me: la t7aaty

He smiled: esh halzaaainnn?

I blushed: ay zain 3alsaree3 lebast!

Sometimes you have no choice but to lie..

Bandar: entay luw talbeseen khalajeen tezha 3alaich

Me: umm ma la7atht feeny shay ghair?

Bandar started to stare at me..

7aaaadda ywaaatter!!!

I grabbed my mobile and started to punch on it 3ala ma yestaw3eb Bandar..

Bandar: legthooooth! Gabel kan eb athounech bs gathetain!!

This is too good!!!

Ma tewaqa3ta ela7th halshay le9gheerr!!!

Oh my god I love him!!!!

Me shyly: 9a7

Bandar: a7!! May3awer?

Me: ella yethbaaaa7!!

Bandar: ba3ad 3umry 3ayal shalla 7adech?

Did he just say “ba3ad 3umry”?

Abaaaih wallah atwaqa3 I am the happiest person on earth bhal la7thaaa!!!

I couldn’t stop smiling!!

Me: 3endy wayed tarachy madry wain a7e6hum hah

I made the cutest lie ever I know!!

He smiled: jad?

Abbaaaaihhh wallah I couldn’t resist his cuteness wehu ygouuul “jad” and I told him the truth!!

Me: actually kan weddy ayeek eb new look 3ugub halghaibaa

He giggled: luw teyeeny 3ayouz betemeen rana eljameelaa

I smiled and whispered: cuteness!

Bandar smiled that baby’s smile: shinuu?

Me shyly: I said cuteness

Bandar: wallah entay om ou obo el cuteness wallah!

I wishhh I could tell you “ I love youuuuuu”!!!!

Bs a7es he should start it mu anaaa!!!

He sent me a flying kiss..

I blushed..

Bandar started to stare at my hands..

Bandar: tadreen shinu atmanna?

Me whispered: shinu?

Bandar: alabsech khaatam

My heart skipped a beat..

Bandar: mu ay khatam!! Khataam 3ala ad elma’aaam

I smiled: akthar khatam kan efare7ny gabel lamma kenna nrou7 elbar weya khawaly ou nelga elzar3a elly t9eer khataam esamonha khatam el3arous

Bandar smiled back: ohwa fe3lan khatam 3arouus

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY FINALLY FINAAAAALLY!!!!

I seriously couldn’t stop smilingggg!!!!

Omgggg rana theglay shwaaaaay!!

Banda7: e7mmm

I turned around to see “Talal”..

Yeah Talal dam throuus Bandar .. Shit happens!!

He got us out of the mood eb yayetaaa!!

Talal: hiiiii

Me: hello

Talal: haa sh3endech

Me: 3endena sheghel ana ou ..

Bandar interrupted me: ga3da ma3ay!!! Ou ma khala9na kalamnaa ou ent yeet ou dashait 3aaarth!

Talal: 6aa3 hathaa!! Rana tukfain sakteeh bedaly maly khelga men el9eb7

Bandar: agoul teyassar a7san lek

Me: 6alal ma3alaih mumkin etkhaleena shway

Talal: he’s unbelievable taraa!!

Me: its ok 6alal rou7 al7een ou I’ll call you later ok?

Talal:  bs 3ashanech! Bye

I sighed..

Bandar: you’ll call him later ha?

Me: Bandar pleaseee!!

Bandar: shinu please rana entay shayfeta shloun..

I interrupted him: Bandar allah ykhalleek khala9!!

He started to shake his legs..

 Bandar: rou7ay.. rou7ay ta’akhartay 3al dawam

I nodded: ma3asalama

…

Me: ya3ni kent laazem teyye tkhareb kelshaay?

Talal: shfeech?

Me: 3aib tkallem elrayyal chethy wallah 3aaaib!!

Talal: he doesn’t deserve your time 7etta!

Me: balaa!!! He deserves all the best!! And you shouldn’t talk to him this way!! 7arraaitny

Talal froze in his thoughts..

Me: la t3eed’ha!!

I sat down my office..

Talal: shda3wa kelhatha 3ashan Bandar!! A9lan minu ohwaa

Me: eeeh!!!! Lanna he doesn’t deserve halmu3amala!

Talal: please don’t tell me that you love him!

I ignored his sentence and started my work..

…

Dania: altegeee bah ya khayaal aw saaalfaaa eyanen!!

Me: aw eb shalaaih reeem hahahha

Dania: tadreeen after one week of investigation 3araft 3anna almost everything

Me: ou shinu 3araftay?

Dania: he lives eb shwaikh ou esouug g-class ou 7g elshalaih patrol qadeem ou 3enda ekhet esemha dalal ou okho esma s3oud ou okho thany esma khaleefa

Me: abaaaihhh ma9addegggg!!

Dania: eee ou eyaaannen no3aa romancyyyy bs raaayyaal!! Ya3ni ya ranouy I fell in loveee!!

Me: danouuuuyyy!! Elwalad madara 3annech!!

Dania: ou elkhayes msaweelech follow

Me: hahha 3ady 3endy 70 alf followers bs elsu’al shloun lecha7tee bainhum

Dania: thakelyom ga3da ashouf your likes wella algaaahhh!!!

I giggled: wallah 6ala3t mu haynaaa

Dania: ou el9oura t7eeerrr!! Entay msawya yoga eb swiss!!! Ya3ni shaku ysawy like

Me: la t7ateen 3ajbeta el6abee3a hahha

Dania: et’hagain agdar akhaleeh e7ebny?

Me: madry!! Shloun?

Dania: yemkn ela7ethny eb shalaih rayoum

Me: danouuuyy 7ada yabeelech sheghel yashghelech 3an elnaaass

Dania: bs hatha mu naaaaas!

I smiled: a9lan e7a9ella entay!

I closed the line and went down stairs to see my mom and mimi..

Mom: tara elesbou3 elyay eftetaa7 ma63am khaled rayel manar

Mimi: ou e7na ma3zoumeen?

Mom: eeeh manoura ma ga9erat e3zematna kellenaa 3ad keshkhaww

Mimi: men elyoum batsawwwaaagg

Me: bs hatha ely fal7a feeh!

Mom: 7eta entaay bteyyeeen

Me: meta?

Mom: elthalatha

Me: ashouuff

…

Me: I hate youuu!!

Bandar: 7ayaatee walla el3atheem 3 ayyam wana 3endech

Me: mu 7ala hathy kel chum youum msafer malaait wallah malait!!!

Bandar: hatha elbusiness shasawy!

Me: wai3 akraah elbusiness akrahaaaa!!!

Bandar: kerheeh 3end yaddy bs aham shay la tekreheeny

I blushed: ma akrehek! Wainek?

Bandar: belma63am

Me: uff

Bandar: ta3aleelly

Me: mabe hnak kella za7ma

Bandar: enzain caribou?

Me: magdar al7een ba6la3 ma3a omy ou khawaty bensawy shopping 7g bacher ma3zoumeen 3ala event

Bandar: ma63am khaled alflani?

Me: eehh, ma3zoum?

Bandar: eeh

I smiled: YAAAAAY I’ve never been excited for an event kether halmarraaa

Bandar: mu bteyen ma3a omech ou khawatech?

Me: 3aaaadyyy khal we pretend ena awal marra ntshawaafff

I felt his smile while saying: bacher bakoun msafer ma3a elasaf

Me: ughhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Bandar: enzain shlech bel event welkalam elfathy bs 3ashan ma yebga account eb instagram ma yrezech feeeh? Ta3aleelly abrak

Me happily: laishh? taghaar?

Bandar whispered: foug ma tet9awerain

…

I was so excited for that event..

Mu la’anna elma63am 7eluu!!

Wala men 7ubby elzayed 7g el owner!!

Bss la’anny kent me7taja 7g ay shay alha feeh ou ansaa salfat Bandar ou sefarah..

I wore those:

And I tied my hair in a high bun..

I went to mimi..

Me: ma khalaa9tay??

Mimi: laaa tawni khal9a sha3ry al7een babadel

Me: ollaaah! Ou fara7 wainha?

Mimi: yemkin betrou7 men 6ereejha madry 3anhaa

Me: ok ana bashouf omy

I went to my mom’s room..

Me: ha mama ma khalaa9tay?

Mom: la wallah kany bs akamel lebsyy, etwadeena eb sayartech?

Me: ok ma3endy mane3, fara7 wainha?

Mom: madry wallah kalmeehaa

Me: yalla ok ana na6ratkum ta7aat

I went down stairs to see my dad!!!

Shay ghareeeeb!!

El3ada hal7azza ohwa mu belbait!!

Me: elsalam 3alaikum

Dad: hala

Me: 3assa ma shar laish ga3ed hny?

Dad: al7een ba6la3 bs na6rech tanzeleen

Me wonderingly: khair?

Dad: g3day

I sat down..

Dad: taqadam lech 7amad weld 3abdele6eef alflani

Haaa??

Me: shinuu??

Ma kent met’akda men el esem elly sema3taa!!

Sema3t shay ou atmanna ykoun ghala6!!!

Dad: 7amaadd ely kan weyana eb lebnan!! Ely thakelyom sawadtay wayhe jedaam wenty bfo6tech yabeeech yaby ytzawejech!!!!

Me: NO!!!

Dad: shinu nooo????

Me: this shouldn’t happen!!!!!!!!!

Dad: enty shetgoleen!! Rou7y balghy omech ena elreyayeel beyoun el athnain elyay!

The rushed decision .. Part14

*Erjaaa3 abeek qarrer tejeeny wella 7alan ana ajeeek..*

Dania: reeem 7uubbby 9arlech dahar mu 3azmatna 3ala shalaihkum este7y 3ala wayhech

Reem: entaw elly ste7aw 3allaqal ana a3zem entaw ma 6abaina shalaihatkum

I looked at dania: a7saaaan hathy yezat elmanchab

Dania: qaleeelat adab 3ad men zeeen shalaihum ag9aah eb mina 3abdallah mayhum mlawath

Bibi: yallaa 3ezmeena eb nwai9eeb

Reem: wa3 la enshallah shhal darb amreeka mu shalaihh

Maha: baskum hosha baskum

Dania: mahu entay men 7amaltay wenty 9ayra om please la tadthereen mbacher

Me: khalaa9 yuba emshaw shalaihnaa

Dania: la sshukran ma nabe shalaihat mahjouraa ba3dain yerankum kelhum 3ayaayez

Bibi: eeee gouly chethyyy

Reem: ahhhaaaa! Yal shai6aanaaa

Dania: malait men le3zoubeyyaaa kelkum 3endekum a7ad ella anaaa

Reem started to bite her nails..

Maha sighed..

And I started to stare at the ground..

Bibi: ana ma3endy a7aadd ou ranouuy ma3endahaa

Dania: enzaain 3ajbech elwaaath3?

Bibi: eeeee maku a7laaa FREEDOM!!!! Wella shrayech ranouuy?

Me: sure!

Enqamat galbyyy!!!

Foug enny msawya shay ghala6 mchathba 3alaihummm!!!

Dania: rayouuum rayoum goulellena shlouuunn el7uuub ma3ach

Reem: I don’t want to talk about it please!

…

I hate when someone removes the “last seen” in Whatsapp!!

I was checking my Whatsapp every now and then hoping for a reply message from Bandar..

I really need to hear something from him!!!

Something returns the smile on my face..

I miss him!!!!

Ma3qoula nesani?

Ma3qoula ma 6araait 3ala baalaah???

Ma3qoulaa ma walah 3alay nafs ma walaht 3alaih?

*Knock .. knock .. knock*

Me: ettha omy deshay etha mimi aw dania stay out

She opened the door..

Mimi: ma teste7eeeeeen

Me: gelt etha mimi la tdesheeen ma tefhemeeen?

Mimi: ma afham elparts elly mabe afhamha

Me: shtabeen? Minu qaledech this time?

Mimi: malait men sha3ry ba9baghah

Me: 9ebgheeh

Mimi: hatha wellah hatha?

She showed me two pictures..

Me: olllaaah hathak wayed fate7 khalech 3ala hathaaa!

Mimi: a7es abe shay yafreg hatha chenna maku farg wayd

Me: hathaak wayed fate7 over ya3ni yasheen elserj 3albugaaar

And all of a sudden..

Fahoudi: aunti mimi where is deedee?

Mimi: 7aaabeeeeeeby hoooodiii al7een ayeebha lek

Me: fahoudi ta3al 7abbaa, 7abba aunti

Farah: entaw hnyy ou mkhaleen omy brai7at’ha ta7aat

Me: hiiii

Mimi: tara ana bastathem eb hal kalbb

Farah: ekhtheeh 7alalech haha

We kissed each other..

Mimi took fahoudi and went to bring deedee..

Farah: shlounech?

Me: eb khaaair entaay?

Farah: lay3a chaaabdyy

Me: 3asa maaashaar?

Farah: mat3arfeen 3abdelwahab ou suwalfa eff eff

Me: shfeeh ba3ad?

Farah: yabe yahhaal!! Ana fahouud ou yallaahh!

Me: way salfat elyahhal tkhare3ny a7es mabe ayeeb 3yaal kelleshhh shley b3awar elraass!

Farah: la bel3aaks el3yaal zeeenaa!! Bs mu darzan!!!

And all of a sudden a Whatsapp message interrupted our talk..

I rushed to my mobile to see..

Bandar:

“ensa ansaak ou khala9 wala yumkin a7awel, we need to talk”

I couldn’t stop smiling..

Farah was staring at me silently..

Me: fara7 ge3day ma3a omy 7aram ga3da brou7ha ou ana shway ou anzel!

Farah wonderingly: shfeeech faj’a stanastaay?

Me: khalleeeny astanes 9arly dahar mu mestansaa!!

Farah: allah ytammem!

She left my room and I jumped on my bed with my mobile in my hand..

I replied:

“sure..”

After seconds Bandar called..

Me: alo

Bandar: rana!

Me: hmmm

Bandar: eshtagt lech

Me: enta ekhtart enek tolah 3alay

Bandar: belnehaya ana rayyal ou aghar

Me: min minu? Min 6alal? Esma7ly!!

Bandar: 7etta men elhawa aghar!

Me: laish shfeeh elhawa?

Bandar: yel3ab eb sha3rech kelyom

I blushed: maylog 3alaik tgoul chethy

Bandar: entay elly 3alamteeny shloun atghazzal wallah

Me: 3ayal jana shkent tgolaha?

Bandar: jana?

Me: ee jana!

Bandar: mara7 as’elech shloun 3arafty 3anha wala ra7 agoulech ma3aref jana bs kel ely bagola ena latyebeen 6areeha

Me: 6ab3an la’annek ma etejarra’

Bandar: enty thayeg khelgech?

Me: akeeed betheeg khelgy! Bandar ent ga3ed akher eldenya ou ya 7afeth 7etta message ma tdez? Kel hatha za3al? ana elwa7eeda hny ely e7egly az3al mu ent esma7ly!

Bandar: luw kent ana wara theegtech fa ana asef!

Me: asef? Heh!!

Bandar: kel ely 6elabta enech tkouneen ley brou7y

Me: lek brou7ek? B9efatek minu?

Bandar: rana shhal kalam?

Me: madry madry our relationship mafeha shay waaathe7!!! Ent kella saket wetha tekalamt tetkalam 3anny

Bandar: rana laish tgouleen chethy? Ana bs yemkin ma3araft awa9el masha3ry

Me: wana ma6loub menny alge6ha wehya 6ayra

Bandar: kel amaly eb af3aly tfahmech shkether ta3neelly

Me: tewaqa3tek tbared chabdy eb halmukalama! Tewaqa3t betredly eltha7ka 3ugub halghaiba, Bandar I expected more!

Bandar: you deserve the best!

Me: Bandar abe a3aref ana shinu benesba lek? Please try to make things clearer!

Bandar: kel hatha ou mu wathe7? Ana omy la7ethat 3alaay!! Rab3y la7ethaw ou entay mataddreeen?

Me: Bandar ana mu sa3eeeda ma3ak!!

He froze in his thoughts..

Me: I mean..

He interrupted my sentence: musta7eel akoun sabab ta3astech! Ma3asalama

I froze in my place..

Laishhh!! Laish chethy ga3d e9eeerr!!!

I’m really confused!!!

Many 3arfa shloun at9arraaafff!!

…

Reem: whats wrong with youuu rana!!!

I took a deep breath: reem ana bethab6 metwahga!!

Reem: mu mkalmeta 9arlech dahar kelesh mu wagta tsolfeen chethyy!!! Luw ana chan bs sekat ou sema3t 9ota min elwalah!!

Me: 3ad entay professional ana ma3aref!

Reem: a9laaannn shaaakuu mashya hal6ereej! 6oul 3umerha hal 3elaqaat 3aks mabaad’ech!! Shfeechh sh9arlechh!! Luw sa’latny gabel chan ne9a7tech!!

Me: laish? El7ub ekhteyar?

Reem: entay tekhtarain etha betkhaleena bgalbech aw betgouleen!

Me: reem mu wagta hal7achy al7een!! Reem please ana thayeg khelgy 7aaiil

Reem: tabeen el9ej? Entay ely ghal6ana!!!

I gasped: NA3AM??

Reem: wallah ranouuy ya3ni kelshay bwagta 7eluuu laishh tabeena ygoulech kelshay marra wa7daa!

Dania: entaaw haay romeo ou Juliet sh3endekum rouskum eb ba3ath ou t’hathrouuun

Me: danouuy shfeech 9ayra dafsha?

Dania: ba3aad e7na ga3deen eb shalaih laish a9er tharba khaleekum 3ala 6abee3atkum

Reem: 3allaqal 3ashan kha6er shabab yeranaa

Dania: ellaa ta3aaalay enshallah yredouuun!! Min elfayer ray7een bel6arrad wala raddaw 6awelaaww!!

Me: yemkin ray7een Jazeera yal malgoufaaa!

Reem: aw ga3deen e7adgoun enty shaku feehum!

Dania: ga3da a7ateehum wedy adeg 3ala khafar elsawa7el 3ashan khaa6er 7amad

Me: AY 7AMAAADDD!!!

Dania: ehdaay! Hathak bu shorts a7maar tathkereenaa

I whispered: elly shafny eb..

Dania: eee eee!!!

I giggled: theglaay!

Bibi: daaannouuuy emshaay nteshammaas 7egreehum!

Reem: laa shinu 7egreehum yayyeeennn

Me: wallah mahouy laha wa7shaaa!!

Dania: el7amal ou maysawwy!

…

Me: mimi

Mimi: hmm

Me: abee asawy new look shasawwy!

Mimi: you’re tanned maku a7la min hal new look!

Me: way mimi 7addy a7aty ta7sedeeny! Shayfatny 3ala hal9abgha eff rou7ay elshalaih ou sawy tan shda3waa!!

Mimi: enzainn enzaainnn

Me: ghairaa?

Mimi: madry ya3ni lon sha3rech eshaweg!! Ou 6oula 7eluu! Eeeeee felleeeehhh hatha aqwa new look!!

Me: ENSAY!! Ghaira?

Mimi: efff shdarraany! Bettafkheen your lips? Madry!

Me: la wai3!

Mimi: felly sha3rech 9adgeeny!

Me: ana ghal6ana yayya ashawrech as’al dania abraak!!

I called Dania immediately and asked her..

Dania: emmmmmm, sha3rech perfect wayhech perfect jesmech perfect emmmm stylech ham perfect!!

Me: mashallah belghala6

Dania: eeh tuf tuf mashallah!!

Me: baghayer shay!!

Dania: 3ARAAFTTTT!!

Me: SPLIT IT!!

Dania: you need more pierces!!

Me: seriously? Mustaaa7eeel dania musta7eeeeeel!!!

Dania: tabeen wella 3end yaddyy!!

…

I took her advice and pierced more pierces in my right ear lanny magedart at7amal akthar 7g my other ear..

I opened my closet and started to stare at it for 2 hours until I chose:

My hair was tied into a pony tale..

He was waiting for me..

I froze in my place the moment I saw him..

I was wanting to hug him that tight hug..

A hug that could remove all the pain and yearning from my heart..

I miss that face..

I miss that person..

I accelerated my steps to reach him..

His eyes rolled to meet mine..

And I automatically smiled..

He smiled back and whispered: ge3day

Me: Bandar ana asfa la’anna..

He interrupted me: you shouldn’t!

Me: ok 3ayal should I tell you that I’m blessed to have you?

Bandar: I am the one who blessed here! Mara7 age9 3alaich waguolech enty awal bent tmer 3alay wala ra7 a3eed el es6ewana wagul entay ghair bs 9adgeny entay awal wa7da galbe baghahaa! Awal wa7da galbe dag lshofat’haa! Ou awal wa7da 3ainy ma tmel men mantharhaa

Me: a7es this is the longest sentence eb your mouth history haha

Bandar smiled: I guess ee

Me: a7es fee shay ghala6 chena e7na mu e7na ahhh we need to relax

Bandar: a7es hoshatna garebatna men ba3ath akthaar

Me: 7asesatna bqeemat ba3ath?

Bandar: enty mestansa?

Me: akeed!

Bandar: la’anna..

I interrupted him: shhhhh latefta7 malafat qadeema I overreacted thak elyoum

Bandar: enzain ra7 t7ebeen tkamleen 7ayatech ma3ay?

I nodded: with pleasure wallah

Bandar: rana madry shloun agoulech bss

I was staring silently..

Bandar: bs ya3ni gabel makent met’aked bs al7een ana met’aked enny

I was expecting him to tell me “will you marry me?” 

The rushed decision .. Part13

Bandar: gouleelly shbainech ou bain 6alal la’anny ta3abt!

Me: ta3abt? What do you mean?

Bandar: ranaaa ana elly ashoufah enna ohwa akthar men 9adeeq benesba lechh!!

Me: ee 6alal ma a3tebra 9adeeeq!! 6alal shay akbar!

Bandar: n3aaam? Ou ana shinu?

Me: Bandar 6alal okhouuuy!!! Okhouy ely ma yabeta ommy!

Bandar: rana ana bacher msaafer amreeka ou batem hnak shahar ou many gader

Ahedech weyya 6alal kel halmudda!!

Me: are you serious Bandar? Shaharrr????

Bandar: rana 7e6y masafat bainech ou bain 6alal!

Me: betrou7 shahar? Ou bacher? Ou tawk tgoul?

Bandar: rana khaleeena eb mawthou3 6alal!

Me: ent men 9ejek? Tabeeeny akhally masafaat bainy ou bain okhouuuy??

Bandar: 6ALAL MU OKHOUCH!!!!

Me: HE IS!! GABEL LA A3ARFEK HE’S MY BROTHER MY ONLY BROTHER OK?

Bandar: rana! Rana allah ykhalleech fehmeeny

Me: shafhaaam shafhaamm!! Tabeeny awakher 3an 6alaal? Tabe tet7akkam eb 3elaqaty? Omy ma sawat’haa!

Bandar: omech? Omech tadry 3an 6alal?

Me: ee 6ab3an tadry!! Omy tadry 3an kel elnas ely b7ayatyy!!

Bandar was staring surprisingly..

Me: ella enta

He was silent..

I stared at the ground and whispered: la’anny adry enna ely ga3da asaweeh ma3ak ghala6!

Bandar’s eyes popped out: ghala6? Ou elly bainech ou bain 6alal mu ghala6?

Me: 6alal is just a friend bs enta laa!!

Bandar: ummm a friend!!

Me: shinuuu??

Bandar: RANA E97AAYY!! He’s a guy after all he’s a guy friend wegoulech kalam ana ma atjarra’ agoulech eyyaahh welmeyana elly bainkum OVER!!!

Me: bandar enta lamaa yeet 7ayatee kent 3aref men elbedaya enna 6alal feeha!! Fa la tajberny enny ahedda 3ashanek lanna gadra 3endy kbeer ou mu bhasehoula ahedda!

He stared at me for seconds and then he whispered: ma3assalama

He pulled his chair and left the table..

WAAAAAAITTT!! Don’t leave me eb halsur3aa e9ber esma3 etfaaahaaamm!!

Lamma ra7 7asait shay men galbe enshala3 ou ra7 weyyaah!!

Yani shu3ouur ghareebb!!

7asait eb qamta mu 6abee3eyyaa!!

7asait abe agoulla mayrou7 bs I just cant!!

Me: UFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!

I grabbed my bag and went to my work..

…

Talal: rana?

Me: hmm?

Talal: what’s wrong?

Me: ma men wrong

He smiled: la jad wallah

Me: etha 3endek 7abeeba ou khayertek bainy ou bainha minu tekhtar?

Talal: youuu!

Me: I mean 7abeeb

Talal: laish tes’eleen halsu’al?

Me: akrah lamma a7ad ekhayerny bain shayain a7ebhumm! ITS HARD TO CHOOSEEE EFFF!

Talal: ely e7ebech mayabeech t’hedeen shay et7ebeena believe me rana

Ya3ni Bandar doesn’t love me??

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Dania: KELLENAAA NASHKY FARAGH EL3AA6EFAA AAA HAYEMEEEN GLOUBENA THAMYA 7ANAAAN!! SAKNATNA A7LAAM 3ATHRA KHAYEFAA MA NE7AGEG’HA YE3ANEDNA ELZEMAAN.. LEY 7ABEEEEEEBEN A3REFA MA A3REFAAA 7AITH RAABBY MA KETAB WA9LA OU 7AANN ALTEGY BAH YA KHAYAL AW SALFAA OU LA 6ARAITA KEL SHAIN ELWAGT ZAAAN….

Dania kanat men6arba etghanny weyya 3abdelmajeed ou daysa 120 bel fifth ring road..

Ama ana fa kan thameery e’anebny lanny 7abait bedoun la agolaha..

Lanny gethait a7la ella7that weyya Bandar ou 7aramt’ha men halshu3our..

Lanny mana3t’ha t7eb ou ana 7abait..

La’anny ma 3edt ashky faragh el3a6efa..

Me: Dania

Dania: HAYEMEEEN GLOUBENA THAMYA 7ANAAAAAN ..

I closed the radio..

Me: DANIAA!!

Dania: hal ghneyyaa tmaathelna akhhh!!!

Tmathlech entay bs!!

Me: khalech men leghneya basolef

Dania: akheeeeeerannn!! 6oul el6ereej sakta 6al3ay 6al3aay

Me smiled: beyye elyoum elly betkhayreeny feeh bainech ou bain talal?

Dania: MUSTA7EEEEEL

Me: 9eeej???? Laishh??

Dania giggled: MA ATJARRA’ HAHAHAHA

Me: shda3waa tadreeen ena ma7ad egayshech

Dania: you have sisters bs maku brothers fa talal ma yet3awath hahhh elmuhem ghayry seeertaaa ensa7an chabdy

Me: enzain enzain etha ana za3altech ou bacher basafer etkhaleny arou7 chethy?

Dania: belly ma y7afthechh! Ba3ad ham mza3latny ou ham baratheeechh!

Me: kalbaaaaaaa! El3aks el3aks entay mza3latny ou ana basafer

Dania: atwaqa3 mara7 akhaleech etsafreen bedoun ma aratheech atwaaaqa3 la t9adgeeen

Me: enzain danouuuuy a7es eny shab3ana lanta3asha nino khanreddd

Dania: NA3AAAM? Wallah ma aredech ela lamma nakel 7elwa hathyy!! A9ln we9alnaaa!

I was counting the seconds to go back home only to call Bandar!!!

…

I woke up before the alarm’s rang..

I was too excited to meet him..

I took a warm long shower and then I wore those..

I tied my hair into a high bun and rushed to the airport’s Caribou..

*Ma gedart a9ber ou jeeetak gabl maw3edna besa3aa ou elghareeb? Eny

legaitek tentethr gable besa3aa..*

Me surprisingly: Bandar??

He was staring at me silently..

Bandar: ha ee yeet mbacher 3ashan yamdeeny adakhel jan6ety, entay laish yaya mbacher?

Me: lanny abe akalmek!

Bandar: tfathelay! Sha6leb lech?

Me: I don’t even feel like drinking!

Bandar: 3asa mashar?

Me: Bandar ana ma asma7lek tamshy ou tkhaleeny ga3da bel6awla! Mu 7elwa mennek!!!

Bandar: enty henteeny eb kalamech!

Me: hentek?

Bandar: khalaiteny a7es ena 6alal kel denyetech!

Me: ent shaaku eb 6alaal ana bafham!

Bandar: 3umrech mara7 tefhemeen ely ga3d agoula!

Me: kho ana kella ma afham ou bs!

Bandar: rana mumkin a3aref ana shinu belnesba lech?

Me: I don’t know!

Bandar: ma tadreen?

Me: ee madry! Kel elly a3arfa enny astanes weyyak ou abeek tkoun yammy!

Bandar: ethaa tabeeny ekhtareeny brou7y la’anny I hate sharing!

Me: why do I have to choose haa?? WHY!!!! Ana ma 7asabtek 3ala your past!! Ma 7asabtek 3ala JANA!!! Bala3t el7arra ou 9addagt kel kelma tgoulha ou rethait agthy wagty ma3ak bedoun shurouuu6!! If you hate sharing, ANA MA AWA6EN ELSHAKH9 EL ANANY!!! BYE!

I grabbed my clutch and rushed to my car!!

ENARFEZZZZZZ!!!!

Efff I HAATE HIMM EFF EFFF!!!

HE DIDN’T EVEN SAY GOODBYE!!!

GONNA MISSS HIMMMM!!!!!

Shahaaar kaaamel many shayfetaa??

Ou e7temal kbeeer ma asma3 9otaa??

*Ma kan bu3dy 3ank bel bal 6ary.. ekhtart bu3dy 3ank menk ou rethaita..”

 …

Mimi: yumma tukfaaain baghayer jam3ety

Mom: ghayray

Mim: min 9ejjyyy!

Me: tabeech tgolellaha la!

Mimi: entay osh!

Mom: ghayray kaifech ana mu farga ma3ay ge3day 3eshreen sena bel jam3aa

Mimi: yumma musta7eel elbanat ely bjam3etyyy maku shakh9eya uff ufff kelhum 3ebara 3an anaaa estensaaaaakh!!

Me: shut up mimi!!!!

Mom: ranouya?

Me: hmm

Mom: 9arlech esbou3ain wentay mu 3ajbatnyy!! Menzeman ma tha7aktay wala taghashmartay!! Mu 3aadtechhh

Esbou3ain? Hagait’hum shahrainn!!!

I miss him!!

I nodded: true!

Mom: 3asa mashar?

Me: give me a reason to smile!!

Mom: el9e7a ou el3aafya ou eljamaaal ou eldalaal ou elmal ou elmaskan ou elmashrab ou el ahal ou el amn ou el aman ou eldawam ou ..

I interrupted her: el7emdellah!! Bs sometimes all you need is .. is

Mom: shfeech mama? Gouleelly!

I smiled: enty kafy 3alaich ham obouuy! Good night

Mimi: ABAIH ABAAAIH DRAMA QUEEEEN!!

Me: I’m fine with it! 3allaqal “queen”

Mimi: yaraab ma eye elyoum ely a9eer feeh maleeeqa chethy

…

Dania: TARA THEBA7TENNY BHAL YOGA BS BS KHALAAA9

Me: mu laaazem teyyen!

Dania: entay shhaaal mazaaajj? 24 hour yoga ufff 3araftek men gerdek!

Me: ham mu lazem teyyeen!

Dania: maynouna ana ahaytechhh?? Ma tentahayetain entay etha hadainach nemtay hnaaak!

Dania elwa7eeeda ely tegdar tkhalleeny ath7ak bedoun ma taq9ed!!

Bgurbha elmur yagleb 7elu ou naaaaa6e3!!

Love herr!!

…

Me: shtabeeen?

Farah: I miss you!

Me: but I don’t!

Farah: shfeech chethyy el7emdellah welsheker!

Me: shinu tabeen?

Farah: abe ashoufech!!

Me: to get bandar’s last news? Abashrech ma kallamta 9arly 3 weeks!!

Farah surprisingly: 7ELFAAY?

Me: wallaah! Shfeech mestansa?

Farah: mu mestansa ela thayeg khelgy bs laish sh9ayer?

Me: mayabeeny atem weyya 6alal!

Farah: minu 6alal!

Me: my best friend!

Farah: shhal jur’a gaylatla 3an your best guy friend!

Me: not your business!

Farah: elmuhem elmuhem bye!!

I started to hate farah!

A7es she’s not a friend!!

Nawayaha mu 6aybaa!!

Madry esloubha maya3jebny!!

A9lan wala shay feeha ya3jebnyy!!

Rafajt’ha bs 3ashan ehya elwa7eeda elly agdar asoleflaha 3n 3elaqty ma3a

Bandar, bs al7een? I don’t need her!!!

Bandar?  Kafy 3ezzat naaafsss!!!

I have to do somethinggg!!

I decided to send him a whatsapp message..

“Nesaitny?”