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Magdar a3added asamy mu 3ashan khayfa ansa a7ad la ana mansa ay a7ad wannasny byoum men el ayyam bs mara7 akhalle9..
I loooove youuu all, I truely doooo!!!
Enjoooooy it ya a7laaa readers ou 3asa allah ywaffegkum bdenyatkum ou akhratkuuum<3333
I was too afraid!!
Ma 3endi ay fekra 3an shinu bekalemny!!
I was staring silently with my thighs
shaking..
Aziz: awwal marra sheftech feeha kanat bel
6ayyara lamma kenna ray7een America
I nodded..
Aziz: sheftech ou khathaity galbe men awwal
nathraa!!!
Ma kent mestansa wala 7etta mesta7ya kent
an6er elzebdaa!!
Aziz: shaikha ana marraw 3alay banat
eldenyaa!! Bs methlech ma mar 3alay!
Aziz: jethabny feech shaklech el basee6 ou
jamalech elnader! Jthebatny 3younech!!
Aziz: kent akrah shay esma 3youn mshakhe6a
bs menech 7abait’hum awwal marra ashouf bent 3ainha mshakhe6a ou 7elwa!!
Aziz: akthar shay jethabny feech welly ma
kent algah 3end ghairech ohwa theqatech bnafsech ou aham shay enech lamma
shefteeny ma tedodahtay wala bayyan 3alaich el e3jab nafs bajy elbanat!
Thanks god!!!!
Aziz: fa halshay khallany abee o9allech
akthar ou akthar!
Aziz: 3afwan! Shteshrebeen?
Me: kammel!!!
Aziz: eb America kan 7ubby lech 6aaag
el3abaraat!! Ou lamma kalamtech ou sheft mennech quboul kent 6aaayer belsemaa
ou kent ad3y 7g dektor fai9al elly jema3naa!!
Aziz: 7abbaitech men galbe ou kent mkha66e6
3alzawaj!! Men youmha gemt ayamme3 ou afakker be3yalnaa ou wain bnasken!!
Aziz: kan kel hammy entay ou mustaqbely
ma3achh!!
Aziz: shaikha ana men 3araftech ou
3arafteeny wana ma sheft mennech ella elkhairr!!
Theleeemtech shainaa bss..
My heart skipped a beat and my body froze in
its place..
Bs shinu???
CARRY ON AZIZ!!!!!
Aziz: 7ubbech we9al neq6a ou wegaf!
Wegafff???
I couldn’t believe the whole thing!!
I mean, was that really my aziz?
I don’t think so!!
I was too shocked to talk and it’s shown on
my face!!
He took a deep breath..
Aziz: ou men yomha 3araft enna elly bgalbe
lech kan crush mu 7ub!!
CRUSHHHH????
I GAVE YOUUU LOVE I GAVE YOU A TRUE LOVEE!!!
WHAT GRUSH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT AZIZ???
My eyes started to tear..
I lowered my head and started wiping them..
Calm down shaikhaa!! Akeeed he’s joking or
lets hope he is!!
Aziz: shaikhaa!! Shaikha sem3eeeny!
I wish I could excuse myself and just
leave!!!
Aziz: 9ej enna elly kan bgalbe crush bss ana
a3zzeech!!! Ou marethait enny aheddech chethyy!!
Aziz: lanny kent adry ennech 7abaiteeny men
galbech!!
Aziz: kent age9 3ala rou7yy ou agoul laa ana
a7ebha ou ra7 akh6ebha enshallah bs elyoum 3araft enny magdar!!!
Aziz: magdar atzawejech!!! Magdar a3amlech
zoujaa!! We are not meant to be together!!!
I don’t know why but the previous sentence
brought all my tears out and I started to cry so hard!!!
That was not expected at all!!!
Bhaaalsuhoula yanheeeha??
Byouum ou elaila eqarrer enna ygoully his
hidden feelings? Ou ana an9edem??
I thought he loved me!!!!
Noooo!!!
I thought he adored me and he would do
anything for me!!!
I thought he would marry me!!!
MAYEGDAR YETZAWAJNYY???? 3ASHAN HE DOESN’T
LOVE MEE?!!! AFTER AN ELEVEN MONTHS LOVE STORY???
THAT’S TOO HARSHHH!!!!!
Aziz: shaikha bs la tabcheen wallah 3awarty
galbeee!! 9ej enna manegdar netzawwaj bs negdar nebga rab3 ou khwan ba3ad!!
Me: RABE3??? LAISHH E7NA WAINNA EB
AMERICA???
Aziz: men ma3azetech wallah!!
Me: AY MA3AZZAA!! Ay ma3azza hathy elly
faj’a 3ugub ma 3ashamtny a7la ta3sheema tgoully hatha kan crush ou tge6ny 3ala
9akhaar!!
Aziz: kaan 3endy amal enny a7ebbech!!
Me: 3azeeeeez!! Ana kallamtek raghm enny
thed hal fekra kharrabt sum3ety bain ahaly ou rab3y bsebbetek!!! Refaatht
akthaaar ensan e7ebny ou mumkin enna y3ezny ou erezny 3ashaaaanek!!! Laken
shagouuuul!! Eldenya ta9dem!! Ou ma7aaad theqaaa!! Ma7aaad 9aaaaj!! Ella jaazi
youm galatly mayabeeech!!
Aziz: shaikha qasaman bellah enny ma
chathabt 3alaichhh!! Wala la3aaabt!! 7awlay tefhemeeeny!!
Me: adry 3aziz adryy!! Adry ena galbek
9demek ou gallek tarak mat7ebha ou yeet elyoum ta9demny! Bsss ent ma tenzalt ou
gelt atzawajha 3ashanhaaa laa!! 6e3t galbek ou bkel suhoula yeet tballeghny!
Aziz: 7aawalt atnazzal bs mabe athlemech
weyyay! Mabe atzawaj wa7da ana adry enny mara7 agdar a3eesh ma3aha ta7t segaf
wa7edd!!
Me: ma3alaih! Mant majbour!!
I stood up: ma3assaalama
I turned around to leave..
Aziz: shaikha!!
I froze in my place..
Aziz: khantefarag 7abayeb!! La ta7remeeny
menech!
I turned around: dest 3ala karamty bema feeh
elkefaaya! Asfaa
Aziz sadly: ana elly asef
Me: ra7 olah 3alaik!!!
His eyes started to gleam from tears..
Aziz: I will stalk your twitter account
everyday
I smiled and went to my car..
*Ayyaaam 7elwa kanat ayyam 7ubbek .. Kent
fee rou7y tasry kent bejnoun a7ebbek ..*
…
Madry agoul kheera wella agoul dars!!
9a3ba n7eb ensan ou net3allag feeh ou
nakhsera faj’a ..
Bs el a93ab enna ykoun khayar elfarga ekhteyara
ohwa..
El7ayat kel malha ou te93ab!!
I was shattered. I was depressed and sad!!!
Kanat theegty ma tenwe9ef!! Ou 9admety ma
ftarat!!!
Luw galoully mat bekoun ahwan 3alay men enna
yhedny braghbeta!!
E3awwer 7aail lamma n7eb ensan ou nothaq
feeh ou y3oufna faj’a!!
Kanat ledmou3 tarsa wayhee ou eltheega malya
galbe..
Kan youm aswadd!!!
7asait feeh ena eltheqa tha3at!!
Ou ma7ad kafouuha!!
Ou 7asait feeh enna el7ub mu mawjoud ella
bel aflam wel rewayat!!
And all of a sudden I found myself in KRC..
I left my car and rushed to Loza..
I needed herrr!!!
Loza is the only one who understands!!
She doesn’t judge!!
She listens!!
I threw myself on her neck and hugged her
really tight..
Me: looozaaa!!! 3azeez left meee!!!
Me: 3azeez elly getlech 3annaaa!!
Me: 3azeeez elly kan makheth galbeee 3azeeez
elly rethait akhheth saye’at 3ashanaaa!!
Me: hadny bkel berouuuud *sniffs*
Me: 6alaaa3 may7ebny 6ala3 ematheeel!!!!!
I couldn’t stop cryinggg!!!
Kent ga3da abchy chenny yahel makhtheena men
omah!!!
Kent ga3da abchy b7ergaaa!!
Me: loza Enqahaaart!!!!
Me: Qahaarrr!! Qahar enny lail7een
a7ebbaaaa!!!
Me: Qahar enna 3ashamnyyy qaharr enny
tha7aait 3ashanaaa!!!
Me: madry laishhhh!! Madry laish elly nabeeh
mayabeena welly yabeena manabeeh!!
Me: laish chethy el7ayat 9a3baaa?
----: el7ayat a93ab men ma kena metkhayleen!
Ou ma7ad yakheth ella ne9eebaa
I slowly raised my head to see Othman
standing in front of me..
I wiped my tears and replied: sema3tny?
Othman: 3azeez haddech?
I burst into tears and nodded..
Othman: ma 3enda nethar
Me: anaa elly ma3endy nethaarr!! Ana elly
7abaitaa wana
mghamthaaa
Othman: shaikhaa la tthay3een wagtech bel
bachy wel te7eser tara ma yfeed!! Se’ly mjarrebb!
…
I am not that kind of girls who spend weeks
in their beds because of their depression!!
No, I am a life lover and I hate crying!!
But I have no choice!!!
Kel ma a6la3 ma3a a7ad net’hawwashhh!!
Ou etha 6ala3t brou7y faj’a abchyyy!!
I still didn’t get over him!!
I mean, I still love and want him!!!
…
Raghad: tabeen ketchup?
Me: testa3be6aain?? Tadreeeen enny ma7eb
ketchup shhal as’ela elghabeyya!!!
Raghad: ok nesaait
Me: 6ab3an tensaaiinn khal tenfe3ech ur new
best friend
Raghad: elgheera sebayeb
Me: laaishh aghaarr 3ala shinuuuu???
Raghad: hahha elmuhemm feech movie?
Me: la mafeeny
Raghad: shayouukh pleaaase khandesh movieee
feee wa7ed tawwa nazel eyannen
Me: EEE LAAAISH EL7ANNA GELNA MANABE BSSS
3AADDDD!!!!
Raghad: ANA BAFHAM ENTAY SHFEEECH ELYOUUMM
MA TENTA7ACHAINN???
Me: ANA ELLY SHFEENY WELA ENTAY?? 7ANNA
7ANNA GETLECH MABE YAKHE MU GHA9EBB
Raghad: 3OUUUUU3!!! MABE AROU7 WEYAACHHH
WALA MUKAAANNN ZAINNN!!!
I sighed: sorry
Raghad: 3ady
I hate myself for loving 3azeez jaaddd!!!!!
He destroyed my liffeeee!!!!
…
Two months later..
“Aziz:
Shaikha shlounech? I miss you!
GET OUT OF MY LIFEEEEE!!!
Kel ma agouuul nesaitaaa ya ydezly message
ya ysaweelly retweet la3at chabdy many gadra ansaaaahh!!!!
Me:
Im fine el7amd lellah
Aziz:
How’s everything?
Me:
Kelshay tamam
Aziz:
Bs kent bagolech el7emdellah i officially
graduated!
I smiled automatically..
Me:
Mabrouk
Aziz:
Wentay ma3zouma 3la my graduation
Me:
umm meta?
Aziz:
Next tuesday
Me:
Sorry, i cant make it!
Aziz:
Why?
Me:
3endi 3ers
Actually I made up the reason..
Aziz:
Othman's?
Me:
Mu lazm t3aref
Aziz:
Im sorry
Me:
La its ok!"
...
Jazi: agouul shakhshakh?
Men hadait 3azeez ge6a3t lezwara lanna adry
ena mawara zwaratna ella elham bs hal marra omy qasebatny ayye 3ashan ashouf
yadety ou khawaly ou khalaty..
Me: goulay!
Jazi: chenna 6awwalha? Ma sema3na la bmelcha
wala bkhu6ba
Me: minu ohwa?
Jazi: 3azeez!
Me: falaina
She giggled: 6ala3 nafs'hum?? Yel3aaab?
Gelnallech mafeeehum san3 waaay tfa6seeen wentay kenty wathqa feeeh abaih
kesarty kha6ry!! Wainech ya yasoum ma tesme3eeennn
Me: khallastay?
Jazi: madry wallah ymkin ba3d shway akammel
Me: 3azez mu player ana ely hadaitaa!
Jazi: 3eshtawww? Ashouf ta3allamtay
t'heddeen elreyayeel!!
I ignored her sentence and went outside to
leave..
Othman: shaikha shlounech?
I raised my head to see othman and his
wife!!!!
Me surprisingly: zaina!
Othman: akeeed?
I nodded..
Wath7a: hii
She's too cuuute!!!
Wayyehha sam7!!!
And her smile was killinggg!!!
She has a long wavy hair and a mshakhe6a
eyes ou 6oulha zain ou th3eefa she looks similar to me!!! Bs 3ala abyath..
Me: hala wallah
I kissed her cheeks..
Othman: hathy shaikha bent khalty wedad
She smiled: 3ash men shafech!
I smiled back: 3ashat ayamech
Othman: ha wain?
Me: tadry hathy lezwara matyozly
Othman smiled: allah y3eenech
Me: ma3asalama
Othman and wath'ha: allah ysalmech
Madry laish 3ugub masheft wath7a erte7t!!
7amadt rabbe enna rezag 3ethman mara nafs
wath7a..
Ehya elly teste7eqaa mu ana!!
Wath7a a7san menny bmalyon marra bs atmanna
3ethman yefham halshay..
...
Kent lail7een met7ab6a ou madry shasawy
b3umryy!!
Madry wain arou7 madry ma3a minu a6la3!!!
Me: yumma basafer
Mom: ou rmethan?
Me: arammeth barra!!
Mom: shoufellech a7ad tsafreen ma3ah ana
wa7da ma7eb arammeth ella bdeerty!!
Me: waaaay ya3ni shlouuun ballaaah!!!
Mom: shfeech chethy 9ayra chabreeet??? Ana
omech kalmeeny 3adel ba3dain shfeech 9ayra mhatmela chethy rou7ay el salon
yumma ro7ay jably rou7ech shkubrech maraa!!!
Me: WAY FARAGHAAAAA!!!!!! Babchy babchy
uffffff
6ab3an omy 7garatny ou 6awwalat 3al akhbar..
Walaht 3ala ayyam awwal..
Ayyam ma kent ath7ak men galb!!
Ayyam ma kan kel hammy asawy shay
maynouuun!!
Walaht 3ala elbasa6aaa elly kent feeeha..
Walaht 3ala ayyam elthanawy ou gabel la
a3aref 3azeez..
Ayyam 7elwa yalait'ha ten3aad!!!
Bseee6a ou akthar shay ythayegna darajatna
aw touch bain refejatna..
...
Me: ahlaaain
Abyar: wainech minzeman 3annech
Me: sayra ma6la3 wayedd
Abyar: waaay 6el3ay 3eeshy 7ayatech
shetsaween belbait!
Me: akel!!
Abyar: mbaayenn 7addech matnana
Me: 3ayal ma takharrajtay??
Abyar: la enshallah kors awwal
Me: yallah hanat enshallah
Abyar: ba3ad shemsawya??
Me: maku la jadeeda ta7t elshams
Abyar: shlounha raghad refeejtech??
Me: wallah zainaa
Abyar: eeee ta3alayyy daraitay 3an shain el7alaya
3azeez??
My heartbeats accelerated..
Me wonderingly: shfeeh?
Abyar: malaaachh!!!
My eyes popped out!!!
Malach????
Masraaa3!!!
3 months malach feehum??!
Wana sarly ma3ah 11 shahar 7etta ma
kha6abny??
Maaaa mdaaah y3eeesh 7ayaatah!!
Ma mdaaah yetzawwaj!!!
Abyar: shaaikhaa?? Shfeeech!!! Shfeech
ensedamtaay??
My eyes started to tear..
Abyar: abaihh shfeeech???
She pulled me to the closest coffee shop and
it was caribou and sat me down..
Abyar: ekhthy nafas 3ameeeq ou gouleelly
shfeeech???
Me: abyaaar ana bagollech bs dont judge me
please!!!
Abyar: i will not bs ta7achaaay!!
I told her everything..
Abyar: awch!!!!
Me: 7ail awch!!
Abyar: bs jad men 9ejjech? 3 ashhur 7arma
nafsech men elwanasa 3ashan shain el7alayaa??
Me: abyar 7addy mu fahma laish tsammeenah
shain el7alaya wehwa JAMEEL!!!!
Abyar: i hateee himm!!! He always searches
for perfection shhal malaqaaa?? Nobody's perfect!!
Me: sayerlech mawqef weyah?
Abyar: mawaqef mu mawqef!
Me: ugh!!
Abyar: 3eeeshay 7ayatech jaadd!! Estaaansay
shoufay ohwa ma hammaaa!! Ou tara allah fakkech mennaahh ra7 tet3ebeeen ma3ah
etha tezawajteeh!!
Me: la abyaaar mara7 at3ab ma3a ely a7ebbaah
sadgeeny!
Abyar: ok al7een shinu? Elrayyal hadech ou
khatha ghairech shbetsaween? Tandeben 3ala 7athech sneeen jeddam??
Me: madry shasawwy!!
Abyar: 3eeeshay 7ayatech!!
...
Zawaj 3azeez athar feeny!!
Khallany ensanaa aqwa ou watha7ly el7ayaat!!
3azeez kesarny!!
Bs bel muqabel khallany aqwa men
gabel!!
3allamny wayed ashya'!!
Mara7 at7assaf 3ala ay degeega 3addat men
3umry!!!
Bs bat7assaf 3ala kel degeggaa ra7 teyye
wana makha6a6t laha 9a7!!
Mara7 a3alleg sa3adty eb ensaan!!!
My goal was to marry aziz..
Bs 3ugub masheft sh9ar 7ag 3ethman ou 7aggy
3araft enna elzawaj 3umra makan hadaff bs elzawaj qesma ou ne9eeeb!
3araft enna eldenya mu 7ub ou zawaj ou 3yal
eldenya mukan yan6er menny ba9ma..
Khalait halshay 3ala rabby ou 7a6aitly hadaf
yeddeeed ohwa enny atkharraj eb a good gpa ou akammel ou a9eer doctor
beljam3a..
3araft enna my happiness is my choice and I
decided to be happy ou 9ert as3ad ensana beldenyaa..
Ma rethait 7g ensan ekharreb 7ayatee marra
thanya ou ta3allamt enny ashouf eljaneb el eejaby eb kel mushkela amer feha..
kellena nmer bmawaqef 9a3ba 3ashan net3allam
menha ou kelshay bhal denya men warah 7ekma..
Luw enny rathya b3ethman ou metzawejta chan
ma qaddar ne3meta ou chan ma3araft qeemat elsa3ada ou ma ta3allamt men
eldenyaa..
Luw 3azeez makhethny chan ma 7asait b6a3am
elsa3ada ou chan ma we9alt lelly ana feeh elyoum..
Elyoum Ana dektora fee jam3at lekwait..
Ou zouja
7g el mu7amy Watha7 Alflani okho Refeejat 3umry ou ekhtee Raghad Alflany and I wouldn’t
ask for more..
La tan6eroun elly etemannonah, ne6raw elly Allah khasha lekum
lannah dayman ajmal!!
و تبقى كلمة الحمدلله هي المعبره دائما..
A7EBKUMMMM OU MASHKOUUUREEEN 3ALA KELSHAAAYYY<3333
